ok.. from now on i'm gonna put the actual time and date that i blog so yea.
right now there is like this cold war in my family. my mum and i against my father. ok i have not talked to my father since i went to alden's house that day which means it has been 3 days?? lol. really got nothing to say to him at all.
well today has really been a sugary day. consumed alot of sugar stuff today like soya bean (4 cups), chin chow, tao hui, rum rasin ice cream. lol.
anw at night went to tiong with my mum and brother. sent my grand ma back on the way. tiong now has subway, ajisen, tcc coming up. cool ei.. they need to upgrade the cinema though. it's quite outdated compated to cathay and vivo those kind. lol. gonna start going church next week already HOPEFULLY! :)
Monday, March 31, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
ok this post shall be about the day before yesterday and yesterday which was a thursday and friday. as i said earlier i ended up going to alden's house to stay. it was a fun time of catching up with him. we did crazy stuff la. ok played winning eleven with him the ps2 version and it was quite fun. that version is super easy to dribble past or chip over keeper so it was fun. then later we ended up playing x-hero siege. we completed the whole game but there was some glitch like we started with 100k gold? lol so we could buy alot of items at the start. but we completed it la in the end. after the game alden was like "lincoln, you want to climb the roof or not? seriously". i went like what the hell la but we still did it in the end. the view was very very nice. we could see alot of stars and it was a nice view. and also the climbing down part was hard. i dirtied my shirt abit la. lol. after that slept la was quite tired if i remember correctly.
ok i'm seriously pissed off at my father la... most of the readers here already know why so i don't have to explain it here but seriously my mum and i treat my maid like family so he should honestly not treat her the way he did. utterly no respect and i'm utterly disgusted. the worst part is i talked to him nicely at first then he lost his cool but he did not shout la but i could tell he really lost his cool. he has too much pride. way too much.
ok i'm seriously pissed off at my father la... most of the readers here already know why so i don't have to explain it here but seriously my mum and i treat my maid like family so he should honestly not treat her the way he did. utterly no respect and i'm utterly disgusted. the worst part is i talked to him nicely at first then he lost his cool but he did not shout la but i could tell he really lost his cool. he has too much pride. way too much.
ok today was not bad a day. quite good actually. morning just slacked about at home and at 12 plus alex and heng guang came over. played pro evolution with heng guang. then later went to play pool at depot road with sheng wei too. played not bad today. did some nice shots. alden came late for pool though but he still came. then took a cab to dover for soccer at heng guang's place. was really great.
ok. the first part was fun. i really sweated alot which meant that i ran alot. i guess what alex said is true la that i'm naturally defensive but i can attack too but that is because everyone else goes up and no one defends. up till now i still haven't found my best position but i'm guessing it should be right midfield, central midfield, right back and i'm not sure of this yet but support striker haven't really explored playing that position yet. there are many things i like about playing at heng guang's place. there are many nice people there gabriel, yong tsu (if that is how it's spelt, i don't know), daniel, heng guang, alex (all these are the regulars who play there la most stay in that dover area). really fun people to play with. i like it when people i know like alden, mok (when he does not mess too much) play too! i also like the court. it appears small when there are people playing in it but actually it's quite big. i saw it myself earlier when it was rather empty. stuff i don't like about playing there is when people keep saying no goal no goal when it was a goal. really gets on my nerves sometimes. well sometimes when we have to wait to play i don't really like it.
the better part was later when feng yuan and his friends came. ppl who came were chuan hao, kenneth yip, brandon, daryl and some people i do not know. but they were not bad. it was really a good match for me though. we played whoever reach 3 goals first. so first they scored then we scored then they scored again then we scored so it was like 2-2. then i scored the last goal it was a good goal cause i scored at the bottom left from like half of a half from the right side. i'm happy with myself for that. i almost celebrated la. i like ran after i scored but decided not to in the end. i really wanted to win that match. it's like those matches where u can't lose that kind so you can imagine how i felt. after that walked to the ac bus stop with alden and jun jer who was walking the same way. i felt really happy when alden and jun jer recognized my effort in the game when alden said i played like the team captain and that my goal was very nice and jun jer agreed with alden because i kept running up to attack and back to defend. well it really felt good to have ur efforts recognized by your friends so people, encourage ur friends as much as you can whenever you can. try la. it's easier to dao than to encourage. lol.
ok i played soccer for like around 4 and a half hours? really tired. when i went home after dinner, called jerome and he and his cousins went downstairs to play soccer so i brought my brother down along too and some other neighbours came as well so we could play a match. played from 8.30 to close to 10? really couldn't do much i was exhausted from such a long day already but it was fun la. i realize when u really feel the pinch from your fatigue, you will seriously under perform alot like you can't shoot properly ur passes will be screwed. everything justs becomes damn screwed up and it is very different from when you have energy. lol. you can't even dribble for nuts. lol. really really tired now. hopefully i can wake up for the morning service tomorrow and go there with my family (excluding my father he does not go church).
ok. the first part was fun. i really sweated alot which meant that i ran alot. i guess what alex said is true la that i'm naturally defensive but i can attack too but that is because everyone else goes up and no one defends. up till now i still haven't found my best position but i'm guessing it should be right midfield, central midfield, right back and i'm not sure of this yet but support striker haven't really explored playing that position yet. there are many things i like about playing at heng guang's place. there are many nice people there gabriel, yong tsu (if that is how it's spelt, i don't know), daniel, heng guang, alex (all these are the regulars who play there la most stay in that dover area). really fun people to play with. i like it when people i know like alden, mok (when he does not mess too much) play too! i also like the court. it appears small when there are people playing in it but actually it's quite big. i saw it myself earlier when it was rather empty. stuff i don't like about playing there is when people keep saying no goal no goal when it was a goal. really gets on my nerves sometimes. well sometimes when we have to wait to play i don't really like it.
the better part was later when feng yuan and his friends came. ppl who came were chuan hao, kenneth yip, brandon, daryl and some people i do not know. but they were not bad. it was really a good match for me though. we played whoever reach 3 goals first. so first they scored then we scored then they scored again then we scored so it was like 2-2. then i scored the last goal it was a good goal cause i scored at the bottom left from like half of a half from the right side. i'm happy with myself for that. i almost celebrated la. i like ran after i scored but decided not to in the end. i really wanted to win that match. it's like those matches where u can't lose that kind so you can imagine how i felt. after that walked to the ac bus stop with alden and jun jer who was walking the same way. i felt really happy when alden and jun jer recognized my effort in the game when alden said i played like the team captain and that my goal was very nice and jun jer agreed with alden because i kept running up to attack and back to defend. well it really felt good to have ur efforts recognized by your friends so people, encourage ur friends as much as you can whenever you can. try la. it's easier to dao than to encourage. lol.
ok i played soccer for like around 4 and a half hours? really tired. when i went home after dinner, called jerome and he and his cousins went downstairs to play soccer so i brought my brother down along too and some other neighbours came as well so we could play a match. played from 8.30 to close to 10? really couldn't do much i was exhausted from such a long day already but it was fun la. i realize when u really feel the pinch from your fatigue, you will seriously under perform alot like you can't shoot properly ur passes will be screwed. everything justs becomes damn screwed up and it is very different from when you have energy. lol. you can't even dribble for nuts. lol. really really tired now. hopefully i can wake up for the morning service tomorrow and go there with my family (excluding my father he does not go church).
Friday, March 28, 2008
ok this is super abrupt. i am at like alden's house now and i'm staying over. lol. here's how it went. i quarreled with my father and it's really not my fault. he has absolutely no respect for other people and i shall elaborate on that tomorrow. even my mum agrees! so just played winning eleven with alden and now don't know what we're gonna do. use the com i guess. haha. really super pissed off with my dad. it's been a long time since my last break down with him. my last was like in secondary two or three? well, i guess things happen for a reason. i've been praying for him like everytime but nothings happening. seriously i hate waiting for things to happen! sian.. gonna blog tomorrow la and cut my hair too! seeya !
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
why is it whenever it comes to all this technology stuff ah i'm damn damn unlucky? there's always something wrong whenever i buy a handphone, cd, and now it's my laptop.. i just got it like a few days ago and now it has so many problems.. seriously sucks man.. and can't find out what the freaking problem is. it's really damn damn irritating. freaking freaking irritating.
well.. yesterday was quite fun. alden and alex came over to stay over again. lol. played lots of games with them and jerome too. played pro evolution, dota, xhero, moo moo, more moo moo, rainbow six. slept really late yesterday like at 5am? or maybe 4.30am? but well, had fun so it's ok and school is gonna start soon too. slept for around 4 hours only . woke up at around 9 something. then played moomoo and dota again after that.
after that, played soccer downstairs. actually we did not intend to play la but just kick the ball around and practice but some other ppl came 1hour after we played. i was running alot and it's really damn tiring. i practiced crossing to alex and alex will trap and also lots of 1 touch passing. was fun but as i said earlier, tiring. after that some other ppl came so we played. wa alex and i played very well initially lots of good passes to each other like arsenal like that. but i was too tired to play properly after that already. lol. we went to library after that alex borrowed some books, jerome at some food, and i drank some drinks. lol.
hmm.. i've done some research on universities in U.K. and if i go to that one that i'm going which is University of St. Andrews, it is 4th place in the U.K. just below oxford, cambridge and imperial college. quite cool going to such a gd school.
OK wAIT back to yesterday morning! Alex and i went to np to do our laptops and me not knowing that i should not bring another laptop for servicing, naively brought it there expected everything to go on as smoothly as last time. but NO! second day in NP and i'm labeled a cheat, thief, stealer, bad person, dishonest. cool right. i serviced my old laptop before already in NP so i brought my new one for servicing too. so they think i'm trying to steal their software and use it for my own purpose. it's really damn screwed up la, i seriously did not know i was supposed to do that. but well the other laptop is reformatted already so all the stuff is gone already. worse thing is i gotta go there again to install all the programs and stuff and BRING THE OLDER LAPTOP TO VERIFY THAT I DID NOT STEAL! what an auspicious way to start the school year.
well.. yesterday was quite fun. alden and alex came over to stay over again. lol. played lots of games with them and jerome too. played pro evolution, dota, xhero, moo moo, more moo moo, rainbow six. slept really late yesterday like at 5am? or maybe 4.30am? but well, had fun so it's ok and school is gonna start soon too. slept for around 4 hours only . woke up at around 9 something. then played moomoo and dota again after that.
after that, played soccer downstairs. actually we did not intend to play la but just kick the ball around and practice but some other ppl came 1hour after we played. i was running alot and it's really damn tiring. i practiced crossing to alex and alex will trap and also lots of 1 touch passing. was fun but as i said earlier, tiring. after that some other ppl came so we played. wa alex and i played very well initially lots of good passes to each other like arsenal like that. but i was too tired to play properly after that already. lol. we went to library after that alex borrowed some books, jerome at some food, and i drank some drinks. lol.
hmm.. i've done some research on universities in U.K. and if i go to that one that i'm going which is University of St. Andrews, it is 4th place in the U.K. just below oxford, cambridge and imperial college. quite cool going to such a gd school.
OK wAIT back to yesterday morning! Alex and i went to np to do our laptops and me not knowing that i should not bring another laptop for servicing, naively brought it there expected everything to go on as smoothly as last time. but NO! second day in NP and i'm labeled a cheat, thief, stealer, bad person, dishonest. cool right. i serviced my old laptop before already in NP so i brought my new one for servicing too. so they think i'm trying to steal their software and use it for my own purpose. it's really damn screwed up la, i seriously did not know i was supposed to do that. but well the other laptop is reformatted already so all the stuff is gone already. worse thing is i gotta go there again to install all the programs and stuff and BRING THE OLDER LAPTOP TO VERIFY THAT I DID NOT STEAL! what an auspicious way to start the school year.
Monday, March 24, 2008
hmm... yesterday was quite a good day. went to church in the morning with my family. service was very gd.i felt different walking out of church. then went to clementi to eat lunch. lol. then my mum went for some appointment, my dad and brother went to isetan and i went to my uncles house. he has a ps3 so i played pro evolution with him. he's not bad already compared to the last time i played with him which was during christmas. it was fun catching up with him and his family. went home and watched the liverpool man u match! nothing to say bout that match just that mascherano is abit dumb... oh and nani's goal was not bad. surprisingly, i watched the match with my father and i was not pissed off. lol
ok tomorrow alden and alex shld be staying over so it's gonna be cool.
yea & i really got to start changing.
ok tomorrow alden and alex shld be staying over so it's gonna be cool.
yea & i really got to start changing.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
ok today was not bad overall. alex new laptop which is less than 1 week old screwed up big time!! :D COOL EI!!!JUST KIDDING. "i must uninstall hamachi. make my com got problem" BULLSHIT LA! well, he reformated the com so he installed fm, warcraft and hamachi. lol. well, now we both gotta go back to np to install the stuff for the laptops.
Highligh of the day, i got a new laptop. as in a Brand New laptop! it's super cool. well but it came at a high price though. i bought it at $3999 which in other words, is 4k.. lol paying half of it. but my mum keeps rejecting my offer. haha. got it from funan. well it is a sony vaio. the higher end model.
hmm gonna sleep earlier today so that i will be able to join my mum for adult service tml. well.. she's gonna drive there! so it's cool.
Highligh of the day, i got a new laptop. as in a Brand New laptop! it's super cool. well but it came at a high price though. i bought it at $3999 which in other words, is 4k.. lol paying half of it. but my mum keeps rejecting my offer. haha. got it from funan. well it is a sony vaio. the higher end model.
hmm gonna sleep earlier today so that i will be able to join my mum for adult service tml. well.. she's gonna drive there! so it's cool.
Friday, March 21, 2008
well, it's been a pretty crazy week! ok firstly on wednesday alex and alden stayed over. was crazy. we went to play pool with jerome too (he's my neighbour) in the evening till 9plus. then when we reached home, played warcraft. dotaed first with jerome too. was fun. then played moo moo and td too. gem td is fun! it was basically just a great time of catching up with all of them and hopefully we get to do it again. "watched" the matches, man u vs bolton & chelsea vs spurszzz!! ZZZZZZZZZZZ!! ALEX KEPT CHANGING THE CHANNELS REALLY DAMN SIAN! and he said "man u that match will be goals galore" and cant remember what he said bout the spurs match. he's full of crap la. the next day man u 2 - bolton 0 & WORST OF ALL CHELSEA 4 and SPURS 4!! MISSED A FREAKINNG GOOD MATCHHHHHH!! well then after that justin came over to borrow ninja gaiden for the ps3. played rainbow six vegas with him. just like last time like that. lol. great catching up with him too! hopefully i get to meet all my friends that i've not seen for a long time!
OK MY LAPTOP SERIOUSLY SUCKS! even warcraft has choppy graphics on it!!....... SIANZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!
school's gonna start soon. looking forward to it! i really wanna make new friends and not stick to the old ones that i know. hard to explain. of course i'll still be friends with the current friends la. duh.
OK MY LAPTOP SERIOUSLY SUCKS! even warcraft has choppy graphics on it!!....... SIANZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!
school's gonna start soon. looking forward to it! i really wanna make new friends and not stick to the old ones that i know. hard to explain. of course i'll still be friends with the current friends la. duh.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
lol. ok today was a great day. went to wen zhao's house in the morning and it was just a great time of catching up with each other. it's been a long time since we've seen each other too so it was just nice to see him again. well he has shifted house and now stays on the 37th floor so it's super windy up there. and his house looks very nice now. even the stove does not require fire. lol. cool ei! watched bleach 164 there too. played dota on zion with other ppl and we totally owned the other ppl. haha. then went home and just slacked before meeting jerome to watch spiderwick chronicles at tiong baruh. not a bad show. it's very nice but it's quite predictable but still a nice show. i give it 4/5! lol. what a day today.
Saturday, March 08, 2008
today was a slacky day. slacky but fun. lol.ok still sick with throat infection and not knowing that doughnuts are fried and thinking they are baked, i ate 3 of them. now my throat is gonna get worse and it's already pain enough. praying that God heals me. drank super lot of water to try to negate the effect of it and hope it works. well, played pool with jerome in the evening and yes, don't need to guess. i got thrashed. but what i'm pissed off at is that i aim properly everything is set but the ball still does not go in. gotta find the cause of it and fix it.
ON TO THE BEST PART OF THE DAY. THE MAN U & PORTSMOUTH. man u lost 1-0. funny part was that kuszczak their only keeper for that match got sent off. and ferdinand replaced him. how lame could that get. anyway i'm not a supporter of any of the big 4 and here are the reasons why.
Liverpool- too many supporters especially after 2005! i dare say some of them are fake. (don't be offended if u are a liverpool fan, i'm sure u are a true fan) ESPECIALLY ALL THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW TORRES BEFORE HE JOINED LIVERPOOL. i didnt watch soccer then,so i didn't know alot of players. lol. but he is a good player.
Chealsea- THEY SUCK! buy all the good players but still so sucky!and cause matthew supports them makes it easier to hate them.
ManU- i like their players & manager but i just don't know why i got this thing against them. i like watching them lose to the underdogs. lol.
Arsenal- i don't mind them. actually i feel neutral towards them. just don't feel like supporting them.
ok... basically i just enjoy watching the big 4 lose to the underdogs. fun to watch. anyway time to watch newcastle be owned by liverpool.. lol!
ON TO THE BEST PART OF THE DAY. THE MAN U & PORTSMOUTH. man u lost 1-0. funny part was that kuszczak their only keeper for that match got sent off. and ferdinand replaced him. how lame could that get. anyway i'm not a supporter of any of the big 4 and here are the reasons why.
Liverpool- too many supporters especially after 2005! i dare say some of them are fake. (don't be offended if u are a liverpool fan, i'm sure u are a true fan) ESPECIALLY ALL THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW TORRES BEFORE HE JOINED LIVERPOOL. i didnt watch soccer then,so i didn't know alot of players. lol. but he is a good player.
Chealsea- THEY SUCK! buy all the good players but still so sucky!and cause matthew supports them makes it easier to hate them.
ManU- i like their players & manager but i just don't know why i got this thing against them. i like watching them lose to the underdogs. lol.
Arsenal- i don't mind them. actually i feel neutral towards them. just don't feel like supporting them.
ok... basically i just enjoy watching the big 4 lose to the underdogs. fun to watch. anyway time to watch newcastle be owned by liverpool.. lol!
Friday, March 07, 2008
ok, today's going to be another ranting session. if you don't wanna see then don't.
i seriously hate him man. he's supposed to be a father but he's screwed up. all he does is break the family up even if he does it unintentionally. seriously, ok first let me describe his character. he is lazy, hypocritical, irritating, arrogant, chauvanistic, egoistic, self absorbed, big talker and the thing which pisses me off the most is he can't practice what he preaches.
let me start with lazy. now that he's without a job he wastes away at home almost everyday. he often talks about 'opportunities' through friends. but i really have no idea if he really does have any true friends at all. he also sees gambling as an income. he buys 4d, toto and bets on soccer on a almost weekly basis spending at least on an average, $200+ a week. he is incomeless FYI and this really pisses me off especially after seeing how hard my mum works. GET A LIFE! LITERALLY!
hypocritical- PLEASE GO STRAIGHT TO THE DAMN POINT! especially if u want something. He says "Lincoln, what is your notebook for? can i borrow it because my OWN (which my mum paid for) notebook got very little battery life and i want to type in my room" when this is his actual intention "Lincoln, land me your notebook because i am too lazy to unplug my notebook from outside and put it back after using it." I can see ur motives and thoughts too well especially after living with you for 16+ years. well anyway my reply to him was "my laptop also no battery life. only last 1 hour"
now on to irritating. sometimes he really talks alot of crap. he talks about saving money all day! DON'T GET ME WRONG! SAVING MONEY IS A GOOD HABIT AND ONE THAT WE SHOULD ALL PRACTICE! in the afternoon, he will be like off the light electricity is more expensive now. i really think it's alright if any other human says it. I hate him for saying this when i look at how much he spends on gambling and all his other shit. if u save on ur gambling and other shit, you'll definitely save much more than turning off the damn light. "the wind is windy, you might want to turn off the fan" is another one of his favourites nowadays and it is really pissing me off.
arrogant, chauvanistic, egoistic, self absorbed, big talker are all linked into one. to have either one of those flaws, you are bound to have the other. his arrogance really pisses me off. he honestly talks very proudly. he will often try to make himself seem powerful and high up in front of others. like during chinese new year, he will tell ppl i'm working in mediacorp working on some project. A DAMN NICE WAY OF PUTTING IT HUH! when ppl hear this they must think WAH EARN SO MUCH AH! but they don't know the truth la of course. this links to big talker as well. lol. ok let me start on his self absorbification and how it leads to even more big talking. he thinks he is damn handsome and young which i find utterly disgusting for a person who is supposed to be mature. he will often ask my brother who is the most handsome of us all (refering to my brother, him and i) bo liao right? and when people call him uncle, he will say just call me brother will do. ppl usually think he is joking but he actually means it (some part of him does) dumb right? and whenever he gets a freaking pimple, he will purposely emphasise on it to prove the point that he is young.. seriously nothing better to do. his egoism and chauvanisticness can be seen when he treats my mum like dirt. i can tell that there is no love between them anymore and that my mum is only keeping this marriage for the sake of my brother and i and he is only keeping it because my mum is the only person who can & will support him. thats why he always expects my mum to give him money, pay for bill, debts, ect. it really disgusts me for a husband to treat his wife this way. i mean it may not seem as bad as physical abuse but to me it's around the same level.
well you might think, lincoln, what's the point of typing this? well it definitely helps me to feel better. i don't feel comfortable telling my friends about this so i won't relate to them about this directly. and only 2 of my closests friends know my blog so i feel comfortable typing such things. well, yet another ranting session.
on to today. today was a really mixed day. i guess the sickness is still there so it affected the mood. was supposed to go for some it fair but in the end, went to tiong with alden and shengwei. got my laptop bag and a mouse for my father............................ ate burger king which i definitely regret. bad for my throat. went to safra to play pool. well i really suck at it now. all of my losses except one of them was caused by me hitting the white ball in after the black. well, my skill really sucks now. well.. pretty tired now. see ya!
i seriously hate him man. he's supposed to be a father but he's screwed up. all he does is break the family up even if he does it unintentionally. seriously, ok first let me describe his character. he is lazy, hypocritical, irritating, arrogant, chauvanistic, egoistic, self absorbed, big talker and the thing which pisses me off the most is he can't practice what he preaches.
let me start with lazy. now that he's without a job he wastes away at home almost everyday. he often talks about 'opportunities' through friends. but i really have no idea if he really does have any true friends at all. he also sees gambling as an income. he buys 4d, toto and bets on soccer on a almost weekly basis spending at least on an average, $200+ a week. he is incomeless FYI and this really pisses me off especially after seeing how hard my mum works. GET A LIFE! LITERALLY!
hypocritical- PLEASE GO STRAIGHT TO THE DAMN POINT! especially if u want something. He says "Lincoln, what is your notebook for? can i borrow it because my OWN (which my mum paid for) notebook got very little battery life and i want to type in my room" when this is his actual intention "Lincoln, land me your notebook because i am too lazy to unplug my notebook from outside and put it back after using it." I can see ur motives and thoughts too well especially after living with you for 16+ years. well anyway my reply to him was "my laptop also no battery life. only last 1 hour"
now on to irritating. sometimes he really talks alot of crap. he talks about saving money all day! DON'T GET ME WRONG! SAVING MONEY IS A GOOD HABIT AND ONE THAT WE SHOULD ALL PRACTICE! in the afternoon, he will be like off the light electricity is more expensive now. i really think it's alright if any other human says it. I hate him for saying this when i look at how much he spends on gambling and all his other shit. if u save on ur gambling and other shit, you'll definitely save much more than turning off the damn light. "the wind is windy, you might want to turn off the fan" is another one of his favourites nowadays and it is really pissing me off.
arrogant, chauvanistic, egoistic, self absorbed, big talker are all linked into one. to have either one of those flaws, you are bound to have the other. his arrogance really pisses me off. he honestly talks very proudly. he will often try to make himself seem powerful and high up in front of others. like during chinese new year, he will tell ppl i'm working in mediacorp working on some project. A DAMN NICE WAY OF PUTTING IT HUH! when ppl hear this they must think WAH EARN SO MUCH AH! but they don't know the truth la of course. this links to big talker as well. lol. ok let me start on his self absorbification and how it leads to even more big talking. he thinks he is damn handsome and young which i find utterly disgusting for a person who is supposed to be mature. he will often ask my brother who is the most handsome of us all (refering to my brother, him and i) bo liao right? and when people call him uncle, he will say just call me brother will do. ppl usually think he is joking but he actually means it (some part of him does) dumb right? and whenever he gets a freaking pimple, he will purposely emphasise on it to prove the point that he is young.. seriously nothing better to do. his egoism and chauvanisticness can be seen when he treats my mum like dirt. i can tell that there is no love between them anymore and that my mum is only keeping this marriage for the sake of my brother and i and he is only keeping it because my mum is the only person who can & will support him. thats why he always expects my mum to give him money, pay for bill, debts, ect. it really disgusts me for a husband to treat his wife this way. i mean it may not seem as bad as physical abuse but to me it's around the same level.
well you might think, lincoln, what's the point of typing this? well it definitely helps me to feel better. i don't feel comfortable telling my friends about this so i won't relate to them about this directly. and only 2 of my closests friends know my blog so i feel comfortable typing such things. well, yet another ranting session.
on to today. today was a really mixed day. i guess the sickness is still there so it affected the mood. was supposed to go for some it fair but in the end, went to tiong with alden and shengwei. got my laptop bag and a mouse for my father............................ ate burger king which i definitely regret. bad for my throat. went to safra to play pool. well i really suck at it now. all of my losses except one of them was caused by me hitting the white ball in after the black. well, my skill really sucks now. well.. pretty tired now. see ya!
Thursday, March 06, 2008
well.. hopefully my laptop isn't screwed up but i get the feeling that there is something wrong with it. well. today's been a really tiring day. i guess the fever has taken it's toll on me. still feeling pretty sick right now. alex & alden were supposed to stay over today.. but i was sick. sorry guys. hmm went to orchard to see dr. cheong and got that medicine that makes my lips dry again. but i only have to go with that for 6 more weeks so i guess i gotta peservere. hmm.. hopefully i would feel better by tomorrow so i will be able to go for the it fair thing.
well, don't really understand what to do about the poly forms but at least i've filled up the form E which deadline is on the 10th of march. well.. hmm.. you know just 2 years ago, i would have never expected my spiritual walk to be in this state. lol. well, guess life is really unpredictable so you gotta live each day as ur last? well, easier said than done but that's one thing i'm gonna try doing. well, glad to see my father is still putting in abit of effort into seeking for an income. i just pray that he will accept christ as his Lord and Saviour. but it's hard to reach out to him.
i've been trying to imagine what life in scotland would be like, and to be honest, it's hard to imagine. lol. i gotta do everything on my own. stuff like ironing ect. well, i've been pretty worried about my mum too. she seriously has been overworking herself and i seriously think she should not as it's very health harming. and she has started driving to work and she is a new driver so i'm quite worried about that too but i'm gonna commit that to God as well.
well, i seroiusly have to start giving thanks to God too. ok today i wanna thank God for showing me what great friends i have. i realised that i've not too many true friends. my only true friends i have right now are jerome, alex, alden. i mean i know we will be there for each other no matter what. whereas for my other friends, my relationship with them is based on meeting up. like if we don't meet/talk we won't be as close. well.. lol. pray for me whoever reads this yea? that i will be healed of my illness.
well, don't really understand what to do about the poly forms but at least i've filled up the form E which deadline is on the 10th of march. well.. hmm.. you know just 2 years ago, i would have never expected my spiritual walk to be in this state. lol. well, guess life is really unpredictable so you gotta live each day as ur last? well, easier said than done but that's one thing i'm gonna try doing. well, glad to see my father is still putting in abit of effort into seeking for an income. i just pray that he will accept christ as his Lord and Saviour. but it's hard to reach out to him.
i've been trying to imagine what life in scotland would be like, and to be honest, it's hard to imagine. lol. i gotta do everything on my own. stuff like ironing ect. well, i've been pretty worried about my mum too. she seriously has been overworking herself and i seriously think she should not as it's very health harming. and she has started driving to work and she is a new driver so i'm quite worried about that too but i'm gonna commit that to God as well.
well, i seroiusly have to start giving thanks to God too. ok today i wanna thank God for showing me what great friends i have. i realised that i've not too many true friends. my only true friends i have right now are jerome, alex, alden. i mean i know we will be there for each other no matter what. whereas for my other friends, my relationship with them is based on meeting up. like if we don't meet/talk we won't be as close. well.. lol. pray for me whoever reads this yea? that i will be healed of my illness.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
ok.. today was not that bad a day. went to queensway at noon to get alden's soccer shoe and jerome's tennis racket. then went to NP to play soccer. NP is not say far from my house, just that it's not near either and i'll be going there for at least 4 months so.. hmm..
soccer was ok. i seriously need to improve but i'm not that hungry for improvment as in i don't feel that it is a neccesity. well, i guess i spent more time sitting than playing, but played quite alot. there were really alot of people there at the later part of the day so went home first.
hmm... life's been pretty slack for the past few months! past 5 months actually! never really had that long a holiday in my life. nowadays i find it hard to get up early. that also means, for the past 5 months, i went to chuch less than 4 times which is bad when i think about it now. not to say that i'm not interested in going back it's just that when you don't see eye to eye with your leader, it makes it harder to go back. and no, this is definitely not about pride. well.. maybe i should just switch church.
well come to think of it, it has been a long time since i used my hands to do some writing. NP life will definitely be different from fairfield life though.
soccer was ok. i seriously need to improve but i'm not that hungry for improvment as in i don't feel that it is a neccesity. well, i guess i spent more time sitting than playing, but played quite alot. there were really alot of people there at the later part of the day so went home first.
hmm... life's been pretty slack for the past few months! past 5 months actually! never really had that long a holiday in my life. nowadays i find it hard to get up early. that also means, for the past 5 months, i went to chuch less than 4 times which is bad when i think about it now. not to say that i'm not interested in going back it's just that when you don't see eye to eye with your leader, it makes it harder to go back. and no, this is definitely not about pride. well.. maybe i should just switch church.
well come to think of it, it has been a long time since i used my hands to do some writing. NP life will definitely be different from fairfield life though.
Monday, March 03, 2008
didn't go to church again yesterday. i keep giving myself excuses not to go. i know it's wrong but i've been doing this since sec3 so it feels normal now. it always happens like this. the day before i feel like going then on the day itself i'll be like sian.. then i end up not going. anyway i'm gonna try to go next week or i'll break the twice a month deal with uncle shijiang.. weird right.. i gotta call my cell leader uncle.. i have no idea why too. they just make us do that.
anyway yesterday was just a great day of catching up with kenneth, tai li and timothy. it's hard to imagine how close i was with them just a few years ago and how much i've drifted apart from them over this few years. i guess this is the result of not going to church for a long long time. well, ended up playing pool and lan with them. it was a crazy night though. we finished playing lan at like 9.30 so we couldn't find a place to eat at paradiz. so we ended up going back to plaza sing to grab a bite at burger king which was still open. really had a great time with them today and i'm looking forward to my next outing with them.
feelings towards my dad are still the same. he never fails to piss me off once a day. i mean if you got hands then use it. i'm not petty about helping him. it's just that he is really very lazy and inconsiderate. will illustrate on it soon hopefully with some pictures too.
anyway yesterday was just a great day of catching up with kenneth, tai li and timothy. it's hard to imagine how close i was with them just a few years ago and how much i've drifted apart from them over this few years. i guess this is the result of not going to church for a long long time. well, ended up playing pool and lan with them. it was a crazy night though. we finished playing lan at like 9.30 so we couldn't find a place to eat at paradiz. so we ended up going back to plaza sing to grab a bite at burger king which was still open. really had a great time with them today and i'm looking forward to my next outing with them.
feelings towards my dad are still the same. he never fails to piss me off once a day. i mean if you got hands then use it. i'm not petty about helping him. it's just that he is really very lazy and inconsiderate. will illustrate on it soon hopefully with some pictures too.
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