'Everybody's hurt somebody before, everybody's been hurt by somebody before, you can change but you'll always come back for more, It's a game and we're all just victims of love'
- Victims of Love
We've all definitely been victimized by love before haven't we? Unless you're some perfect person then you've definitely felt rejected before. Love is something that I'll definitely try to avoid for a long long time. At the same time, love is something that can give us so much happiness. I know it's wrong of me to say love sucks and bites you in the ass since I've never really experienced it before. I guess the only form of love I believe in now would be God's love.
Damn, today was a pretty fun day! For starters I woke up at 1pm! Late huh, we slept at about 5am last night, close to 6am. Managed to catch up with abit of my Chemistry and Physics today since the other guys woke up at like 3pm. Went to have burger at Lygon for lunch. It was good but I feel that Botak Jones tastes nicer. I'm starting to miss certain aspects of Singapore mainly the people and the food. Went to Safeway after that to restock on our supplies. It's quite cool being able to choose your own soap and shampoo. Basically everything you use, eat, drink, you get to choose it for yourself. In Singapore I would just like take what was in the storeroom and use it.
Played basketball after that. Actually basketball is really fun just that I prefer soccer over it. I may enjoy basketball but I really suck at it! Basically I suck at basketball. Xiong and Joel are going to stay over again today and we'll be watching Transporter. There's church tomorrow morning so I guess I'll be sleeping early.
Something super funny just happened. While I was skyping with my mum, Darren 'borrowed' my phone to see what an iPhone is like. Unfortunately he had an agenda to it. Guess what he did, he SMSed some girl asking her to be my Valentine. Sounds familiar? This kind of stuff really remind me of all the stuff that happened in Singapore. Haha, it's really super funny. Darren hope you feel the love on Monday!!
12:00am
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Spending that night
I'm currently obsessing over the song Thinking of You by Katy Perry. Ok, I know I might be slightly outdated but her voice is so unique, so deep yet so pleasant to the ears unlike that of Miley Cyrus. I heard one of her song once and was like what the.. Anyway, the weather here has cooled down significantly, I mean the afternoons would still be hot but the nights will start to get cooler. Thank God for that.
Anyway, I feel that I've stepped out of my comfort zone in terms of my way of life, learning to do my own laundry, ironing, cleaning up after oneself and all. Can you imagine, I'm like 17 going on 18 and before this I had NO idea how to wash my own clothes. I'm going to take 1 step further and really dare to step up and just make as many friends as I can. Initially I sort of felt that the relationships that I'll build here won't last as I would be going home after this year for NS but I should really be living for the now and stop thinking so deep. Really, after changing my mindset I must say that I really enjoyed myself today hanging out with everyone. I thank God for each and everyone God has blessed me with. There're so many, Darren, Leon, Xiong, Joel and Amos are the people I usually talk to.
Noon was extremely hot today, about 43 degrees. You really step everywhere perspiring even my room was like heated up so I have to get the heat out of my room. Went out for dinner to send Bill off back to Singapore. He's this guy from another intake. We went late so he left early. Walked around city after that with the guys. It was really fun, we had Gloria Jeans (Yes, again), played Daytona and just talked. I really feel that all of us are really bonding together. I know they have been hanging out but ever since stepping out of my 'comfort zone' it's been much more enjoyable for me.
Xiong and Joel are staying over today, so I'll catch you all soon! Gotta go now!
Anyway, I feel that I've stepped out of my comfort zone in terms of my way of life, learning to do my own laundry, ironing, cleaning up after oneself and all. Can you imagine, I'm like 17 going on 18 and before this I had NO idea how to wash my own clothes. I'm going to take 1 step further and really dare to step up and just make as many friends as I can. Initially I sort of felt that the relationships that I'll build here won't last as I would be going home after this year for NS but I should really be living for the now and stop thinking so deep. Really, after changing my mindset I must say that I really enjoyed myself today hanging out with everyone. I thank God for each and everyone God has blessed me with. There're so many, Darren, Leon, Xiong, Joel and Amos are the people I usually talk to.
Noon was extremely hot today, about 43 degrees. You really step everywhere perspiring even my room was like heated up so I have to get the heat out of my room. Went out for dinner to send Bill off back to Singapore. He's this guy from another intake. We went late so he left early. Walked around city after that with the guys. It was really fun, we had Gloria Jeans (Yes, again), played Daytona and just talked. I really feel that all of us are really bonding together. I know they have been hanging out but ever since stepping out of my 'comfort zone' it's been much more enjoyable for me.
Xiong and Joel are staying over today, so I'll catch you all soon! Gotta go now!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Second best
I'm really different as in character wise as compared to so many other guys. I'm not that kind of guy who doesn't give a crap about what is going on. Not as in all guys, don't care about what goes around them all the time but I care too much? That's what my room mate told me. Anyway it's nice that God placed me around people who criticize you all the time. It's both a good thing and a bad thing. They point out where all your bad points are so you can change, and I don't wanna get started on the bad points. Anyway, I'm definitely starting to get used to Australia, but not so used to the people I'm around.
I don't really click well with the people I hang out with now. They're nice people and all, but it's just that I'm like from a different world from them. Really, it's like they're A and I'm the only Z, from both ends of the world. I'm not the kind of person who will change myself just so I can fit in the crowd, if I can't fit in so be it. I gotta admit, I enjoy hanging out with them but most of the time I feel like I'll be enjoying myself more alone. It feels like ever since coming here, I tend to close up to myself more. Here's a fun fact, I can't mess the same way I messed in Singapore without getting on the nerves of some people. I really appreciate all of them as friends but I just can't click with them. Hopefully I'll meet people who I can really talk to, even if it's just one person I'm happy, just someone I can sit down and have a heart to heart talk about anything and not everything superficial. The subjects I've been talking about the past few weeks are like, girls, money, food, school (You get the drift?), all the things about the world, I just wanna be able to talk to someone about the heart. Of course I enjoy hanging out with the guys but it's just not me. By blogging this, I'm thinking that they'll think I'm emo or something when they see this but the important thing is that I'm not. The only person I can have a really heart to heart talk to is with God and most of the time I'm not doing that. There's like this friend waiting in front of me and I'm not doing anything about it when I can.
Just the thought of being able to have my own space really excites me. Sounds weird right? Who would rather spend time alone then spending it with friends but right now, that's how I feel and how I've been feeling. Even by just being able to strum a few tunes makes me really happy. I do enjoy the occasional Dota and soccer games though. I think that God allowed me to come here for a reason aside from the 'education' point of view and I just don't know what is it yet but I'll find out in due course.
See it's like we're going to have pizza soon but somehow I just don't really feel like going but I'll be going cause I'm hungry. Haha, sometimes I just look back and think what caused me to want to leave Singapore. Of course I don't regret this decision I made and I'm enjoying it but there's always those questions that ring in you head that makes you question yourself.
Aside from this, the weather here is getting too hot!! I heard from my friend that it could reach close to 50 degrees celcius or something. Insane right? Come on authum, come quick! Darn, didn't really pay much attention during Physics at the later part, I felt so sleepy. I'll catch up though.
I don't really click well with the people I hang out with now. They're nice people and all, but it's just that I'm like from a different world from them. Really, it's like they're A and I'm the only Z, from both ends of the world. I'm not the kind of person who will change myself just so I can fit in the crowd, if I can't fit in so be it. I gotta admit, I enjoy hanging out with them but most of the time I feel like I'll be enjoying myself more alone. It feels like ever since coming here, I tend to close up to myself more. Here's a fun fact, I can't mess the same way I messed in Singapore without getting on the nerves of some people. I really appreciate all of them as friends but I just can't click with them. Hopefully I'll meet people who I can really talk to, even if it's just one person I'm happy, just someone I can sit down and have a heart to heart talk about anything and not everything superficial. The subjects I've been talking about the past few weeks are like, girls, money, food, school (You get the drift?), all the things about the world, I just wanna be able to talk to someone about the heart. Of course I enjoy hanging out with the guys but it's just not me. By blogging this, I'm thinking that they'll think I'm emo or something when they see this but the important thing is that I'm not. The only person I can have a really heart to heart talk to is with God and most of the time I'm not doing that. There's like this friend waiting in front of me and I'm not doing anything about it when I can.
Just the thought of being able to have my own space really excites me. Sounds weird right? Who would rather spend time alone then spending it with friends but right now, that's how I feel and how I've been feeling. Even by just being able to strum a few tunes makes me really happy. I do enjoy the occasional Dota and soccer games though. I think that God allowed me to come here for a reason aside from the 'education' point of view and I just don't know what is it yet but I'll find out in due course.
See it's like we're going to have pizza soon but somehow I just don't really feel like going but I'll be going cause I'm hungry. Haha, sometimes I just look back and think what caused me to want to leave Singapore. Of course I don't regret this decision I made and I'm enjoying it but there's always those questions that ring in you head that makes you question yourself.
Aside from this, the weather here is getting too hot!! I heard from my friend that it could reach close to 50 degrees celcius or something. Insane right? Come on authum, come quick! Darn, didn't really pay much attention during Physics at the later part, I felt so sleepy. I'll catch up though.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
37
Ok, summer has really started man.. It's really started to heat things up around here. I still remember the first few nights here I had to fold the blanket to make it thicker to cover me, now I have to like walk around half naked or it will be just too hot.
I must say, that I've really been putting in effort into my studies and I'm really making it a point not to lag behind. Somehow, I feel that I'm slowly losing my focus so I hope that I'll not. I really gotta to do really well so as to not waste everything that my mum has put in. Guess what's the temperature now, 37 degrees Celsius!! Argh, I won't be blogging much the next few days so I guess I'll just be stopping here.
I must say, that I've really been putting in effort into my studies and I'm really making it a point not to lag behind. Somehow, I feel that I'm slowly losing my focus so I hope that I'll not. I really gotta to do really well so as to not waste everything that my mum has put in. Guess what's the temperature now, 37 degrees Celsius!! Argh, I won't be blogging much the next few days so I guess I'll just be stopping here.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Swiss army romance
Ok, today was a pretty normal day, nothing much has happened. Darren's birthday is today. That's all about today I guess, don't really have the mood to blog.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Bend and not break
Happy Chinese New Year guys! Hope you guys over at Singapore have a great time and those over here enjoy yourselves as well! It sure doesn't feel like Chinese New Year to me. I don't know why but I no longer feel the 'magic' of holidays anymore. I remember when I was young that I would look forward to Chinese New Year and Christmas especially. I still remember the exact feeling I would feel when a holiday nears. It really felt very magical for me. Now, holidays just seem like any other day to me. Is it true that as we grow older we start to become like this? I sure hope not.
Went out at night for dinner with Darren, Joel, Leon and Roxanne. Went to Lygon again. You can never get sick of the food there. Today we spent more than we usually would since it's Chinese New Year. Ahh, the excuses we make for ourselves to indulge.. We ordered 1 seafood platter which was good! The serving is super big, it says for 2 but in actuallity it can actually feed 5 people. Of course it won't make us full but it's good enough. Ordered steak today, medium rare with red wine and black pepper sauce. Let me just describe it to you. The meat they give is like 1 big slab of meat. It's about 3-4 pinkies thick when you stack them together. Once you eat the steak here, and compare it to Singapore's, you really find that most of the steaks in Singapore is crap. Now for the sauce, it was so so good. You know in Singapore when you order red wine sauce, you can barely even taste the wine cause they put so little wine. Over here, you can really taste the wine and mixed together with the black pepper, it's perfect! After that, we had ice cream. The flavours I had today were white chocolate and cinnamon doughnut. The cinnamon doughnut could have been better but it's not bad.
Trying to meet my sleeping time which is at 11:30pm so I'll see you guys again soon!
Went out at night for dinner with Darren, Joel, Leon and Roxanne. Went to Lygon again. You can never get sick of the food there. Today we spent more than we usually would since it's Chinese New Year. Ahh, the excuses we make for ourselves to indulge.. We ordered 1 seafood platter which was good! The serving is super big, it says for 2 but in actuallity it can actually feed 5 people. Of course it won't make us full but it's good enough. Ordered steak today, medium rare with red wine and black pepper sauce. Let me just describe it to you. The meat they give is like 1 big slab of meat. It's about 3-4 pinkies thick when you stack them together. Once you eat the steak here, and compare it to Singapore's, you really find that most of the steaks in Singapore is crap. Now for the sauce, it was so so good. You know in Singapore when you order red wine sauce, you can barely even taste the wine cause they put so little wine. Over here, you can really taste the wine and mixed together with the black pepper, it's perfect! After that, we had ice cream. The flavours I had today were white chocolate and cinnamon doughnut. The cinnamon doughnut could have been better but it's not bad.
Trying to meet my sleeping time which is at 11:30pm so I'll see you guys again soon!
For an open mind
This post is about Christianity so if you're not Christian an don't have an open mind you might just want to go away for now? There's actually some chores I have to do but I really feel the urged the blog this.
Last night just before I was about to sleep I was just reflecting through on what had gone on the past couple of days and 1 incident was really stuck in my mind. Basically, a few days ago Darren, Leon and I were decided on what to get for Roxanne's parents to thank them for treating us. So as we were discussing what to get I said 'Bible'. In my mind, it was like what better time to show them about Christ. Immediately that idea was shot down by the both of them. Initially in my mind I was like 'Wow..' so I just asked why. The answers I received were pretty much 'correct' in the human point of view. Some of the answers I received were "It's not the right time to show them Christ.", "It's not God's time for them to receive Christ", "Clash of interest". You get the idea right? At that point in time I was like "Maybe that's true.." So one of them told me if someone gave you a Muslim Bible (I think he said this), what would you do with it. I said I would chuck it aside but still receive the gift. Then, my mindset was changed and I felt that yea, why bother giving them a bible, it's definitely not God's time. The question that came to my mind after that was "When is the right time to show people to Christ?" I know that the answer is any time, any where but somehow after that conversation, I really started to doubt that.
Thank God, that he gave the answer to me last night. The answer was right around neck the whole time! (The Cross) I think it was the Holy Spirit telling me the answer. By saying that "It's not the right time and stuff", you're actually putting faith in your own works to bring others to Christ. You're also actually saying that "Yeap, the Bible doesn't have the power to show people Christ so why bother giving it, I mean the reader believes in her own religion and it won't be helping her much so she'll just chuck it aside or maybe even throw it away behind our backs." Yes, I believe that's a possibility that would happen but I also believe in the finish work of Christ and how much power the Bible contains. Nowadays as humans it's natural to put faith in your own ability and not in God. Sometimes we don't even realise that we're doing that when we are! By giving the Bible to someone, I believe that we're actually planting a seed in his/her life which would grow in time to come. The fruits would definitely come out, it's just how well you water and nuture the seed. I thank God there he showed me how full of flaws I am. I knew about the finished work of Christ and how it has power over everything and yet there I was believing that, "That's true, maybe we shouldn't give the Bible." If believe that if we give our Bible through our own faith then yea, the family would just chuck it aside but if WE gave the Bible in faith of our Saviour, it would be a whole different story. But yes, personally I feel that it's a good thing that we didn't give the Bible because if we have given it, it would be given in our own faith and not in the faith of God.
Thinking deeper, for how long have I been putting faith in my own abilities and not God's. I would say EVERY TIME. Seriously, all this while I have this great source of power and love in front of me but I choose to rely on my own strength! How foolish have I been. I know it's not going to be easy putting full faith in God because I have been like this my whole life but I'm going to try to change. By putting full faith in God means that, the next time crap happens in your life the first thing you do is just commit it to the Lord! Easier said than done, when crap happens in our lifes what do we do? Our human instinct immediately tells us, What can I do to fix it? Instead, we should be thinking, God I give this problem to you for I can't solve it in my own strength, please help me. You get what I mean? I'm not saying all of you are like that, maybe you aren't but I believe that a large majority of us are like this.
This post is not to judge (in case you feel judged) but to help. No, you're not condemed by having acted this way. No, having this mentality won't make God look at you or love you any differently. You know why? It's cause of the finished work of Christ and his blood that is shed in us already. When God sees us, he sees us with the Glory of Jesus EVERY SINGLE TIME. I hope that by reading this, through the grace of God, that an impact has been made in your life.
The end..
12:04pm
Last night just before I was about to sleep I was just reflecting through on what had gone on the past couple of days and 1 incident was really stuck in my mind. Basically, a few days ago Darren, Leon and I were decided on what to get for Roxanne's parents to thank them for treating us. So as we were discussing what to get I said 'Bible'. In my mind, it was like what better time to show them about Christ. Immediately that idea was shot down by the both of them. Initially in my mind I was like 'Wow..' so I just asked why. The answers I received were pretty much 'correct' in the human point of view. Some of the answers I received were "It's not the right time to show them Christ.", "It's not God's time for them to receive Christ", "Clash of interest". You get the idea right? At that point in time I was like "Maybe that's true.." So one of them told me if someone gave you a Muslim Bible (I think he said this), what would you do with it. I said I would chuck it aside but still receive the gift. Then, my mindset was changed and I felt that yea, why bother giving them a bible, it's definitely not God's time. The question that came to my mind after that was "When is the right time to show people to Christ?" I know that the answer is any time, any where but somehow after that conversation, I really started to doubt that.
Thank God, that he gave the answer to me last night. The answer was right around neck the whole time! (The Cross) I think it was the Holy Spirit telling me the answer. By saying that "It's not the right time and stuff", you're actually putting faith in your own works to bring others to Christ. You're also actually saying that "Yeap, the Bible doesn't have the power to show people Christ so why bother giving it, I mean the reader believes in her own religion and it won't be helping her much so she'll just chuck it aside or maybe even throw it away behind our backs." Yes, I believe that's a possibility that would happen but I also believe in the finish work of Christ and how much power the Bible contains. Nowadays as humans it's natural to put faith in your own ability and not in God. Sometimes we don't even realise that we're doing that when we are! By giving the Bible to someone, I believe that we're actually planting a seed in his/her life which would grow in time to come. The fruits would definitely come out, it's just how well you water and nuture the seed. I thank God there he showed me how full of flaws I am. I knew about the finished work of Christ and how it has power over everything and yet there I was believing that, "That's true, maybe we shouldn't give the Bible." If believe that if we give our Bible through our own faith then yea, the family would just chuck it aside but if WE gave the Bible in faith of our Saviour, it would be a whole different story. But yes, personally I feel that it's a good thing that we didn't give the Bible because if we have given it, it would be given in our own faith and not in the faith of God.
Thinking deeper, for how long have I been putting faith in my own abilities and not God's. I would say EVERY TIME. Seriously, all this while I have this great source of power and love in front of me but I choose to rely on my own strength! How foolish have I been. I know it's not going to be easy putting full faith in God because I have been like this my whole life but I'm going to try to change. By putting full faith in God means that, the next time crap happens in your life the first thing you do is just commit it to the Lord! Easier said than done, when crap happens in our lifes what do we do? Our human instinct immediately tells us, What can I do to fix it? Instead, we should be thinking, God I give this problem to you for I can't solve it in my own strength, please help me. You get what I mean? I'm not saying all of you are like that, maybe you aren't but I believe that a large majority of us are like this.
This post is not to judge (in case you feel judged) but to help. No, you're not condemed by having acted this way. No, having this mentality won't make God look at you or love you any differently. You know why? It's cause of the finished work of Christ and his blood that is shed in us already. When God sees us, he sees us with the Glory of Jesus EVERY SINGLE TIME. I hope that by reading this, through the grace of God, that an impact has been made in your life.
The end..
12:04pm
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Trouble is
It's Chinese New Year eve right now but it sure doesn't feel like CNY to me, feels like just another day. Honestly, I wouldn't mind spending today alone but ended up going for some BBQ with some school mates at night. I think I'm more of the kind of person who will keep to myself unless I'm really close to you, trouble is, my friends here think I'm emo or something like that. Maybe it's the hair, maybe it's just the way I act but I feel that I'm definitely not emo once you know me, of course.
Going to the BBQ was really a last minute decision for me. For one, I knew that there would definitely be alcohol and I really wanted to put myself away from tempation but I still went in the end and thankfully I didn't even feel tempted to have a sip when my friends told me to. Initially I was supposed to go for some dinner with Leon, Roxane and Darren but I said no at first and by the time I said yes there was not enough space. Roxanne's parents wanted to treat us that's why I felt bad and I'm feeling slightly blessed that I didn't go cause I got to experience another kind of 'BBQ' with friends. No one really got drunk except for one who got slightly drunk and started talking funny stuff. Met quite a few people too. There's this guy, his name is Ikram (I think that's how you spell it) and he plays the guitar. His guitar is so good, it's an Epiphone and it cost him Aussie $900 which is about S$900. The guitar is really super good, sounds extremely good and is very nice to play. He says it actually is almost exactly like a Gibson just slightly lousier. Met some other people too but I don't remember all their names, I really suck at remembering people's names.
Well, before the BBQ I actually went out to have dinner on my own. Ever since coming to Australia I just feel like the companianship I will build here would be 'short term' in the sense that I'll have to go back the next year to serve NS so what's the point of getting so close right. I know this kind of mentality is wrong but that's the way I think. I'll try to change that mentality but it's not gonna be easy since it's been with me for quite some time.
Other than that I guess I've grown closer to Darren and Leon in the sense that we spend so much time together so it's pretty cool. I mean we spend so much time together so how not to be close. They aren't like you guys in Singapore, and they are really different kind of friends to mix with. I always knew that this world is really big but ever since coming here I finally realized just how big this world is. Singapore really is a bad place to grow up in because of the way they educate the people. Yes, it may be good but is it really helping as much as it can?
Just skyped with my family, uncle, auntie and cousin included. Was really great catching up with them. The thing about me is that do I dare blog how I really feel when I know who is reading this blog. So far, it's been ok, I mean we all hide some stuff but I'm not changing what I want to type just to hide how I feel from people. That's the reason why this blog was locked for such a long time, cause I was afraid I might change the way I blog when I open it up.
My first CNY eve away from home and it wasn't bad at all, a new experience. I wouldn't say that CNY at home would be a better as compared to having it away from home, they're both good and bad in their own sense.
Gotta study now! Take care!
12:00am
Going to the BBQ was really a last minute decision for me. For one, I knew that there would definitely be alcohol and I really wanted to put myself away from tempation but I still went in the end and thankfully I didn't even feel tempted to have a sip when my friends told me to. Initially I was supposed to go for some dinner with Leon, Roxane and Darren but I said no at first and by the time I said yes there was not enough space. Roxanne's parents wanted to treat us that's why I felt bad and I'm feeling slightly blessed that I didn't go cause I got to experience another kind of 'BBQ' with friends. No one really got drunk except for one who got slightly drunk and started talking funny stuff. Met quite a few people too. There's this guy, his name is Ikram (I think that's how you spell it) and he plays the guitar. His guitar is so good, it's an Epiphone and it cost him Aussie $900 which is about S$900. The guitar is really super good, sounds extremely good and is very nice to play. He says it actually is almost exactly like a Gibson just slightly lousier. Met some other people too but I don't remember all their names, I really suck at remembering people's names.
Well, before the BBQ I actually went out to have dinner on my own. Ever since coming to Australia I just feel like the companianship I will build here would be 'short term' in the sense that I'll have to go back the next year to serve NS so what's the point of getting so close right. I know this kind of mentality is wrong but that's the way I think. I'll try to change that mentality but it's not gonna be easy since it's been with me for quite some time.
Other than that I guess I've grown closer to Darren and Leon in the sense that we spend so much time together so it's pretty cool. I mean we spend so much time together so how not to be close. They aren't like you guys in Singapore, and they are really different kind of friends to mix with. I always knew that this world is really big but ever since coming here I finally realized just how big this world is. Singapore really is a bad place to grow up in because of the way they educate the people. Yes, it may be good but is it really helping as much as it can?
Just skyped with my family, uncle, auntie and cousin included. Was really great catching up with them. The thing about me is that do I dare blog how I really feel when I know who is reading this blog. So far, it's been ok, I mean we all hide some stuff but I'm not changing what I want to type just to hide how I feel from people. That's the reason why this blog was locked for such a long time, cause I was afraid I might change the way I blog when I open it up.
My first CNY eve away from home and it wasn't bad at all, a new experience. I wouldn't say that CNY at home would be a better as compared to having it away from home, they're both good and bad in their own sense.
Gotta study now! Take care!
12:00am
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Down
Damn, my contact lenses is either flushed down the sink or stuck behind my eye. My gosh, it's so crappy. The thing is it's like my eyes aren't feeling irritated but there's this feeling in my head that it's stuck there. Whatever, if it's stuck in my eyes I hope it comes out soon so I can get it back if not it's literally 100 bucks flushed down the sink..
Anyway, today we played soccer at Princes Park. It was fun, but it could have been better.. Ok, my blog seriously needs more photos and I'll try to upload it if possible. Dinner after that was so so. Had Gloria Jeans and we just sat there and talked. Joel and Bill joined us today.
Today I said the word 'Fuck' about 10 times. Damn! Sometimes I really feel like the Pharisees.. I'll stop here now, got some stuff to clear up.
Anyway, today we played soccer at Princes Park. It was fun, but it could have been better.. Ok, my blog seriously needs more photos and I'll try to upload it if possible. Dinner after that was so so. Had Gloria Jeans and we just sat there and talked. Joel and Bill joined us today.
Today I said the word 'Fuck' about 10 times. Damn! Sometimes I really feel like the Pharisees.. I'll stop here now, got some stuff to clear up.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Burn
Yes, finally some time to blog.
The past few days have been filled with like minor hiccups here and there. For one, my bed time is getting later and later and I've got to change that. Also I've been trying to install applications on my iPhone but it always seems to fail. To make matters worse, the house internet is screwed up. First they say I've reached my quota for the month and next everyone can't log in at all. Luckily I've got a prepaid broadband card on hand but guess what, the user name and password is in my spoilt com so I can't top it up for now. What the heck right, other than that my life is going on pretty much fine.
Lessons have been rather interesting. The pace of learning here is great, but I think I've mentioned that before. Today was a pretty long day though. After class Darren, Leon, Roxanne and I went to town to get a soccer ball and a basket ball to play. I haven't really been opening up to any of them yet and most of the time I keep to myself but that doesn't make me emo right cause that's what Darren keeps on calling me, emo! Anyway, we managed to get some cones and the balls after that. Roxanne's family came back to Australia after that so her parents treated us to Thai food. I really feel uncomfortable with people treating me as it sort of feels weird. The food there was not bad, especially the Tom Yum soup.
Ended the day at the basketball court playing basketball and soccer with the 2 of them. Played abit of basketball and more of soccer. Since there were only 3 of us we played 1v1. Oh, I miss those days where I get to do that with Jerome and his brother, getting thrashed upside down. You know Leon doesn't play soccer at all and when he just started playing with us he is so freaking good. He can just burn Darren and I like nothing so no matter what I do to get past him, he just comes back and gets the ball. He really has alot of promise in soccer. His physical aspect of the game is darn good. Runs fast, high stamina, tall, strong, you get what I mean? Once his technical ability reaches to an acceptable level he will own all of us. Hopefully one day he'll get to come to Anfield and just have fun.
Didn't manage to do my Physics today so I'll just catch up on that tomorrow. Alex, don't judge my house!!
The past few days have been filled with like minor hiccups here and there. For one, my bed time is getting later and later and I've got to change that. Also I've been trying to install applications on my iPhone but it always seems to fail. To make matters worse, the house internet is screwed up. First they say I've reached my quota for the month and next everyone can't log in at all. Luckily I've got a prepaid broadband card on hand but guess what, the user name and password is in my spoilt com so I can't top it up for now. What the heck right, other than that my life is going on pretty much fine.
Lessons have been rather interesting. The pace of learning here is great, but I think I've mentioned that before. Today was a pretty long day though. After class Darren, Leon, Roxanne and I went to town to get a soccer ball and a basket ball to play. I haven't really been opening up to any of them yet and most of the time I keep to myself but that doesn't make me emo right cause that's what Darren keeps on calling me, emo! Anyway, we managed to get some cones and the balls after that. Roxanne's family came back to Australia after that so her parents treated us to Thai food. I really feel uncomfortable with people treating me as it sort of feels weird. The food there was not bad, especially the Tom Yum soup.
Ended the day at the basketball court playing basketball and soccer with the 2 of them. Played abit of basketball and more of soccer. Since there were only 3 of us we played 1v1. Oh, I miss those days where I get to do that with Jerome and his brother, getting thrashed upside down. You know Leon doesn't play soccer at all and when he just started playing with us he is so freaking good. He can just burn Darren and I like nothing so no matter what I do to get past him, he just comes back and gets the ball. He really has alot of promise in soccer. His physical aspect of the game is darn good. Runs fast, high stamina, tall, strong, you get what I mean? Once his technical ability reaches to an acceptable level he will own all of us. Hopefully one day he'll get to come to Anfield and just have fun.
Didn't manage to do my Physics today so I'll just catch up on that tomorrow. Alex, don't judge my house!!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Broken hearts parade
Life's gotten much busier for me in the sense that I've alot to study since there's this 1 year gap between science and I due to the 1 year I spent in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I won't classify the time spent there as wasted time and in fact it was a really great time of making new friends and experiencing the 'outside' world.
I finally caught up with Physics and Chemistry, in fact I'm starting to look forward to each lesson. Did I mention, my latest Chemistry test got 27/30. Amazing how abundant God's grace is, I started barely knowing anything and somehow by His grace I've managed to grasp so many concepts.
Still thinking if I should be joining soccer over here. It's like 3 times a week and I'm happy making the 3rd league team just so I can play. 1 of the main factors causing me not to join is the amount time I have to commit. I'm utterly exhausted today, went to check out what soccer training would be like and it was pretty fun.
Pizza for dinner after that and here I am after 2 hours of chores. Gotta go sleep now, my internet just crashed and my MSN can't log on so some conversations got cut short! Sorry! Oh yea, this few day has been packed with inconveniences here and there which makes my day even worse.
I finally caught up with Physics and Chemistry, in fact I'm starting to look forward to each lesson. Did I mention, my latest Chemistry test got 27/30. Amazing how abundant God's grace is, I started barely knowing anything and somehow by His grace I've managed to grasp so many concepts.
Still thinking if I should be joining soccer over here. It's like 3 times a week and I'm happy making the 3rd league team just so I can play. 1 of the main factors causing me not to join is the amount time I have to commit. I'm utterly exhausted today, went to check out what soccer training would be like and it was pretty fun.
Pizza for dinner after that and here I am after 2 hours of chores. Gotta go sleep now, my internet just crashed and my MSN can't log on so some conversations got cut short! Sorry! Oh yea, this few day has been packed with inconveniences here and there which makes my day even worse.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Dice
Wa.. The girl in the house just cried cause Darren and I were throwing around her stuff toys, actually I sort of started it. Girls..
Anyway, almost caught up with Physics and there's only forces left and the chapter he's going to teach tomorrow. Chemistry has been going pretty well and I'm starting to understand it easier and easier. Hopefully soon I'll be pro at it.
Don't feel like blogging much today since it's 10 minutes past my bed time. I'm trying to keep this habit of sleeping early and waking up early cause I'm starting to get immune to my alarm. Lord, I pray that you'll help me to wake up tomorrow! Thanks!
Anyway, my MSN has some problem so I can't log in and I have no idea why. Alright, that's all for today.
Anyway, almost caught up with Physics and there's only forces left and the chapter he's going to teach tomorrow. Chemistry has been going pretty well and I'm starting to understand it easier and easier. Hopefully soon I'll be pro at it.
Don't feel like blogging much today since it's 10 minutes past my bed time. I'm trying to keep this habit of sleeping early and waking up early cause I'm starting to get immune to my alarm. Lord, I pray that you'll help me to wake up tomorrow! Thanks!
Anyway, my MSN has some problem so I can't log in and I have no idea why. Alright, that's all for today.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Alden you can stab my back again!
Shiba.. Why do all the moths keep coming to my room. I'm okay with catching the smaller one but the big ones seriously freak me out.
Anyway, there was no school today so it was pretty much a day where I got to do my chores and catch up on my Physics. Honestly, I'm still not very clear about the current topic that the professor is teaching, Motion but I will catch up. Since some of the people had school, Leon and I waited for them to finish before we headed out to the city. Finally managed to collect my ATM card. I also got the goods for Jerome already. Make sure no one sees you with it. Haha! Managed to finally have McDonald's for lunch. The fries here are very nice. It's like not too hard but not too soft and salty enough but not too salty. Call me weird, but I like my fries soggy. Managed to get a bottle and some other necessities from the city as well. Took a tram back after that. Damn, today's another hot day. As in like really warm and no cool breeze. I hate nights like this.
Well, Roxanne shifted to our place. Feels abit weird cause it feels like I got much lesser space than before but I'll get used to it in the end. She's staying here cause she has to stay alone in her house and she's scared. No offence if you're reading this. Haha.
Brought back a lamb souvlaki for late dinner. We celebrated Auntie Doe's birthday today as well. You might not be reading this but happy 46th & God bless! Angela came too so there were quite alot of people here. Didn't really get to study much today, it's been a pretty hectic day. The hot weather, the chores and stuff.
Yea, Gunawan shifted out yesterday. If you're reading this then good, but if you're not then you have my good wishes! Haha, just wanna thank God for Gunawan. He introduced to us all the good food to eat like the curry don, the lamb souvlaki, nasi lemak house and so much more. Played a fair bit of soccer with him as well and had fun. I still remember he sent me this song, The Man Who Can't Be Moved and I kept it on replay for a day or two and he was like what the heck. Yes, I still remember what happened in Dota but I'll remember the happier moments! Take care at your new place and study hard! God bless you!
I'm also sort of enjoying the 'night talks' with Darren where we talk about so much stuff under the sun.
School tomorrow so I gotta turn in early tonight. Seeya!
1 more thing, I'm trying to find songs that remind me off 5 years back. You know those songs that you listen to on the radio last time such as I Knew I Loved You and Truly Madly Deeply, both by Savage Garden? Yea, I'm trying to get songs that sound like that so if you know any feel free to just put the name and artiste on my tag box! Much thanks!
11:30pm
Anyway, there was no school today so it was pretty much a day where I got to do my chores and catch up on my Physics. Honestly, I'm still not very clear about the current topic that the professor is teaching, Motion but I will catch up. Since some of the people had school, Leon and I waited for them to finish before we headed out to the city. Finally managed to collect my ATM card. I also got the goods for Jerome already. Make sure no one sees you with it. Haha! Managed to finally have McDonald's for lunch. The fries here are very nice. It's like not too hard but not too soft and salty enough but not too salty. Call me weird, but I like my fries soggy. Managed to get a bottle and some other necessities from the city as well. Took a tram back after that. Damn, today's another hot day. As in like really warm and no cool breeze. I hate nights like this.
Well, Roxanne shifted to our place. Feels abit weird cause it feels like I got much lesser space than before but I'll get used to it in the end. She's staying here cause she has to stay alone in her house and she's scared. No offence if you're reading this. Haha.
Brought back a lamb souvlaki for late dinner. We celebrated Auntie Doe's birthday today as well. You might not be reading this but happy 46th & God bless! Angela came too so there were quite alot of people here. Didn't really get to study much today, it's been a pretty hectic day. The hot weather, the chores and stuff.
Yea, Gunawan shifted out yesterday. If you're reading this then good, but if you're not then you have my good wishes! Haha, just wanna thank God for Gunawan. He introduced to us all the good food to eat like the curry don, the lamb souvlaki, nasi lemak house and so much more. Played a fair bit of soccer with him as well and had fun. I still remember he sent me this song, The Man Who Can't Be Moved and I kept it on replay for a day or two and he was like what the heck. Yes, I still remember what happened in Dota but I'll remember the happier moments! Take care at your new place and study hard! God bless you!
I'm also sort of enjoying the 'night talks' with Darren where we talk about so much stuff under the sun.
School tomorrow so I gotta turn in early tonight. Seeya!
1 more thing, I'm trying to find songs that remind me off 5 years back. You know those songs that you listen to on the radio last time such as I Knew I Loved You and Truly Madly Deeply, both by Savage Garden? Yea, I'm trying to get songs that sound like that so if you know any feel free to just put the name and artiste on my tag box! Much thanks!
11:30pm
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Glory to God
Woah, today was a indescribable day. The highlight of the day was that I went church and I did something really crazy there. I'll talk about it later.
Ok, actually I would just talk about it now. After reading the book Destined to Reign by Pastor Joseph Prince it really changed my entire perception of Christianity. From focusing on the law, to the grace of God. The grace of God really owns everything, and even law. Hard to believe? Read the book to believe it, your life will be changed. So coiencidentally the pastor today was preaching about the law of God. The law is not wrong, in fact it symbolises God's standards. I myself cannot explain what I believe that's why you have to read the book to feel it for yourself. As the preacher was preaching there was this fire burning in my heart reminding me about the grace of God. The preacher was preaching about the law. I can imagine how bad the people were feeling as the preacher was reminding them about all the sins they have commited. The law makes you feel like crap, it shows you something you can NEVER be! I really really can imagine the guilt the people were feeling admist the laughter of the congregation. (The preacher phrased some of his sentences funnily.) But really, focusing on the law really defeats the purpose of the cruxification. I really don't know how to explain it but in the book it explains EVERYTHING, just read it, trust me! Seriously, the fire in my heart was so strong. It was mixed with some personal emotions which are wrong such as anger. The anger was definitely wrong and I just gave it up to the Lord. I could really feel the fire to tell him where he has gone so wrong. No, I'm not that good and it's only through the grace of the Lord that I'm able to say such things. In my mind I was hoping for an opportunity to be able to tell him how I feel. Amazingly, it came at the end. The pastor said if there was any questions you can just talk to him. I could really feel the Holy Spirit upon me and not thinking twice I just went up to him and when I was in front of him I was like what the heck am I doing. I really couldn't put what I wanted to tell him into words so I just told him this. Hey Pastor, can I introduce to you a book? He said yes and I just introduced him the book and wrote it down on a piece of paper. I asked him to promise me to read the book and he did and I ended with saying 'It'll change you.' Sounds crazy right? But that happened.
My friends think I'm crazy, it doesn't really bother me. I am guessing that alot of people had eyes on me but it felt that I could only feel God, the pastor and I there. I finally understand what it must feel like for Pastor Prince to have to preach Grace everytime. You feel like the world is against you but at the same time you know that all you need is God by your side. Honestly, after talking to my friends after that and they started asking me what I said and indirectly questioning my beliefs I really felt condemed. I would not be surprised if some of them think I'm 'educated' in Christ the wrong way but that's what I believe and it won't change. I'm 100% sure that if they themselves read the book, they'll be changed and I sincerely hope you guys read it too!
12:45am
Ok, actually I would just talk about it now. After reading the book Destined to Reign by Pastor Joseph Prince it really changed my entire perception of Christianity. From focusing on the law, to the grace of God. The grace of God really owns everything, and even law. Hard to believe? Read the book to believe it, your life will be changed. So coiencidentally the pastor today was preaching about the law of God. The law is not wrong, in fact it symbolises God's standards. I myself cannot explain what I believe that's why you have to read the book to feel it for yourself. As the preacher was preaching there was this fire burning in my heart reminding me about the grace of God. The preacher was preaching about the law. I can imagine how bad the people were feeling as the preacher was reminding them about all the sins they have commited. The law makes you feel like crap, it shows you something you can NEVER be! I really really can imagine the guilt the people were feeling admist the laughter of the congregation. (The preacher phrased some of his sentences funnily.) But really, focusing on the law really defeats the purpose of the cruxification. I really don't know how to explain it but in the book it explains EVERYTHING, just read it, trust me! Seriously, the fire in my heart was so strong. It was mixed with some personal emotions which are wrong such as anger. The anger was definitely wrong and I just gave it up to the Lord. I could really feel the fire to tell him where he has gone so wrong. No, I'm not that good and it's only through the grace of the Lord that I'm able to say such things. In my mind I was hoping for an opportunity to be able to tell him how I feel. Amazingly, it came at the end. The pastor said if there was any questions you can just talk to him. I could really feel the Holy Spirit upon me and not thinking twice I just went up to him and when I was in front of him I was like what the heck am I doing. I really couldn't put what I wanted to tell him into words so I just told him this. Hey Pastor, can I introduce to you a book? He said yes and I just introduced him the book and wrote it down on a piece of paper. I asked him to promise me to read the book and he did and I ended with saying 'It'll change you.' Sounds crazy right? But that happened.
My friends think I'm crazy, it doesn't really bother me. I am guessing that alot of people had eyes on me but it felt that I could only feel God, the pastor and I there. I finally understand what it must feel like for Pastor Prince to have to preach Grace everytime. You feel like the world is against you but at the same time you know that all you need is God by your side. Honestly, after talking to my friends after that and they started asking me what I said and indirectly questioning my beliefs I really felt condemed. I would not be surprised if some of them think I'm 'educated' in Christ the wrong way but that's what I believe and it won't change. I'm 100% sure that if they themselves read the book, they'll be changed and I sincerely hope you guys read it too!
12:45am
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Take me away
It's been a long time since I've played Dota with actual people. Yea, just finished 2 games with my roommates and it was pretty fun playing with them. There were 4 of us so we just played 2v2. Ahh, I miss those days where I get to play with Alex and just have a GOOD time of bonding with him. (Get what I mean??)
Oh well, soccer today was very bad for me. I played like crap and I was the weakest link in my team. I seriously sucked in today's game. Missed 2 chances where I should have buried the ball in and basically wasn't able to get hold of the ball much. Pretty dissapointed in my performance today. The pitch was pretty good, like the one at ACS(I). It's actually an artifical turf. The winds today were great too. It was very enjoyable playing in such an environment. You know I heard from someone that the wind here comes from Antartica. Cool right, it's like I'm breathing air from a totally obscure place. Soccer wise, there's definitely alot for me to improve in. If I were to give myself a rating today I would give 2.5/10. Yea, that's how bad I played.
Not sure if I mentioned this before but do you know that the Sushi here is big? The rolls are like as thick as 5 thumbs put together and are pretty long as well.
Hmm, the thing about life is that we can never be prepared enough for the things to come. No matter how hard we try to prepare ourselves for what's coming it'll come down hard and real. It's undeniable that life brings much happiness but we just can't deny the fact that life brings about just as much sadness. (That's where Jesus comes in.) No, I'm not sad or anything, just pondering.
Vulgaraties.. I'm surrounded by a world full of vulgaraties. I pray I do not get influenced into using them. I know they're wrong and it's a sin to use them but sometimes the thought just comes to you to use it and once you say it, you can't take it back. Seriously, 4 out of 10 sentences I hear contains vulgaraties.
I've got a Chemistry test next Wednesday, keep me in prayer okay? Thanks!
I should start taking more pictures as well.
Oh well, soccer today was very bad for me. I played like crap and I was the weakest link in my team. I seriously sucked in today's game. Missed 2 chances where I should have buried the ball in and basically wasn't able to get hold of the ball much. Pretty dissapointed in my performance today. The pitch was pretty good, like the one at ACS(I). It's actually an artifical turf. The winds today were great too. It was very enjoyable playing in such an environment. You know I heard from someone that the wind here comes from Antartica. Cool right, it's like I'm breathing air from a totally obscure place. Soccer wise, there's definitely alot for me to improve in. If I were to give myself a rating today I would give 2.5/10. Yea, that's how bad I played.
Not sure if I mentioned this before but do you know that the Sushi here is big? The rolls are like as thick as 5 thumbs put together and are pretty long as well.
Hmm, the thing about life is that we can never be prepared enough for the things to come. No matter how hard we try to prepare ourselves for what's coming it'll come down hard and real. It's undeniable that life brings much happiness but we just can't deny the fact that life brings about just as much sadness. (That's where Jesus comes in.) No, I'm not sad or anything, just pondering.
Vulgaraties.. I'm surrounded by a world full of vulgaraties. I pray I do not get influenced into using them. I know they're wrong and it's a sin to use them but sometimes the thought just comes to you to use it and once you say it, you can't take it back. Seriously, 4 out of 10 sentences I hear contains vulgaraties.
I've got a Chemistry test next Wednesday, keep me in prayer okay? Thanks!
I should start taking more pictures as well.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Somewhere in between
Ok, I won't blog much today cause there's nothing much to blog about today.
Tomorrow I've got this soccer friendly match. It's like my intake playing against the previous intake. I hope it's gonna be fun and we booked the field so we'll be able to play 7 on 7. The losers has to pay for the field. Not everyone in my team plays soccer so tomorrow's game should be an interesting one.
I'm starting to get used to life here and I'm definitely enjoying my time out here.
This songs says how I felt when I first came here.
Daughtry - Home
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Tomorrow I've got this soccer friendly match. It's like my intake playing against the previous intake. I hope it's gonna be fun and we booked the field so we'll be able to play 7 on 7. The losers has to pay for the field. Not everyone in my team plays soccer so tomorrow's game should be an interesting one.
I'm starting to get used to life here and I'm definitely enjoying my time out here.
This songs says how I felt when I first came here.
Daughtry - Home
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I'm an ass
Hah, today was a pretty interesting day. From now on, Thursdays shall be laundry and contact lenses soaking day.
So why is today interesting? I sort of pissed a girl off I think. You see I've been calling a girl Bugs Bunny and some of my friends were talking about it in the class and they told her to ask me about what I called her since she didn't hear it. So when I was walking to class today I was confronted by her and her friend and since 1 lie covers up another I just told the truth. I'm feeling abit bad, I mean if someone called me a name behind me I'll feel pretty angry too. I'm sure that a few years down the road I'm just gonna laugh this one off.
Anyway, thank God Chemistry wasn't that hard today since they were recapping old stuff. Darn, I wasn't listening much in Physics cause of my lack of discipline. It's like I would look at the board but my mind drifts a million miles away to another place. Classes here are quite cool actually and they come in one and a half hours with a half an hour break at the end. So there can be 4 classes in a day with a lunch break in between too. Cool right, since when did classes in Singapore have a half an hour break at the end.
Thursdays is also Pizza day! There's a shop nearby selling Pizza at half price every Thursday and it's not bad. (I think I blogged about this last Thursday, oops!)
Hmm, I lost my cool at my mum today. I don't wanna talk much about it but I hope things are okay now. Nevermind, I'll just say how I feel. Sometimes I seriously don't treasure those around me and I don't want to really start treasuring them when they're gone. I pray that from now on I'll be more appreciative in life.
God has really provided me with so much and I should just start counting what I have cause I deserve non at all. Is that how I should be thinking? I don't know..
So why is today interesting? I sort of pissed a girl off I think. You see I've been calling a girl Bugs Bunny and some of my friends were talking about it in the class and they told her to ask me about what I called her since she didn't hear it. So when I was walking to class today I was confronted by her and her friend and since 1 lie covers up another I just told the truth. I'm feeling abit bad, I mean if someone called me a name behind me I'll feel pretty angry too. I'm sure that a few years down the road I'm just gonna laugh this one off.
Anyway, thank God Chemistry wasn't that hard today since they were recapping old stuff. Darn, I wasn't listening much in Physics cause of my lack of discipline. It's like I would look at the board but my mind drifts a million miles away to another place. Classes here are quite cool actually and they come in one and a half hours with a half an hour break at the end. So there can be 4 classes in a day with a lunch break in between too. Cool right, since when did classes in Singapore have a half an hour break at the end.
Thursdays is also Pizza day! There's a shop nearby selling Pizza at half price every Thursday and it's not bad. (I think I blogged about this last Thursday, oops!)
Hmm, I lost my cool at my mum today. I don't wanna talk much about it but I hope things are okay now. Nevermind, I'll just say how I feel. Sometimes I seriously don't treasure those around me and I don't want to really start treasuring them when they're gone. I pray that from now on I'll be more appreciative in life.
God has really provided me with so much and I should just start counting what I have cause I deserve non at all. Is that how I should be thinking? I don't know..
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I'm trying to believe in You
Today will be a pretty short post. It's pretty late and I still have some revision to do.
Yes, one of the subjects that I always had trouble coping with is coming back to bite me in the ass. Guess what that subject is.. It's Chemistry! I still remember failing it for my prelims and thankfully by God's grace and the help of my tutor my combine science did quite well in the end. Frankly, I always have trouble coping with Chemistry and I have no idea why. I've been paying attention in class but I just don't get it. Whatever my classmates can absorb in 1 hour I take 2 hours to absorb. Crazy right? Honestly I feel that I have this natural thing for Mathematics but when it comes to Chemistry, I'm really not that good. I really hope that part of me changes since the things the course that I want to take for now is Bio Medicine and I really need to improve in the area of Chemistry.
Oh well, I'll just do my best and let God do the rest. I believe in God but there's still this part of me deep inside that really doubts the existence of God. There's so much doubt in my heart towards God, whether He will heal me, get me through this year, bless my family etc. Is being doubtful normal? Do you guys feel this way? Even though that feeling is very small it's not negligible and it sort of causes my faith to falter. I guess one of the main factors of this is because I've been praying for about 1 year plus for healing but nothing seems to be happen. I pray before I sleep only to wake up seeing things are still the same. I don't give up, I press on with my prayers in hope that one day they'll be answered but they just don't seem to be. I read this book, Destined to Reign talking about God's grace and I believe it but still grace doesn't seem to fall upon me where I can see it. I'm this kind of person where I have to see to believe, so God if you're seeing this please answer me? Please?
I've been leading the good life in Singapore, always having help but now things are different and I'm enjoying things the way they are. Argh, I'm such a doubtful person! You know they say you hear God speaking to you? I hear this voice inside but everytime I hear that voice, this question pops up in my mind "Is this my imagination?" God is just so supernatural, so impossible, so good so much so that I feel that God is unreal. I need to see something to believe it so if You may, please show me something?
On the other side of the picture, the weather is cold again and upon reflecting I realised that God has answered my desire yesterday. "God please bring the cold back!!" Is this really his doing (I truly want to believe in it) or just mere coincidence. That's the question that came to my mind. I'm starting to feel that maybe the God up there ain't so big after all.
The world is definitely changing, everything morally wrong seems okay now and it really saddens me to see such things happening. For example, God created sex to be within the boundaries of marriage but somehow the world twisted it to appear normal or "not wrong". I pray that I don't get twisted along with this world.
This post ain't long but so much for a short post. Catch you soon!
Yes, one of the subjects that I always had trouble coping with is coming back to bite me in the ass. Guess what that subject is.. It's Chemistry! I still remember failing it for my prelims and thankfully by God's grace and the help of my tutor my combine science did quite well in the end. Frankly, I always have trouble coping with Chemistry and I have no idea why. I've been paying attention in class but I just don't get it. Whatever my classmates can absorb in 1 hour I take 2 hours to absorb. Crazy right? Honestly I feel that I have this natural thing for Mathematics but when it comes to Chemistry, I'm really not that good. I really hope that part of me changes since the things the course that I want to take for now is Bio Medicine and I really need to improve in the area of Chemistry.
Oh well, I'll just do my best and let God do the rest. I believe in God but there's still this part of me deep inside that really doubts the existence of God. There's so much doubt in my heart towards God, whether He will heal me, get me through this year, bless my family etc. Is being doubtful normal? Do you guys feel this way? Even though that feeling is very small it's not negligible and it sort of causes my faith to falter. I guess one of the main factors of this is because I've been praying for about 1 year plus for healing but nothing seems to be happen. I pray before I sleep only to wake up seeing things are still the same. I don't give up, I press on with my prayers in hope that one day they'll be answered but they just don't seem to be. I read this book, Destined to Reign talking about God's grace and I believe it but still grace doesn't seem to fall upon me where I can see it. I'm this kind of person where I have to see to believe, so God if you're seeing this please answer me? Please?
I've been leading the good life in Singapore, always having help but now things are different and I'm enjoying things the way they are. Argh, I'm such a doubtful person! You know they say you hear God speaking to you? I hear this voice inside but everytime I hear that voice, this question pops up in my mind "Is this my imagination?" God is just so supernatural, so impossible, so good so much so that I feel that God is unreal. I need to see something to believe it so if You may, please show me something?
On the other side of the picture, the weather is cold again and upon reflecting I realised that God has answered my desire yesterday. "God please bring the cold back!!" Is this really his doing (I truly want to believe in it) or just mere coincidence. That's the question that came to my mind. I'm starting to feel that maybe the God up there ain't so big after all.
The world is definitely changing, everything morally wrong seems okay now and it really saddens me to see such things happening. For example, God created sex to be within the boundaries of marriage but somehow the world twisted it to appear normal or "not wrong". I pray that I don't get twisted along with this world.
This post ain't long but so much for a short post. Catch you soon!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
37!
Don't wanna blog today! The weather is so freaking hot! 37 degrees! Total change from the past few days and honestly I prefer cold. God please bring the cold back!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Gifts.. and curses
Wow, can you believe it? I don't have schools on Monday! How cool is that! That's for the first month only though until the main term starts. But yea, for now my timetable is pretty slack.
Well, the past week pretty much has been a roller coaster ride for me. It's like during the day I have fun with my friends but at night when I'm alone in my room, the loneliness just sets in and sometimes it seriously sucks.
Anyway since there wasn't any school today I managed to slack alot today but I did go through my Chemistry! Leon's mum treated me to Pasta today and I feel bad whenever people treat me. I don't know why I feel this way but I do. Leon and I had ice cream again! Today was white chocolate and pistachio! The ice cream here is so good and we've been eating it almost everyday.
Went to the track at the University of Melbourne. I seriously suck at sprinting. Can you believe this? I've not sprinted properly once in my life. After that taught me the proper way to sprint then I realised it. My left knee cap hurts like crap now cause I was told that I rarely use that muscle.
During lunch, I had a pretty deep conversation with Leon and his Mum about Christ, faith and all sort of things. It was a really great conversation. Leon! If you see this, don't worry too much about your results, it means nothing! You're here now and that's all that matters! =]
Take care guys!
Well, the past week pretty much has been a roller coaster ride for me. It's like during the day I have fun with my friends but at night when I'm alone in my room, the loneliness just sets in and sometimes it seriously sucks.
Anyway since there wasn't any school today I managed to slack alot today but I did go through my Chemistry! Leon's mum treated me to Pasta today and I feel bad whenever people treat me. I don't know why I feel this way but I do. Leon and I had ice cream again! Today was white chocolate and pistachio! The ice cream here is so good and we've been eating it almost everyday.
Went to the track at the University of Melbourne. I seriously suck at sprinting. Can you believe this? I've not sprinted properly once in my life. After that taught me the proper way to sprint then I realised it. My left knee cap hurts like crap now cause I was told that I rarely use that muscle.
During lunch, I had a pretty deep conversation with Leon and his Mum about Christ, faith and all sort of things. It was a really great conversation. Leon! If you see this, don't worry too much about your results, it means nothing! You're here now and that's all that matters! =]
Take care guys!
Random
Just a random fact, it's like 11:40am and my hands are feeling super cold.. So much for a hot summer..
Sunday, January 11, 2009
So long, so long
You know I've been doing some reflection of late and the question I have been asking myself is "Do I really believe in God?" Sadly, the answer is no. It's so hard to explain why I feel this way but that's the truth. I've heard so much about God, all the good things that he's done for us but some part, deep inside does not believe in it. I mean on the outside it feels like I believe it but yet deep down inside I don't. You get what I mean? It's not that I don't totally believe it's just that there are doubts deep inside me. Does that mean that I don't believe at all?
Well, today would be the last day for awhile that I'll be eating out. The hostel is going to start providing food from tomorrow onwards, breakfast, lunch and dinner and from what I heard so far it ain't good but oh well, I should be treasuring what I have. Today went to Grill'd for dinner again, remember the burger bar I mentioned? The serving is big compared to burgers in Singapore and much nicer. Had gelato for desert again, Banana and Coconut flavours!
I did not mention earlier but there is another guy in our house who is about to move out soon. His name is Gunawan and he plays soccer too. Though I've not known him for a long time I'm sort of going to miss his company when he's gone. The house might feel incomplete or something with 1 guy less.
Oh well, invitations only bring farewells, we all gotta say goodbye someday. I must study hard and not let my mum down!
11pm!
Well, today would be the last day for awhile that I'll be eating out. The hostel is going to start providing food from tomorrow onwards, breakfast, lunch and dinner and from what I heard so far it ain't good but oh well, I should be treasuring what I have. Today went to Grill'd for dinner again, remember the burger bar I mentioned? The serving is big compared to burgers in Singapore and much nicer. Had gelato for desert again, Banana and Coconut flavours!
I did not mention earlier but there is another guy in our house who is about to move out soon. His name is Gunawan and he plays soccer too. Though I've not known him for a long time I'm sort of going to miss his company when he's gone. The house might feel incomplete or something with 1 guy less.
Oh well, invitations only bring farewells, we all gotta say goodbye someday. I must study hard and not let my mum down!
11pm!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
The man who can't be moved
Today was a pretty slack Saturday. Managed to wake up slightly later today at about 9am. Revised some work in the morning and went for a slow jog. Unfortunately, my legs were aching like mad and I wasn't able to jog long and had to jog slowly as well too. Everyone's legs seem to be aching from soccer today as well.
Lunch today at Lygon again.. This time round we had Nasi Lemak which was pretty good in terms of Australia's standard for Asian food. Didn't really do anything much today though. Oh, we had ice cream too! There're so many ice cream shops here and they're as good as Daily Scoops! Headed back after that while Leon and Darren went to the gym. Yea, dinner after that. Had some Japanese rice bowl thing again.
Honestly I feel that there's I have alot pride in me although I feel it's not that much. God, please take that pride away from me okay? Having pride in your own abilities is a darn bad thing! It causes so many problems both internally and externally.
Anyway my walk has slightly gone off track, I would say that seeking God right now isn't really my first priority and I know what is the right thing to do.
My room mates are great people but I just don't feel close to them. It's like we talk about stuff and all but our conversations are almost all superficial, about girls and all. I have fun talking to them it's just that having conversations about this topics all the time won't build the friendship up. Another thing is that I know that at the end of this year we'll all be going our separate ways so it's like argh.
Anyway, I'll be off now!
Lunch today at Lygon again.. This time round we had Nasi Lemak which was pretty good in terms of Australia's standard for Asian food. Didn't really do anything much today though. Oh, we had ice cream too! There're so many ice cream shops here and they're as good as Daily Scoops! Headed back after that while Leon and Darren went to the gym. Yea, dinner after that. Had some Japanese rice bowl thing again.
Honestly I feel that there's I have alot pride in me although I feel it's not that much. God, please take that pride away from me okay? Having pride in your own abilities is a darn bad thing! It causes so many problems both internally and externally.
Anyway my walk has slightly gone off track, I would say that seeking God right now isn't really my first priority and I know what is the right thing to do.
My room mates are great people but I just don't feel close to them. It's like we talk about stuff and all but our conversations are almost all superficial, about girls and all. I have fun talking to them it's just that having conversations about this topics all the time won't build the friendship up. Another thing is that I know that at the end of this year we'll all be going our separate ways so it's like argh.
Anyway, I'll be off now!
Friday, January 09, 2009
Crack the shutter
I can finally use the computer again. I said I'll continue yesterday's post today? There's nothing much I wanna blog about yesterday.
Before I blog about today I just wanna talk about my life. I've realized how spoilt I was in Singapore! I mean, I didn't even have to wash my own clothes and I always had help with most of the chores. Here, I have to wash all the clothes that I use and basically everything that I use which is really different as compared to Singapore. I'm sort of enjoying this new found freedom that I have right now, but it definitely comes with alot of responsibility not to abuse it.
This few days have been pretty good, praise to God! Without God, I wouldn't even have made it through the first day here. He's the one that made me feel like someone cares when I was alone. Anyway, I would say that today was a good day just that I'm pretty tired right now as in seriously tired.
Had Chemistry class in the morning and I really didn't catch alot of points. I really have some catching up to do which I will start with tomorrow since there's no class. As I was saying before, my time table is quite slack! I've got no school on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Tuesdays and Fridays are half days. It's really good for me since I've got more time to settle down and do my stuff. I'll talk more about my room mates now.
For now, there are only 2 of them, Darren and Leon. Both of them are like tall guys and quite sporty people. Darren is the buffed kind of guy and plays rugby while Leon plays basketball. Both of them are Christians so it makes things better. They're really nice guys too. Oh yea, Leon is my age while Darren should be about 21 or 22? He served his NS already though so he won't be going back with us at the end of the year. Darren if you are seeing this, STOP SUANNING ME! Haha, kidding! Did I mention that they're nice people? Oh yea I did. Haha.
Back to my day. After Chemistry class I went to the city to get my MacBook and I'm using it at this moment. It's the new one, with the aluminium thing. It feels good to use too. Anyway I sort of don't feel too good about myself for getting it. I keep spending so much of my Mum's cash. I mean to come here already costed so much money and all I do is spend her money. I feel that even though my laptop spoilt, I'm not really warranted to get a new one because I can just repair the old one. I hope that I'll not spend that much of my mum's money anymore. I also got Windows Vista too so I can use the Boot Camp thing allowing me to switch between Vista or Mac.
We managed to play soccer again after that. Today we were able to play 5v5 as we were able to get some other people. Today, the others who came were Xiong. He's the only one I really managed to observe. He plays like Walcott cause he is fast and all but if I'm not wrong he plays left back for school. Soccer today was great! I really enjoyed soccer today. I felt that I played like *******. Guess who? 1 clue, not Gerrard!
After soccer we went to Lygon to eat at a burger bar. I didn't eat burgers today though, I had a salad. The burgers look amazingly succulent and large! I'm so gonna try it the next time I get to. Oh, Lygon is like this street where they serve all the good food! Pasta, burgers, gelato, pizza and alot more.
Hah, I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my friends and that's bad. I'm sure they're feeling that way too and the worst part is that for me I am having fun here! Makes me feel bad at times. Thankfully, I'm going back to Singapore soon! Most probably departing on 7th Feb! The 1 week that has passed me by sure doesn't feel like a week! It feels like I have been here for a long long time!
See you guys again soon! I'll keep you guys in prayer! =]
FYI, it's getting pretty cold around here!
Before I blog about today I just wanna talk about my life. I've realized how spoilt I was in Singapore! I mean, I didn't even have to wash my own clothes and I always had help with most of the chores. Here, I have to wash all the clothes that I use and basically everything that I use which is really different as compared to Singapore. I'm sort of enjoying this new found freedom that I have right now, but it definitely comes with alot of responsibility not to abuse it.
This few days have been pretty good, praise to God! Without God, I wouldn't even have made it through the first day here. He's the one that made me feel like someone cares when I was alone. Anyway, I would say that today was a good day just that I'm pretty tired right now as in seriously tired.
Had Chemistry class in the morning and I really didn't catch alot of points. I really have some catching up to do which I will start with tomorrow since there's no class. As I was saying before, my time table is quite slack! I've got no school on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Tuesdays and Fridays are half days. It's really good for me since I've got more time to settle down and do my stuff. I'll talk more about my room mates now.
For now, there are only 2 of them, Darren and Leon. Both of them are like tall guys and quite sporty people. Darren is the buffed kind of guy and plays rugby while Leon plays basketball. Both of them are Christians so it makes things better. They're really nice guys too. Oh yea, Leon is my age while Darren should be about 21 or 22? He served his NS already though so he won't be going back with us at the end of the year. Darren if you are seeing this, STOP SUANNING ME! Haha, kidding! Did I mention that they're nice people? Oh yea I did. Haha.
Back to my day. After Chemistry class I went to the city to get my MacBook and I'm using it at this moment. It's the new one, with the aluminium thing. It feels good to use too. Anyway I sort of don't feel too good about myself for getting it. I keep spending so much of my Mum's cash. I mean to come here already costed so much money and all I do is spend her money. I feel that even though my laptop spoilt, I'm not really warranted to get a new one because I can just repair the old one. I hope that I'll not spend that much of my mum's money anymore. I also got Windows Vista too so I can use the Boot Camp thing allowing me to switch between Vista or Mac.
We managed to play soccer again after that. Today we were able to play 5v5 as we were able to get some other people. Today, the others who came were Xiong. He's the only one I really managed to observe. He plays like Walcott cause he is fast and all but if I'm not wrong he plays left back for school. Soccer today was great! I really enjoyed soccer today. I felt that I played like *******. Guess who? 1 clue, not Gerrard!
After soccer we went to Lygon to eat at a burger bar. I didn't eat burgers today though, I had a salad. The burgers look amazingly succulent and large! I'm so gonna try it the next time I get to. Oh, Lygon is like this street where they serve all the good food! Pasta, burgers, gelato, pizza and alot more.
Hah, I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my friends and that's bad. I'm sure they're feeling that way too and the worst part is that for me I am having fun here! Makes me feel bad at times. Thankfully, I'm going back to Singapore soon! Most probably departing on 7th Feb! The 1 week that has passed me by sure doesn't feel like a week! It feels like I have been here for a long long time!
See you guys again soon! I'll keep you guys in prayer! =]
FYI, it's getting pretty cold around here!
Thursday, January 08, 2009
To be continued
You know there are days where you just feel like giving up on stuff? Yea, today was one of them for me. Of course I ain't gonna give up but I'm sort of feeling so down right now. I have no idea why I'm feeling like this? Maybe it's cause I'm tired. Still using my friends laptop to blog.
There was physics and chemistry class today. It was pretty interesting except for some parts of physics. There's really so much I have to catch up on. I'll continue another time.
There was physics and chemistry class today. It was pretty interesting except for some parts of physics. There's really so much I have to catch up on. I'll continue another time.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Melbourne...
Ok, my laptop is spoilt so I can't do anything on it. Now I'm using my frends laptop. This really sucks.. The laptop is barely 1 year old. I think I'm going to get a new one soon. I should be getting a MacBook pretty soon, maybe on Friday or something from Bourke Street. Haha, you know it's like there's this girl.... Kidding!!
Anyway, the lessons here is very different from Singapore. Their english is like interacting and games. Sounds fun right? Trust me, it is. Made a few new friends today and one of them turns out to be a Liverpool fan so the first thing I did was said they suck. (Your fault, Alex)
My timetable is great, I'll talk more about it once I get my new laptop. Today was my first physics class too. It's basically just recap of what I studied in Secondary School so it's pretty easy and I took down notes too. Without my laptop there's so many things I can't do. I can't blog, I chat and I can't Skype..
1 more thing.. The shops really close to early if not I would have gotten my MacBook by now!! Seeya soon!
Anyway, the lessons here is very different from Singapore. Their english is like interacting and games. Sounds fun right? Trust me, it is. Made a few new friends today and one of them turns out to be a Liverpool fan so the first thing I did was said they suck. (Your fault, Alex)
My timetable is great, I'll talk more about it once I get my new laptop. Today was my first physics class too. It's basically just recap of what I studied in Secondary School so it's pretty easy and I took down notes too. Without my laptop there's so many things I can't do. I can't blog, I chat and I can't Skype..
1 more thing.. The shops really close to early if not I would have gotten my MacBook by now!! Seeya soon!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Sian..
I'm like using my friends laptop now cause my laptop sort of died on me. The backlight isn't lighting up!! I'm praying that it'll work tomorrow.
Anyway today was good in the sense that I got to spend most of the day alone cause usually I'll hangout with my dorm mates. Being alone sometimes really helps me as it justs gives me time to think about deeper stuff. I won't blog today cause I don't wanna hog my friends com so if my com works tomorrow I'll blog?
Anyway today was good in the sense that I got to spend most of the day alone cause usually I'll hangout with my dorm mates. Being alone sometimes really helps me as it justs gives me time to think about deeper stuff. I won't blog today cause I don't wanna hog my friends com so if my com works tomorrow I'll blog?
Monday, January 05, 2009
Eat me
Hey! Today was the first day of school for me. It was basically just orientation for us. From what I feel the school here is pretty fantastic! It honestly feels much less stressful than in Singapore. Didn't really get to meet anyone new yet though. Out of 10 I would rate today's experience 7.5 as compared to the average in Singapore of 3.5. I really thank God for this opportunity to go overseas and I will definitely be making full use of it and not waste it away. There was also this English diagnostic test today which they use to assess your standard of English and put you at the right level. It went pretty well I guess? Thanks God!
Today is also the first day I played soccer in Australia! It was street soccer though and it was 3v3 as there aren't that many people in our hostel yet. It's really fun playing here as you sweat very little and your shirt is much drier as compared to Singapore.
I'm really not the same person here as I am in Singapore. I don't talk so much and I am hardly sarcastic anymore and I hardly mess about. I don't know if I really act different but I sure do feel different. Don't really know why I feel this way but deep deep inside I feel really lonely and sometimes it just eats me up from the inside. No one said it was gonna be easy, no one said it was gonna be this hard. It's from a song. Oh! Soccer went pretty well I guess and I had fun playing? I always knew I loved my family alot, I just never knew that I loved them THAT much. I hate goodbyes.
Time is getting very limited for me especially when school starts, so I might not update as often but I will update it regularly and posts might not be so long? I've got so much to do in the day that I don't even have time to complete the book that Jerome gave me. I'm like 7/8 through and I intend to complete before I get back. Seriously, everyday I have to buy food, wash my stuff (I haven't even started ironing yet), pack my room, talk to family and friends. I really gotta plan my time wisely in time to come.
By the way, can you guys get SKYPE so I can talk to you?? My add is lincoln91@gmail.com so just add me if you download it okay?
Alright, going to turn in soon. Take care! =]
11:25pm
Today is also the first day I played soccer in Australia! It was street soccer though and it was 3v3 as there aren't that many people in our hostel yet. It's really fun playing here as you sweat very little and your shirt is much drier as compared to Singapore.
I'm really not the same person here as I am in Singapore. I don't talk so much and I am hardly sarcastic anymore and I hardly mess about. I don't know if I really act different but I sure do feel different. Don't really know why I feel this way but deep deep inside I feel really lonely and sometimes it just eats me up from the inside. No one said it was gonna be easy, no one said it was gonna be this hard. It's from a song. Oh! Soccer went pretty well I guess and I had fun playing? I always knew I loved my family alot, I just never knew that I loved them THAT much. I hate goodbyes.
Time is getting very limited for me especially when school starts, so I might not update as often but I will update it regularly and posts might not be so long? I've got so much to do in the day that I don't even have time to complete the book that Jerome gave me. I'm like 7/8 through and I intend to complete before I get back. Seriously, everyday I have to buy food, wash my stuff (I haven't even started ironing yet), pack my room, talk to family and friends. I really gotta plan my time wisely in time to come.
By the way, can you guys get SKYPE so I can talk to you?? My add is lincoln91@gmail.com so just add me if you download it okay?
Alright, going to turn in soon. Take care! =]
11:25pm
From the inside out
I'll upload some pictures of my room now
Basically it's something like that. It's just the right size for me. Yea, I just woke up and it's super cold to bathe in the morning.. These are times when I just miss Singapore so much.
I'll blog about yesterday right now. Yesterday was the day that my family left for Singapore. Went for McDonald's in the morning for breakfast before checking out of the hotel. Hopped on a cab and we headed for the airport but they dropped me off at my hostel. It's called Palmerston House. Saying goodbye was pretty emotional for me and I admit I cried, but not alot. I'm a very emotional person and my tear glands are very active! Anyway, it's really amazing how much you can miss what you thought was the most irritating person in your life. I am really worrying for him quite alot. Jerome and I had a conversation about how would my brother feel when I'm gone and I can see how sad he is. If you see this, just know that I want you to study hard and do well ok? Make new friends too!
When I reached the hostel, packed my stuff up and played the guitar. Went out to the city with Darren (He's this guy staying in the next room) for lunch and had Subway. Walked around for abit after that and headed back after that.
We went for jogging after that at a nearby park! It's quite nice to jog here. My shirt barely gets wet! The weather here is good as long as the sun isn't shining too brightly. Dinner @ Lygon Street after that was not bad. Had some seafood basket. The house would only provide food 1 week later for now we either have to eat out or cook (Which I'm not going to do).
I really have to keep my head turned to Jesus. I'm really missing my family badly right now and it's like everytime I think about them I feel slightly saddened by it. Alright, I gotta leave here at 7.45am or 8am so I gotta go now. Take care guys!
1 last fact to note that my housemates play Dota as well but I hope I won't join them anytime soon so I won't be distracted until I settle myself down.
7:30am
Basically it's something like that. It's just the right size for me. Yea, I just woke up and it's super cold to bathe in the morning.. These are times when I just miss Singapore so much.
I'll blog about yesterday right now. Yesterday was the day that my family left for Singapore. Went for McDonald's in the morning for breakfast before checking out of the hotel. Hopped on a cab and we headed for the airport but they dropped me off at my hostel. It's called Palmerston House. Saying goodbye was pretty emotional for me and I admit I cried, but not alot. I'm a very emotional person and my tear glands are very active! Anyway, it's really amazing how much you can miss what you thought was the most irritating person in your life. I am really worrying for him quite alot. Jerome and I had a conversation about how would my brother feel when I'm gone and I can see how sad he is. If you see this, just know that I want you to study hard and do well ok? Make new friends too!
When I reached the hostel, packed my stuff up and played the guitar. Went out to the city with Darren (He's this guy staying in the next room) for lunch and had Subway. Walked around for abit after that and headed back after that.
We went for jogging after that at a nearby park! It's quite nice to jog here. My shirt barely gets wet! The weather here is good as long as the sun isn't shining too brightly. Dinner @ Lygon Street after that was not bad. Had some seafood basket. The house would only provide food 1 week later for now we either have to eat out or cook (Which I'm not going to do).
I really have to keep my head turned to Jesus. I'm really missing my family badly right now and it's like everytime I think about them I feel slightly saddened by it. Alright, I gotta leave here at 7.45am or 8am so I gotta go now. Take care guys!
1 last fact to note that my housemates play Dota as well but I hope I won't join them anytime soon so I won't be distracted until I settle myself down.
7:30am
Sunday, January 04, 2009
The real thing starts now
I am at like my dorm now and it's like 11:50pm.. Gonna sleep now so I'll update tomorrow! It felt bad..
School starts tomorrow anyway..
11:50pm
School starts tomorrow anyway..
11:50pm
Saturday, January 03, 2009
When they're gone..
Yesterday was our last day of tour. We went to a strawberry farm, cherry farm, lavender farm, and some seaside place. The strawberry farm was quite fun as we got to pick our own strawberries from the field. It was fun to be able to experience such things. It rained pretty heavily though so we had to run to shelter. At the cherry farm, we only managed to buy some cherries. The lavender farm was pretty fun too. There was some hedge maze there and we had to walk around. Basically that's all that happened yesterday.
There was no tour today. Went to Queen Victoria Market in the morning. So much to buy from there. I got lots of macadamia nuts for my dorm just in case I want to eat. The food court there was pretty good there. The food court there is so different from Singapore's. Went to Adidas at the city after that and got a few stuff. Yea, went back to the hotel to pack my stuff up and shifted my luggage all this to my dorm.
Went for dinner yesterday and today at Lygon Street. It's seriously like Diagon Alley. You know the one from Harry Potter? It really has the Diagon Alley feel to it. The place serves really really good Italian food.
Anyway, my family is leaving tomorrow morning. I can really feel the lonliness catching up to me. It's seriously quite saddening for me. The magical thing is that whenever I turn to Jesus, everything just seem to go so far away and the moment I look back at what I'm facing I just seem to sink so fast.. As if leaving my friends wasn't hard enough now I have to leave my family. The cool thing is that we're like all connected through God which is so cool. It's like we have the same father and there's internet nowadays so it's pretty good.
This is gonna be a different year...
11:35pm
There was no tour today. Went to Queen Victoria Market in the morning. So much to buy from there. I got lots of macadamia nuts for my dorm just in case I want to eat. The food court there was pretty good there. The food court there is so different from Singapore's. Went to Adidas at the city after that and got a few stuff. Yea, went back to the hotel to pack my stuff up and shifted my luggage all this to my dorm.
Went for dinner yesterday and today at Lygon Street. It's seriously like Diagon Alley. You know the one from Harry Potter? It really has the Diagon Alley feel to it. The place serves really really good Italian food.
Anyway, my family is leaving tomorrow morning. I can really feel the lonliness catching up to me. It's seriously quite saddening for me. The magical thing is that whenever I turn to Jesus, everything just seem to go so far away and the moment I look back at what I'm facing I just seem to sink so fast.. As if leaving my friends wasn't hard enough now I have to leave my family. The cool thing is that we're like all connected through God which is so cool. It's like we have the same father and there's internet nowadays so it's pretty good.
This is gonna be a different year...
11:35pm
Friday, January 02, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Penguins..
Wow, today got to wake up at 10am cause I didn't join my family for the city tour. The sleep was damn good! I don't know why but I keep dreaming of Singapore. This time round I dreamt of Alden, Alex, Edmund and Jerome. Can't remember what it's about but I'm sure I saw them and maybe some others. My dreams this few days are seriously about Singapore. Burnt away my afternoon by playing FM. Guess who I'm managing, Chelsea!
Left for Phillip Island in the evening. Summer my ass! Do you wanna guess how cold is it here? The wind is so strong it can practically make me lose my footing. At least that was how it felt away from Melbourne. And what else is there to do at Phillip Island but look at penguins! In fact, the world's smallest species of penguins. Whatever... I remember going there when I was about 10 years old? There were hundreds of penguins coming from the sea but today there was less than 50... How disappointing. The bad part is no photography is allowed there so I did not manage to take any photos today but the penguins were so so cute and tiny. The weather was super cold..
I do not know why I am wearing a cross but I guess that loving Jesus is more than reason enough for it.
Happy new year guys! Study hard! =]
Please tag k? I would really like to hear from you guys!
1.26am
Left for Phillip Island in the evening. Summer my ass! Do you wanna guess how cold is it here? The wind is so strong it can practically make me lose my footing. At least that was how it felt away from Melbourne. And what else is there to do at Phillip Island but look at penguins! In fact, the world's smallest species of penguins. Whatever... I remember going there when I was about 10 years old? There were hundreds of penguins coming from the sea but today there was less than 50... How disappointing. The bad part is no photography is allowed there so I did not manage to take any photos today but the penguins were so so cute and tiny. The weather was super cold..
I do not know why I am wearing a cross but I guess that loving Jesus is more than reason enough for it.
Happy new year guys! Study hard! =]
Please tag k? I would really like to hear from you guys!
1.26am
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