Day before yesterday which was 27/8/2008 I think, went to play pool and ate Botak Jones with Jerome. Pool was fun? At least today I wasn't thrashed that badly. Jerome's uncle and brother were there too. The uncle is pro for an uncle. Hah. Like really pro that kind of pro. Jerome likes it when I'm serious so I'm going to be serious when it's against JEROME. Kidding..
Then yesterday, nothing much happened.
Today was great. I mean Wall-E is SUPER GOOD! If you haven't watched it, go watch it, preferably with your girlfriend/boyfriend/domestic partner/lover or whatever you kids call those people. ;) Yes! IT'S GOOD. Today started out real bad? I mean it's like I'm not even sure why myself but I just woke up and became super moody. Really had a bad mood but as the day went by, it became better. Soccer after that. Went to Clementi first but after seeing the large crowd Alex and I went to Anfield. Soccer was fun? Yes, fun.
Maybe I should make this blog public? If only blogger had some private post function then I can lock some posts up only for the eyes of the chosen ones. Haha! And Wall-E is quite a sweet show. Quite touching from my perspective as well.
Awwwww... Listening to Westlife now! What a band right. They were my favourite band last time. I mean I bought every single album they produced and enjoyed it thoroughly! Those were the days man.. I mean like right now all my worries seem so much more 'mature' then before and it sucks. Ahh..
I know I would never commit suicide. Fine, not know but I'm quite certain. But the thing is, if commiting suicide wouldn't send me on a one way trip to hell I have this feeling that I would have done it. Which leads to the question Jerome brought up. Am I doing that to escape or to be with God. Personally it's to escape!! But if I can be with God after that, why not. If only blogger had a private post function thing?? I know Livejournal has but I'm quite lazy to shift there.
Oh, and I think I'm going to quit my cellgroup. I mean I've been hanging on there for 2 years plus and it's not going anywhere. I'm literally just hanging there not progressing and it's really bad for the leaders since they have to keep worrying about me. I hope this is the right choice.
Highlight of today, I got thrashed in Dota by JJ.. Yes, and I mean thrashed. Haha. Maybe I should start playing again.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Hard to smile
Soccer at Holland V there was a total waste of time. The rain. So after soccer Alex, Alden and I went for lunch at Subway. Yeap..
For the past few days there's this burden in my heart. I don't know what it is but I can definitely feel it. Maybe it's my exam results? Maybe it's some other weird reason I don't know but it's definitely affecting my mood inside. If killing myself wouldn't bring me to hell, I would definitely consider doing that. Sometimes I just feel so tired of living, just like now. I don't know, I just feel so mentally exhausted.
See you soon!
For the past few days there's this burden in my heart. I don't know what it is but I can definitely feel it. Maybe it's my exam results? Maybe it's some other weird reason I don't know but it's definitely affecting my mood inside. If killing myself wouldn't bring me to hell, I would definitely consider doing that. Sometimes I just feel so tired of living, just like now. I don't know, I just feel so mentally exhausted.
See you soon!
Monday, August 25, 2008
Just another monday
Ok, I've started and finished watching Gundam 00. So many people died sadly.
Went to the doctor about my leg today. Was given some medicine and I hope it works. Supposed to abstain from soccer for now but it's hard to.
Wa.. Soccer was fun. My leg is pain so I don't know if I'll go tomorrow.
Went to the doctor about my leg today. Was given some medicine and I hope it works. Supposed to abstain from soccer for now but it's hard to.
Wa.. Soccer was fun. My leg is pain so I don't know if I'll go tomorrow.
Friday, August 22, 2008
One thing I've learnt
Today was fun. Anyway, yesterday was the last day of my exams. Totally screwed that POA paper up big time. BIG TIME. I studied 10 minutes before leaving home. Deserve it. Hoping hard that I don't have to retake that module..
Yesterday was spent playing pool with Jerome and soccer after that at Dover. Sorry Jerome for all the crap you've been getting but something's wrong with me. And I don't mean all the stuff about church and all the talents stuff. Was just kidding about. And my aircon is fixed! Cold air coming out at last. Oh did I mention I totally crashed last night. After bathing and dinner I watched TV abit then fell asleep.
Today was meaningful and fun. Went with Jerome to help my old chinese tuition teacher fix her computer. Apparently, some virus/malware totally messed her computer up so I think that eventually the computer has to be reformatted. After that met Alex at Lido with Jerome to catch some show about englsih which was totally not what I expected. I think the title is Mad About English. It's really just some documentary which in all honesty okay, but it totally wasn't what I expected. Guys next time I'm choosing the show. Sadly Alden couldn't come or it would have been more fun. Dined at the place outside Lido. Ate Subway while the guys got LJS.
Went back home after that. Alex came over and I had a great conversation with him. Glad everything's back to before. Really found it hard to talk to him before today for a few weeks already. Looks like someone's finally getting to enjoy Winning Eleven.
And one important thing in friendship that I've learnt is initiative. If you really want to make a friendship work, you must really take the initiative or it's really going to be hard to make it work. People don't take the initiative for several reasons I guess, possibly cause of face, fear of rejection or some other reason but yes, if you want to make a friendship work you've really got to start taking the initiative even if it's one way. You know who you people are.. Quite a number of culprites lurking around here.
Yes, a proper post in a long long time. Stay tuned.
Yesterday was spent playing pool with Jerome and soccer after that at Dover. Sorry Jerome for all the crap you've been getting but something's wrong with me. And I don't mean all the stuff about church and all the talents stuff. Was just kidding about. And my aircon is fixed! Cold air coming out at last. Oh did I mention I totally crashed last night. After bathing and dinner I watched TV abit then fell asleep.
Today was meaningful and fun. Went with Jerome to help my old chinese tuition teacher fix her computer. Apparently, some virus/malware totally messed her computer up so I think that eventually the computer has to be reformatted. After that met Alex at Lido with Jerome to catch some show about englsih which was totally not what I expected. I think the title is Mad About English. It's really just some documentary which in all honesty okay, but it totally wasn't what I expected. Guys next time I'm choosing the show. Sadly Alden couldn't come or it would have been more fun. Dined at the place outside Lido. Ate Subway while the guys got LJS.
Went back home after that. Alex came over and I had a great conversation with him. Glad everything's back to before. Really found it hard to talk to him before today for a few weeks already. Looks like someone's finally getting to enjoy Winning Eleven.
And one important thing in friendship that I've learnt is initiative. If you really want to make a friendship work, you must really take the initiative or it's really going to be hard to make it work. People don't take the initiative for several reasons I guess, possibly cause of face, fear of rejection or some other reason but yes, if you want to make a friendship work you've really got to start taking the initiative even if it's one way. You know who you people are.. Quite a number of culprites lurking around here.
Yes, a proper post in a long long time. Stay tuned.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
POA Test Later!
Right now it's 7.35am and and later's my poa test and guess what time I studied!? 7.20am!! Yay...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
No mood
Today, I've got no mood to study and Business Law is tomorrow. Studied super little and my day was spent mostly watching shows. Yeap, I may mug like crap tonight. Maybe not though, feeling kind of tired.
You know I've got this perfect picture running in my head, not picture but more of a video and it's really like a video. Ok, doesn't make sense right?
I know this for sure. One day, I'm going to look back at my life and hate my self for doing/not doing certain things. Like not taking certain risks, leaving church and lots of other stuff.
Proud to say I've been reading a Psalm a day and maybe missed only 1, sad to say I don't remember what I read!
See you all soon! Exams ending on 21st August!!!
You know I've got this perfect picture running in my head, not picture but more of a video and it's really like a video. Ok, doesn't make sense right?
I know this for sure. One day, I'm going to look back at my life and hate my self for doing/not doing certain things. Like not taking certain risks, leaving church and lots of other stuff.
Proud to say I've been reading a Psalm a day and maybe missed only 1, sad to say I don't remember what I read!
See you all soon! Exams ending on 21st August!!!
Thank God!
Business Management was seriously much easier than expected and the good/bad part is that I didn't even study much for it. Hopefully I'm not wrong about it being easy. Thanks God. HAHAHA.
Soccer in the evening with Jerome and Eugene. Yeap that's all for today! Exams ends soon!!
Soccer in the evening with Jerome and Eugene. Yeap that's all for today! Exams ends soon!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
MAEC DIE!
MAEC... DIE!! Shucks, my studies are getting more and more screwed up and I'm not even doing anything about it.. Tomorrow is Business Management and I spent the whole of yesterday slacking!! Oh man.. Family went church today but I didn't go.. Err.. Update later
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
A Psalm A Day
A Psalm a day, that's what Jerome encouraged me to do. Thanks!!
Well, I seriously gotta thank God for Matthew YAP, not the Matthew we we've all come to LOVE. He's been helping me so so much in my macroeconomics! You'll never see this but thanks alot Matthew! Studied abit today.
Highlight of the day was sort of going to Plaza Singapura with Jerome and eating Sakae and shopping for presents. So I got for my brother an MP3 player. You know the new Creative one? Wow, it's super cool!
My walk with God is shit, (sad to say) totally non existent at all. Okay honestly, even if I do the a psalm a day, I'm not even sure if I'll remember it. Life's getting stressful!!!
Anyway I wanted to blog about Alex today. Alex's getting on my nerves!! His snobbish comments during soccer. The way he acts now.. Not that I'm perfect or what, just ranting.
Off to study now! Seeya!
Well, I seriously gotta thank God for Matthew YAP, not the Matthew we we've all come to LOVE. He's been helping me so so much in my macroeconomics! You'll never see this but thanks alot Matthew! Studied abit today.
Highlight of the day was sort of going to Plaza Singapura with Jerome and eating Sakae and shopping for presents. So I got for my brother an MP3 player. You know the new Creative one? Wow, it's super cool!
My walk with God is shit, (sad to say) totally non existent at all. Okay honestly, even if I do the a psalm a day, I'm not even sure if I'll remember it. Life's getting stressful!!!
Anyway I wanted to blog about Alex today. Alex's getting on my nerves!! His snobbish comments during soccer. The way he acts now.. Not that I'm perfect or what, just ranting.
Off to study now! Seeya!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
People change
Ok, long time no blog! So much has happened, Sakae, pool, soccer, study, Fairfield. Ok, I'll try to put the photos soon, seriously. Anyway, it's study break now and I'm screwed for macroeconomics so... Argh... It's crazy, so much to catch up on. Ok, now I regret slacking the past few days.
Any last Friday was Sakae and soccer.
Sunday was the community shield thing with Manchester United and Portsmouth playing and Man United winning on penalties.
Yesterday which was Monday was spent studying with Alden and going to Queensway after that to get my new soccer shoe! And I sold my the other soccer shoe to Azan. He's going to pay me in 3 weeks time.
Anyway, really no time to blog and I promise I'll update soon. Yeap. Seeya!
Any last Friday was Sakae and soccer.
Sunday was the community shield thing with Manchester United and Portsmouth playing and Man United winning on penalties.
Yesterday which was Monday was spent studying with Alden and going to Queensway after that to get my new soccer shoe! And I sold my the other soccer shoe to Azan. He's going to pay me in 3 weeks time.
Anyway, really no time to blog and I promise I'll update soon. Yeap. Seeya!
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Sweet dream
Ok, I dreamt of Rayna. Lol.
Anyway, went to school today for Macroeconomics extra tutorial. Those who didn't do the work weren't actually supposed to go in but the teacher didn't really do that. She's nice. I did the work halfway only. And today the teacher kept picking on me.
Anyway, I dreamt we went for dinner. Haha.
Anyway, went to school today for Macroeconomics extra tutorial. Those who didn't do the work weren't actually supposed to go in but the teacher didn't really do that. She's nice. I did the work halfway only. And today the teacher kept picking on me.
Anyway, I dreamt we went for dinner. Haha.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Founder's Day Dinner
Today was meaningful, 120th Founder's Day Dinner, alcohol, emo songs and friends
Studied in the morning. Well then basically slacked till Founder's Day dinner at Swissotel. Wore quite formally today. Tie, blazer, long sleeve collar shirt, working shoes. And Alden came over first. Anyway dinner was great, food was ok but company was great. All this while I though I've gotten over Rayna but I guess not. I don't know but I keep telling people that I no longer like her but the biggest person I'm deceiving is myself (I always thought I was good at lying). Gonna upload photos soon once I get them. Oh and I cabbed home with Jerome too.
Each time I saw her was like a major rush of emotion. Lots of emotion bundled up together. Confusion, happiness, sadness, embarrassment, fear, excitement were some of the emotions that I experienced. It was like a roller coaster ride for me. Basically I was hoping something, anything would happen today but I knew nothing was going to happen. And this is the longest time that I've liked a girl, yeap around 2 and a half years? Yeap.
Talk with Jerome after that was great and enlightening. Thanks Jerome. In this world there are only 3 people I can go to whenever I'm feeling down. Jerome, Alden and Grace. Actually there used to be 4 but things change. Grace and I just get along really well? I mean we're sort of going through identical things so it's easy to relate to each other.
Talked with God too but it still feels like I'm talking to myself, but I know God's there.
Anyway, see ya soon! (:
Studied in the morning. Well then basically slacked till Founder's Day dinner at Swissotel. Wore quite formally today. Tie, blazer, long sleeve collar shirt, working shoes. And Alden came over first. Anyway dinner was great, food was ok but company was great. All this while I though I've gotten over Rayna but I guess not. I don't know but I keep telling people that I no longer like her but the biggest person I'm deceiving is myself (I always thought I was good at lying). Gonna upload photos soon once I get them. Oh and I cabbed home with Jerome too.
Each time I saw her was like a major rush of emotion. Lots of emotion bundled up together. Confusion, happiness, sadness, embarrassment, fear, excitement were some of the emotions that I experienced. It was like a roller coaster ride for me. Basically I was hoping something, anything would happen today but I knew nothing was going to happen. And this is the longest time that I've liked a girl, yeap around 2 and a half years? Yeap.
Talk with Jerome after that was great and enlightening. Thanks Jerome. In this world there are only 3 people I can go to whenever I'm feeling down. Jerome, Alden and Grace. Actually there used to be 4 but things change. Grace and I just get along really well? I mean we're sort of going through identical things so it's easy to relate to each other.
Talked with God too but it still feels like I'm talking to myself, but I know God's there.
Anyway, see ya soon! (:
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Friday&Saturday
Alright so on to Friday first. Friday was basically the last IAC and LMS lesson. :( That sucks since it's sort of my favorite class. No more lunches with the LMS and IAC people. Anyway classes that day were fun. Lunched at SIM. LMS was concluded with the teacher giving us cookies to eat. DSS test after that was umm great. I had some help from my friend. (If you get what I mean) Oh, studied with Mei, Grace and Lina after LMS for like 2 hours. They taught me some stuff so it was great.
Back to Fairfield after that and it was just great just being back there. Have some photos from Friday which I'll upload soon. Can't describe it but just being back there was great. Supper at Holland V Burger King after that was fun as well.
Now on to Saturday, went to VivoCity in the late morning to look around for clothes for Founder's Day dinner. Found my size and I'm going with my mum tomorrow to get the clothes. Went to Queensway after that with Alden and Leroy and I got my boots which cost $260! It's a predator. Anyway went to the field after that to play soccer and soon the Dover people came and so did Jerome, Eugene and Kaiden. (if that's how you spell it) Soccer was pretty fun. Hopefully we get to play on field more? Yeap!
Back to Fairfield after that and it was just great just being back there. Have some photos from Friday which I'll upload soon. Can't describe it but just being back there was great. Supper at Holland V Burger King after that was fun as well.
Now on to Saturday, went to VivoCity in the late morning to look around for clothes for Founder's Day dinner. Found my size and I'm going with my mum tomorrow to get the clothes. Went to Queensway after that with Alden and Leroy and I got my boots which cost $260! It's a predator. Anyway went to the field after that to play soccer and soon the Dover people came and so did Jerome, Eugene and Kaiden. (if that's how you spell it) Soccer was pretty fun. Hopefully we get to play on field more? Yeap!
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