through out the whole trip to shanghai(16/12/07 till i think 23/12/07), i felt like the most stupid person in the world but it was a heck of a time with my family and extended family. ha! now i got a new perception of teachers. they are real nice people especially those whom i met in shanghai but sadly lost contact though we talked very little. hmm.. ya teens get sad and worry over affairs of the heart all the time. i think that is the dumbest thing to worry about, making me an extremely dumb person. but i really got to see a whole new world during the whole trip it was more than just a holiday for me. i've learnt to see things through the eyes of others. right now, i have no idea how am i ever going to find that person ever again, yet i find it hard to share this problem to people face to face. i've tried to find, but to no avail so i guess all i can do is to just wait, till it dies off once again..........


















































crying.

woooo exams over soon!!!




















































































































i bet u'll never know how i feel at all, stranger.

scared man.. tomorrow 'a' math paper, hope i don't screw up, i don't wanna let em down

looks like tomorrow's the start of EOYS.. hmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!

heh! this few days studied like crap!!!!! today studied 8 hourS!!! yea!!! but sadly, never go church haiz, yesterday sww also never go. but i just hope i do well in exams yea, but im gonna go church next week! =)

hmm.. haven't really seriously studied yet la! keep procrasinating but i'm gonna start today! yea a maths tuition tml i just hope i pass my a maths & overall la, if i fail, i'm dead, haha. hmm.. just thought about sec2 camp & hah, remembered some stuff & regreted as well.. heh! the song can't break thru is nice la, by busted. too bad they broke up, sadly a gread band. hope i can study hard!

finnaly, getting to use the com once again. haha. haiz.. sick today, did'nt go to school bad sore throat, got 2 days mc but going back tomorrow dun wanna miss out on anymore lessons. haha. this few days been pretty stressful, a maths, homework and all but hah, coping well, hope i do well in EOYS and my studying pays off!

yesterday was fun, studied in the morning for physics. then went for spiritual warfare. 2nd time there though, i went last year too but this year it was a different experience for me la. really interesting the way God works in our lifes. i'm really apologetic about my past actions. guess now i'm really gonna have to study real hard especially for my a maths. hope i don't screw up. now off to tuition!!

hmm.. today's been quite dumb. did'nt really learn much in school at all. this few day's been sucky, homework & all. haiz

sunday today. had tuition in the morning, as usual. hah. i really dunno how to cope with my a maths.. haiz.. pretty stressed about it but yet again, i just sit back not doing anything. guess its rly time to study. i hope i wun do badly, time to pull up my socks haha. anw after that went to church.. hmm.. today's service did'nt really affect me as it was meant to. i guess i've been hardening my heart too much already. anw, i got jay's new cd, great stuff!!! haha! yea, school tomorrow, don't know whether it's a good or bad thing but i guess it's good la still trying to figure the stuff for Let Go, Let God. spiritual warfare next sat haha so must study dis few days, my target 3hours/day. let's pray i can do it. hmm.. let me think.. i don't know how i exactly feel now but i'm happy for my friends God has blessed me with, especially jc! haha. u really helped me alot in case u didn't know. haha. hmm.. was that the bassist or did i see wrongly. see ya!

today was real fun, study skills rock! haiz, feeling sad and dunno la

hmmm.. long time since i blogged, haha this is gonna be a quiet one somewhere where i can vent all my fustrations. i feel mixed right now. stupid issues but i feel confused and sad. had study skills today. was pretty fun, in fact the trainers were really spastic. at one point in the talk, though i did'nt really like my dad, the thought of him dying was really very sad.yeap and i told my mum i love her!!=) haha. right now i really don't know what to do, yesterday was weird, real weird. you only talk to me when there are only us. we hardly talk when there are more people around. u have no idea how i feel. haiz.

500 bucks to get a guitar (:

so many things have changed since the day i stepped into fairfield. well, alot has been happening for the past few weeks, being misunderstood by friends and many others. it's time to start a new life. a life bearing the cross.

guess thats the price i pay for leaving u God. but now at least i got u..

just treat it that we never met before. its my my fault ok? happy?

sometimes..

sometimes..

sometimes..

u just wished u did'nt make that decision & u didnt have to regret so much. yea. did work the almost the whole day today except for 1 dota match. used sb. haha 20kills & 4 deaths. lol. yea den went out with my family. went to ginza to get a psp game. bought gta: liberty city stories($119) ex loh since its not sold in singapore so its ok & also a 1gb mem card. den went to holland v for dinner. ate swensense. lol, the ice cream is so yucks. had much better ones before!! RITE ALDEN? anw.. really feels bad la. i really really really wanna go back just that i'm too ashamed to face u all coz its like.. urgh nvm.. at least i got so much to look forward to i guess. like my cousin's birthday party, grandma's birthday party as well, a guitar. well.. & at least i got a caring mum. haha. hmm. got tuition tomorrow.. maths. haha. hope the teacher will be happy with my performance & the song duan le de xuan is nice. haha.

churchless.





























[L] for LOSER.

aren't parents unreasonable sometimes? yea i guess. all i wanted was to go to a decent place where i could study. free from distractions.. & what did i get? HELL from my mum.

well, long time since i last blogged, so yea.

hmm.. quite sad now la.. screwed up my 2.4 trial run. why did i have to have my breathing difficulties halfway man.. aiya.. pissed now la. still have so much unfinished tutor's work which is on saturday. what the crap lar.. so yea. had classes after that. got my geog test a few days ago 21/30 & physics test 24/30. guess studying pays off after all. broken guitar. blablabla. gonna buy 1 on fri OR sat! IF IF IF!! i finish my tutor's work. so yea. life's not been ok without a church. i seriously regret making that decision. dumbest in my life. but who cares. ai ya..........

yea. long time no blog. haha.

today had english haha. boring class la can sleep. but at least got annette to disturb la. the only thing to keep me awake.. den later had PE..... the dunno wad beep test... mine was lousy.. only reached level 9, lap 3 den too lazy to run already. i guess i could have reached at least level 10. den yea had ss class. wasted alot of time la today.. totally. its like mrs chng scold scold scold. haha. den later had physics class. dunno wad mr c or mr seet or mr see dunno wad la. every lesson come in & sorta learn from ms teo. wa.. super extra la.. ms teo is still the best physics teacher. den later had fairsian connect. waste time la dat 1.. talked about the "o" level results & some other stuff. wa. had physics remedial combined with another class. haha. den later went to tiong to eat sakae. sheng wei treat alden& i. so kind LOR! THX! haha went home on the way we went to buy the macdonalds milkshake. last time i drank was SOSO long ago already loh.. tasted so gd! so yea, thats all for today, i guess!

bye PEOPLE!

HAH! AT LEAST I GOT SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO.

THE BASS & THE AMP! :D

i seriously don't wanna quit. if u guys ever see this(which i doubt u guys will), i seriously don't wanna quit esp after all i've been through with u all. i seriously wanna come back & i made a reckless decision today. i don't know how to put it to u guys dat i wanna come back cause of face. sorry guys. if u all ever see this please understand the situation i'm in. i wanna quit is cause i feel very left out. i can't even worship properly now cause i feel so lousy i can't face God. i could'nt even raise my hands when ps. khong asked his children to cause i know i'm not fit to be God's son. so thats how i feel.

oh anyway.. no use thinking about it now just move on in life.. yea so went to church then later went to orchard with jerome to eat dinner. went to orchard emerald food court to eat. we ate alot, he had carrot cake, teriyaki chicken rice while i had pineapple rice, teriyaki chicken rice.. not forgetting the drinks & famous amos. put on so much weight today. haha. haiz. feeling very sad now. blog again tomorrow. bye people.

unfit.

LOL. so today cross crountry.. sian nothing to say la. messed alot.

lol. so sad la are u angry with me?

anw.. today went for red cross.. so boring la.. was sick during footdrill so did'nt do. kena 2 bookings for ponning so no more ponning for me. (: el lessons would be boring with no annette to disturb. i mean its TOTALLY*gay voice* true! yea yea. haha stop quarelling with amanda la. RARARARARARARARARA if only u knew what im thinking. good son loves micheal jordon! anw.. wa lao u know i was so sad before chinese remedial? anw.. red cross AYO or YO is crazy crap.. punish us like dunno wad. but at least better than ncc or bb. oh anw. hmm cross country tomorrow la.. haiz. cross country. taking part in the run for defence with khai dan. the team super slack 1 la.. got alot of encouraging to do already. debrah is a naughty girl cause she ponned school & came for journalism. aiya.. den after red cross went harbour front to eat dinner at pasta mania den kd came my house to stay over la. later jerome coming up. dota fever?

>feeling confused now? SHUT UP & SMILE (:

few days did'nt blog.. no time i guess.

hmm.. i'm really feeling very confused now. *headaches* haiz.. anw.. did badly for the tests.. no mood to blog la. blog 2nite i guess?

though my world may fall i'll never let you go.

TODAY WAS FUN!(i think)

hmm.. lettme try to remember wad happened to day hor. 1st 5 periods D&T.. fun la the practical part.. but theory part.. 100% pure boredom.. lol den after that recess....... ai ya next few days cannot eeat liao must save. haha. den later physics... boring.. lalalala but wad to do?? hahaz. den... lemme think again.. umm... chinese. wa lao.. scary la every time we walk into mr pang's classroom. eerrytime looks so angry.................... so scary la.. haha. den later lifeskills got that talk. lol quite interesting la. come on 3c SPONSOR 1 CHILD??:D anw.. den after that stayed back to do some chinese thinggyyyy den later went tiong to get some gifts. lol den went back to school and watched the match. haha. anw. den later khai dan had to spray fart spray on me..... sucka. haha den went home... did hw den bla bla,listen to music hahaz. den here i am now blogging. haha.

by ppl,
-its better this way.

hear our praises-hillsong!!

may our homes be filled with dancing
may our streets be filled with joy.
may injustice bow to Jesus
as the people turn to pray.

from the mountains to the valleys
hear our praises rise to You,
from the heavens to the nations
hear our singing fill the air.

may Your light shine in the darkness
as we walk before the cross
may Your glory fill the whole earth
as the water o'er seas.

from the mountains to the valleys
hear our praises rise to You,
from the heavens to the nations
hear our singing fill the air.

hallelujah.hallelujah
hallelujah,hallelujah...
hallelujah,hallelujah
hallelujah,hallelujah.......(x3)

from the mountains to the valleys
hear our praises rise to You,
from the heavens to the nations
hear our singing fill the air.

decided to start blogging. last post was october last year? haha. seriously dunno y i decided to reopen this blog. guess nothing to do lar& read one of my first few posts when i first started blogging. it really shows me how much i've changed.(im not boasting, im glorifying God who changed me)last time all the vulgarities den now so little. haha. hmm.. nothing much happened today i guess. its like did'nt get to go church for 3weeks+ already. feels bad. i can feel myself slowly drifting from God already. i really dun want to but its so hard to break from the I-DUN-NEED-TO-READ-BIBLE momentum. but its really not my fault that i can't go church coz its like last last week cny. den previous week mum dun let den dis week got my cousin's 1 month bd lunch. haiz.. lol. i seriously feel very lousy now its like i just lost a good friend or something like that but i hope thats not the case la. lol.

bye ppl.