Woah, today was a indescribable day. The highlight of the day was that I went church and I did something really crazy there. I'll talk about it later.
Ok, actually I would just talk about it now. After reading the book Destined to Reign by Pastor Joseph Prince it really changed my entire perception of Christianity. From focusing on the law, to the grace of God. The grace of God really owns everything, and even law. Hard to believe? Read the book to believe it, your life will be changed. So coiencidentally the pastor today was preaching about the law of God. The law is not wrong, in fact it symbolises God's standards. I myself cannot explain what I believe that's why you have to read the book to feel it for yourself. As the preacher was preaching there was this fire burning in my heart reminding me about the grace of God. The preacher was preaching about the law. I can imagine how bad the people were feeling as the preacher was reminding them about all the sins they have commited. The law makes you feel like crap, it shows you something you can NEVER be! I really really can imagine the guilt the people were feeling admist the laughter of the congregation. (The preacher phrased some of his sentences funnily.) But really, focusing on the law really defeats the purpose of the cruxification. I really don't know how to explain it but in the book it explains EVERYTHING, just read it, trust me! Seriously, the fire in my heart was so strong. It was mixed with some personal emotions which are wrong such as anger. The anger was definitely wrong and I just gave it up to the Lord. I could really feel the fire to tell him where he has gone so wrong. No, I'm not that good and it's only through the grace of the Lord that I'm able to say such things. In my mind I was hoping for an opportunity to be able to tell him how I feel. Amazingly, it came at the end. The pastor said if there was any questions you can just talk to him. I could really feel the Holy Spirit upon me and not thinking twice I just went up to him and when I was in front of him I was like what the heck am I doing. I really couldn't put what I wanted to tell him into words so I just told him this. Hey Pastor, can I introduce to you a book? He said yes and I just introduced him the book and wrote it down on a piece of paper. I asked him to promise me to read the book and he did and I ended with saying 'It'll change you.' Sounds crazy right? But that happened.
My friends think I'm crazy, it doesn't really bother me. I am guessing that alot of people had eyes on me but it felt that I could only feel God, the pastor and I there. I finally understand what it must feel like for Pastor Prince to have to preach Grace everytime. You feel like the world is against you but at the same time you know that all you need is God by your side. Honestly, after talking to my friends after that and they started asking me what I said and indirectly questioning my beliefs I really felt condemed. I would not be surprised if some of them think I'm 'educated' in Christ the wrong way but that's what I believe and it won't change. I'm 100% sure that if they themselves read the book, they'll be changed and I sincerely hope you guys read it too!
12:45am
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Take me away
It's been a long time since I've played Dota with actual people. Yea, just finished 2 games with my roommates and it was pretty fun playing with them. There were 4 of us so we just played 2v2. Ahh, I miss those days where I get to play with Alex and just have a GOOD time of bonding with him. (Get what I mean??)
Oh well, soccer today was very bad for me. I played like crap and I was the weakest link in my team. I seriously sucked in today's game. Missed 2 chances where I should have buried the ball in and basically wasn't able to get hold of the ball much. Pretty dissapointed in my performance today. The pitch was pretty good, like the one at ACS(I). It's actually an artifical turf. The winds today were great too. It was very enjoyable playing in such an environment. You know I heard from someone that the wind here comes from Antartica. Cool right, it's like I'm breathing air from a totally obscure place. Soccer wise, there's definitely alot for me to improve in. If I were to give myself a rating today I would give 2.5/10. Yea, that's how bad I played.
Not sure if I mentioned this before but do you know that the Sushi here is big? The rolls are like as thick as 5 thumbs put together and are pretty long as well.
Hmm, the thing about life is that we can never be prepared enough for the things to come. No matter how hard we try to prepare ourselves for what's coming it'll come down hard and real. It's undeniable that life brings much happiness but we just can't deny the fact that life brings about just as much sadness. (That's where Jesus comes in.) No, I'm not sad or anything, just pondering.
Vulgaraties.. I'm surrounded by a world full of vulgaraties. I pray I do not get influenced into using them. I know they're wrong and it's a sin to use them but sometimes the thought just comes to you to use it and once you say it, you can't take it back. Seriously, 4 out of 10 sentences I hear contains vulgaraties.
I've got a Chemistry test next Wednesday, keep me in prayer okay? Thanks!
I should start taking more pictures as well.
Oh well, soccer today was very bad for me. I played like crap and I was the weakest link in my team. I seriously sucked in today's game. Missed 2 chances where I should have buried the ball in and basically wasn't able to get hold of the ball much. Pretty dissapointed in my performance today. The pitch was pretty good, like the one at ACS(I). It's actually an artifical turf. The winds today were great too. It was very enjoyable playing in such an environment. You know I heard from someone that the wind here comes from Antartica. Cool right, it's like I'm breathing air from a totally obscure place. Soccer wise, there's definitely alot for me to improve in. If I were to give myself a rating today I would give 2.5/10. Yea, that's how bad I played.
Not sure if I mentioned this before but do you know that the Sushi here is big? The rolls are like as thick as 5 thumbs put together and are pretty long as well.
Hmm, the thing about life is that we can never be prepared enough for the things to come. No matter how hard we try to prepare ourselves for what's coming it'll come down hard and real. It's undeniable that life brings much happiness but we just can't deny the fact that life brings about just as much sadness. (That's where Jesus comes in.) No, I'm not sad or anything, just pondering.
Vulgaraties.. I'm surrounded by a world full of vulgaraties. I pray I do not get influenced into using them. I know they're wrong and it's a sin to use them but sometimes the thought just comes to you to use it and once you say it, you can't take it back. Seriously, 4 out of 10 sentences I hear contains vulgaraties.
I've got a Chemistry test next Wednesday, keep me in prayer okay? Thanks!
I should start taking more pictures as well.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Somewhere in between
Ok, I won't blog much today cause there's nothing much to blog about today.
Tomorrow I've got this soccer friendly match. It's like my intake playing against the previous intake. I hope it's gonna be fun and we booked the field so we'll be able to play 7 on 7. The losers has to pay for the field. Not everyone in my team plays soccer so tomorrow's game should be an interesting one.
I'm starting to get used to life here and I'm definitely enjoying my time out here.
This songs says how I felt when I first came here.
Daughtry - Home
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Tomorrow I've got this soccer friendly match. It's like my intake playing against the previous intake. I hope it's gonna be fun and we booked the field so we'll be able to play 7 on 7. The losers has to pay for the field. Not everyone in my team plays soccer so tomorrow's game should be an interesting one.
I'm starting to get used to life here and I'm definitely enjoying my time out here.
This songs says how I felt when I first came here.
Daughtry - Home
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I'm an ass
Hah, today was a pretty interesting day. From now on, Thursdays shall be laundry and contact lenses soaking day.
So why is today interesting? I sort of pissed a girl off I think. You see I've been calling a girl Bugs Bunny and some of my friends were talking about it in the class and they told her to ask me about what I called her since she didn't hear it. So when I was walking to class today I was confronted by her and her friend and since 1 lie covers up another I just told the truth. I'm feeling abit bad, I mean if someone called me a name behind me I'll feel pretty angry too. I'm sure that a few years down the road I'm just gonna laugh this one off.
Anyway, thank God Chemistry wasn't that hard today since they were recapping old stuff. Darn, I wasn't listening much in Physics cause of my lack of discipline. It's like I would look at the board but my mind drifts a million miles away to another place. Classes here are quite cool actually and they come in one and a half hours with a half an hour break at the end. So there can be 4 classes in a day with a lunch break in between too. Cool right, since when did classes in Singapore have a half an hour break at the end.
Thursdays is also Pizza day! There's a shop nearby selling Pizza at half price every Thursday and it's not bad. (I think I blogged about this last Thursday, oops!)
Hmm, I lost my cool at my mum today. I don't wanna talk much about it but I hope things are okay now. Nevermind, I'll just say how I feel. Sometimes I seriously don't treasure those around me and I don't want to really start treasuring them when they're gone. I pray that from now on I'll be more appreciative in life.
God has really provided me with so much and I should just start counting what I have cause I deserve non at all. Is that how I should be thinking? I don't know..
So why is today interesting? I sort of pissed a girl off I think. You see I've been calling a girl Bugs Bunny and some of my friends were talking about it in the class and they told her to ask me about what I called her since she didn't hear it. So when I was walking to class today I was confronted by her and her friend and since 1 lie covers up another I just told the truth. I'm feeling abit bad, I mean if someone called me a name behind me I'll feel pretty angry too. I'm sure that a few years down the road I'm just gonna laugh this one off.
Anyway, thank God Chemistry wasn't that hard today since they were recapping old stuff. Darn, I wasn't listening much in Physics cause of my lack of discipline. It's like I would look at the board but my mind drifts a million miles away to another place. Classes here are quite cool actually and they come in one and a half hours with a half an hour break at the end. So there can be 4 classes in a day with a lunch break in between too. Cool right, since when did classes in Singapore have a half an hour break at the end.
Thursdays is also Pizza day! There's a shop nearby selling Pizza at half price every Thursday and it's not bad. (I think I blogged about this last Thursday, oops!)
Hmm, I lost my cool at my mum today. I don't wanna talk much about it but I hope things are okay now. Nevermind, I'll just say how I feel. Sometimes I seriously don't treasure those around me and I don't want to really start treasuring them when they're gone. I pray that from now on I'll be more appreciative in life.
God has really provided me with so much and I should just start counting what I have cause I deserve non at all. Is that how I should be thinking? I don't know..
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I'm trying to believe in You
Today will be a pretty short post. It's pretty late and I still have some revision to do.
Yes, one of the subjects that I always had trouble coping with is coming back to bite me in the ass. Guess what that subject is.. It's Chemistry! I still remember failing it for my prelims and thankfully by God's grace and the help of my tutor my combine science did quite well in the end. Frankly, I always have trouble coping with Chemistry and I have no idea why. I've been paying attention in class but I just don't get it. Whatever my classmates can absorb in 1 hour I take 2 hours to absorb. Crazy right? Honestly I feel that I have this natural thing for Mathematics but when it comes to Chemistry, I'm really not that good. I really hope that part of me changes since the things the course that I want to take for now is Bio Medicine and I really need to improve in the area of Chemistry.
Oh well, I'll just do my best and let God do the rest. I believe in God but there's still this part of me deep inside that really doubts the existence of God. There's so much doubt in my heart towards God, whether He will heal me, get me through this year, bless my family etc. Is being doubtful normal? Do you guys feel this way? Even though that feeling is very small it's not negligible and it sort of causes my faith to falter. I guess one of the main factors of this is because I've been praying for about 1 year plus for healing but nothing seems to be happen. I pray before I sleep only to wake up seeing things are still the same. I don't give up, I press on with my prayers in hope that one day they'll be answered but they just don't seem to be. I read this book, Destined to Reign talking about God's grace and I believe it but still grace doesn't seem to fall upon me where I can see it. I'm this kind of person where I have to see to believe, so God if you're seeing this please answer me? Please?
I've been leading the good life in Singapore, always having help but now things are different and I'm enjoying things the way they are. Argh, I'm such a doubtful person! You know they say you hear God speaking to you? I hear this voice inside but everytime I hear that voice, this question pops up in my mind "Is this my imagination?" God is just so supernatural, so impossible, so good so much so that I feel that God is unreal. I need to see something to believe it so if You may, please show me something?
On the other side of the picture, the weather is cold again and upon reflecting I realised that God has answered my desire yesterday. "God please bring the cold back!!" Is this really his doing (I truly want to believe in it) or just mere coincidence. That's the question that came to my mind. I'm starting to feel that maybe the God up there ain't so big after all.
The world is definitely changing, everything morally wrong seems okay now and it really saddens me to see such things happening. For example, God created sex to be within the boundaries of marriage but somehow the world twisted it to appear normal or "not wrong". I pray that I don't get twisted along with this world.
This post ain't long but so much for a short post. Catch you soon!
Yes, one of the subjects that I always had trouble coping with is coming back to bite me in the ass. Guess what that subject is.. It's Chemistry! I still remember failing it for my prelims and thankfully by God's grace and the help of my tutor my combine science did quite well in the end. Frankly, I always have trouble coping with Chemistry and I have no idea why. I've been paying attention in class but I just don't get it. Whatever my classmates can absorb in 1 hour I take 2 hours to absorb. Crazy right? Honestly I feel that I have this natural thing for Mathematics but when it comes to Chemistry, I'm really not that good. I really hope that part of me changes since the things the course that I want to take for now is Bio Medicine and I really need to improve in the area of Chemistry.
Oh well, I'll just do my best and let God do the rest. I believe in God but there's still this part of me deep inside that really doubts the existence of God. There's so much doubt in my heart towards God, whether He will heal me, get me through this year, bless my family etc. Is being doubtful normal? Do you guys feel this way? Even though that feeling is very small it's not negligible and it sort of causes my faith to falter. I guess one of the main factors of this is because I've been praying for about 1 year plus for healing but nothing seems to be happen. I pray before I sleep only to wake up seeing things are still the same. I don't give up, I press on with my prayers in hope that one day they'll be answered but they just don't seem to be. I read this book, Destined to Reign talking about God's grace and I believe it but still grace doesn't seem to fall upon me where I can see it. I'm this kind of person where I have to see to believe, so God if you're seeing this please answer me? Please?
I've been leading the good life in Singapore, always having help but now things are different and I'm enjoying things the way they are. Argh, I'm such a doubtful person! You know they say you hear God speaking to you? I hear this voice inside but everytime I hear that voice, this question pops up in my mind "Is this my imagination?" God is just so supernatural, so impossible, so good so much so that I feel that God is unreal. I need to see something to believe it so if You may, please show me something?
On the other side of the picture, the weather is cold again and upon reflecting I realised that God has answered my desire yesterday. "God please bring the cold back!!" Is this really his doing (I truly want to believe in it) or just mere coincidence. That's the question that came to my mind. I'm starting to feel that maybe the God up there ain't so big after all.
The world is definitely changing, everything morally wrong seems okay now and it really saddens me to see such things happening. For example, God created sex to be within the boundaries of marriage but somehow the world twisted it to appear normal or "not wrong". I pray that I don't get twisted along with this world.
This post ain't long but so much for a short post. Catch you soon!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
37!
Don't wanna blog today! The weather is so freaking hot! 37 degrees! Total change from the past few days and honestly I prefer cold. God please bring the cold back!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
Gifts.. and curses
Wow, can you believe it? I don't have schools on Monday! How cool is that! That's for the first month only though until the main term starts. But yea, for now my timetable is pretty slack.
Well, the past week pretty much has been a roller coaster ride for me. It's like during the day I have fun with my friends but at night when I'm alone in my room, the loneliness just sets in and sometimes it seriously sucks.
Anyway since there wasn't any school today I managed to slack alot today but I did go through my Chemistry! Leon's mum treated me to Pasta today and I feel bad whenever people treat me. I don't know why I feel this way but I do. Leon and I had ice cream again! Today was white chocolate and pistachio! The ice cream here is so good and we've been eating it almost everyday.
Went to the track at the University of Melbourne. I seriously suck at sprinting. Can you believe this? I've not sprinted properly once in my life. After that taught me the proper way to sprint then I realised it. My left knee cap hurts like crap now cause I was told that I rarely use that muscle.
During lunch, I had a pretty deep conversation with Leon and his Mum about Christ, faith and all sort of things. It was a really great conversation. Leon! If you see this, don't worry too much about your results, it means nothing! You're here now and that's all that matters! =]
Take care guys!
Well, the past week pretty much has been a roller coaster ride for me. It's like during the day I have fun with my friends but at night when I'm alone in my room, the loneliness just sets in and sometimes it seriously sucks.
Anyway since there wasn't any school today I managed to slack alot today but I did go through my Chemistry! Leon's mum treated me to Pasta today and I feel bad whenever people treat me. I don't know why I feel this way but I do. Leon and I had ice cream again! Today was white chocolate and pistachio! The ice cream here is so good and we've been eating it almost everyday.
Went to the track at the University of Melbourne. I seriously suck at sprinting. Can you believe this? I've not sprinted properly once in my life. After that taught me the proper way to sprint then I realised it. My left knee cap hurts like crap now cause I was told that I rarely use that muscle.
During lunch, I had a pretty deep conversation with Leon and his Mum about Christ, faith and all sort of things. It was a really great conversation. Leon! If you see this, don't worry too much about your results, it means nothing! You're here now and that's all that matters! =]
Take care guys!
Random
Just a random fact, it's like 11:40am and my hands are feeling super cold.. So much for a hot summer..
Sunday, January 11, 2009
So long, so long
You know I've been doing some reflection of late and the question I have been asking myself is "Do I really believe in God?" Sadly, the answer is no. It's so hard to explain why I feel this way but that's the truth. I've heard so much about God, all the good things that he's done for us but some part, deep inside does not believe in it. I mean on the outside it feels like I believe it but yet deep down inside I don't. You get what I mean? It's not that I don't totally believe it's just that there are doubts deep inside me. Does that mean that I don't believe at all?
Well, today would be the last day for awhile that I'll be eating out. The hostel is going to start providing food from tomorrow onwards, breakfast, lunch and dinner and from what I heard so far it ain't good but oh well, I should be treasuring what I have. Today went to Grill'd for dinner again, remember the burger bar I mentioned? The serving is big compared to burgers in Singapore and much nicer. Had gelato for desert again, Banana and Coconut flavours!
I did not mention earlier but there is another guy in our house who is about to move out soon. His name is Gunawan and he plays soccer too. Though I've not known him for a long time I'm sort of going to miss his company when he's gone. The house might feel incomplete or something with 1 guy less.
Oh well, invitations only bring farewells, we all gotta say goodbye someday. I must study hard and not let my mum down!
11pm!
Well, today would be the last day for awhile that I'll be eating out. The hostel is going to start providing food from tomorrow onwards, breakfast, lunch and dinner and from what I heard so far it ain't good but oh well, I should be treasuring what I have. Today went to Grill'd for dinner again, remember the burger bar I mentioned? The serving is big compared to burgers in Singapore and much nicer. Had gelato for desert again, Banana and Coconut flavours!
I did not mention earlier but there is another guy in our house who is about to move out soon. His name is Gunawan and he plays soccer too. Though I've not known him for a long time I'm sort of going to miss his company when he's gone. The house might feel incomplete or something with 1 guy less.
Oh well, invitations only bring farewells, we all gotta say goodbye someday. I must study hard and not let my mum down!
11pm!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
The man who can't be moved
Today was a pretty slack Saturday. Managed to wake up slightly later today at about 9am. Revised some work in the morning and went for a slow jog. Unfortunately, my legs were aching like mad and I wasn't able to jog long and had to jog slowly as well too. Everyone's legs seem to be aching from soccer today as well.
Lunch today at Lygon again.. This time round we had Nasi Lemak which was pretty good in terms of Australia's standard for Asian food. Didn't really do anything much today though. Oh, we had ice cream too! There're so many ice cream shops here and they're as good as Daily Scoops! Headed back after that while Leon and Darren went to the gym. Yea, dinner after that. Had some Japanese rice bowl thing again.
Honestly I feel that there's I have alot pride in me although I feel it's not that much. God, please take that pride away from me okay? Having pride in your own abilities is a darn bad thing! It causes so many problems both internally and externally.
Anyway my walk has slightly gone off track, I would say that seeking God right now isn't really my first priority and I know what is the right thing to do.
My room mates are great people but I just don't feel close to them. It's like we talk about stuff and all but our conversations are almost all superficial, about girls and all. I have fun talking to them it's just that having conversations about this topics all the time won't build the friendship up. Another thing is that I know that at the end of this year we'll all be going our separate ways so it's like argh.
Anyway, I'll be off now!
Lunch today at Lygon again.. This time round we had Nasi Lemak which was pretty good in terms of Australia's standard for Asian food. Didn't really do anything much today though. Oh, we had ice cream too! There're so many ice cream shops here and they're as good as Daily Scoops! Headed back after that while Leon and Darren went to the gym. Yea, dinner after that. Had some Japanese rice bowl thing again.
Honestly I feel that there's I have alot pride in me although I feel it's not that much. God, please take that pride away from me okay? Having pride in your own abilities is a darn bad thing! It causes so many problems both internally and externally.
Anyway my walk has slightly gone off track, I would say that seeking God right now isn't really my first priority and I know what is the right thing to do.
My room mates are great people but I just don't feel close to them. It's like we talk about stuff and all but our conversations are almost all superficial, about girls and all. I have fun talking to them it's just that having conversations about this topics all the time won't build the friendship up. Another thing is that I know that at the end of this year we'll all be going our separate ways so it's like argh.
Anyway, I'll be off now!
Friday, January 09, 2009
Crack the shutter
I can finally use the computer again. I said I'll continue yesterday's post today? There's nothing much I wanna blog about yesterday.
Before I blog about today I just wanna talk about my life. I've realized how spoilt I was in Singapore! I mean, I didn't even have to wash my own clothes and I always had help with most of the chores. Here, I have to wash all the clothes that I use and basically everything that I use which is really different as compared to Singapore. I'm sort of enjoying this new found freedom that I have right now, but it definitely comes with alot of responsibility not to abuse it.
This few days have been pretty good, praise to God! Without God, I wouldn't even have made it through the first day here. He's the one that made me feel like someone cares when I was alone. Anyway, I would say that today was a good day just that I'm pretty tired right now as in seriously tired.
Had Chemistry class in the morning and I really didn't catch alot of points. I really have some catching up to do which I will start with tomorrow since there's no class. As I was saying before, my time table is quite slack! I've got no school on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Tuesdays and Fridays are half days. It's really good for me since I've got more time to settle down and do my stuff. I'll talk more about my room mates now.
For now, there are only 2 of them, Darren and Leon. Both of them are like tall guys and quite sporty people. Darren is the buffed kind of guy and plays rugby while Leon plays basketball. Both of them are Christians so it makes things better. They're really nice guys too. Oh yea, Leon is my age while Darren should be about 21 or 22? He served his NS already though so he won't be going back with us at the end of the year. Darren if you are seeing this, STOP SUANNING ME! Haha, kidding! Did I mention that they're nice people? Oh yea I did. Haha.
Back to my day. After Chemistry class I went to the city to get my MacBook and I'm using it at this moment. It's the new one, with the aluminium thing. It feels good to use too. Anyway I sort of don't feel too good about myself for getting it. I keep spending so much of my Mum's cash. I mean to come here already costed so much money and all I do is spend her money. I feel that even though my laptop spoilt, I'm not really warranted to get a new one because I can just repair the old one. I hope that I'll not spend that much of my mum's money anymore. I also got Windows Vista too so I can use the Boot Camp thing allowing me to switch between Vista or Mac.
We managed to play soccer again after that. Today we were able to play 5v5 as we were able to get some other people. Today, the others who came were Xiong. He's the only one I really managed to observe. He plays like Walcott cause he is fast and all but if I'm not wrong he plays left back for school. Soccer today was great! I really enjoyed soccer today. I felt that I played like *******. Guess who? 1 clue, not Gerrard!
After soccer we went to Lygon to eat at a burger bar. I didn't eat burgers today though, I had a salad. The burgers look amazingly succulent and large! I'm so gonna try it the next time I get to. Oh, Lygon is like this street where they serve all the good food! Pasta, burgers, gelato, pizza and alot more.
Hah, I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my friends and that's bad. I'm sure they're feeling that way too and the worst part is that for me I am having fun here! Makes me feel bad at times. Thankfully, I'm going back to Singapore soon! Most probably departing on 7th Feb! The 1 week that has passed me by sure doesn't feel like a week! It feels like I have been here for a long long time!
See you guys again soon! I'll keep you guys in prayer! =]
FYI, it's getting pretty cold around here!
Before I blog about today I just wanna talk about my life. I've realized how spoilt I was in Singapore! I mean, I didn't even have to wash my own clothes and I always had help with most of the chores. Here, I have to wash all the clothes that I use and basically everything that I use which is really different as compared to Singapore. I'm sort of enjoying this new found freedom that I have right now, but it definitely comes with alot of responsibility not to abuse it.
This few days have been pretty good, praise to God! Without God, I wouldn't even have made it through the first day here. He's the one that made me feel like someone cares when I was alone. Anyway, I would say that today was a good day just that I'm pretty tired right now as in seriously tired.
Had Chemistry class in the morning and I really didn't catch alot of points. I really have some catching up to do which I will start with tomorrow since there's no class. As I was saying before, my time table is quite slack! I've got no school on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. Tuesdays and Fridays are half days. It's really good for me since I've got more time to settle down and do my stuff. I'll talk more about my room mates now.
For now, there are only 2 of them, Darren and Leon. Both of them are like tall guys and quite sporty people. Darren is the buffed kind of guy and plays rugby while Leon plays basketball. Both of them are Christians so it makes things better. They're really nice guys too. Oh yea, Leon is my age while Darren should be about 21 or 22? He served his NS already though so he won't be going back with us at the end of the year. Darren if you are seeing this, STOP SUANNING ME! Haha, kidding! Did I mention that they're nice people? Oh yea I did. Haha.
Back to my day. After Chemistry class I went to the city to get my MacBook and I'm using it at this moment. It's the new one, with the aluminium thing. It feels good to use too. Anyway I sort of don't feel too good about myself for getting it. I keep spending so much of my Mum's cash. I mean to come here already costed so much money and all I do is spend her money. I feel that even though my laptop spoilt, I'm not really warranted to get a new one because I can just repair the old one. I hope that I'll not spend that much of my mum's money anymore. I also got Windows Vista too so I can use the Boot Camp thing allowing me to switch between Vista or Mac.
We managed to play soccer again after that. Today we were able to play 5v5 as we were able to get some other people. Today, the others who came were Xiong. He's the only one I really managed to observe. He plays like Walcott cause he is fast and all but if I'm not wrong he plays left back for school. Soccer today was great! I really enjoyed soccer today. I felt that I played like *******. Guess who? 1 clue, not Gerrard!
After soccer we went to Lygon to eat at a burger bar. I didn't eat burgers today though, I had a salad. The burgers look amazingly succulent and large! I'm so gonna try it the next time I get to. Oh, Lygon is like this street where they serve all the good food! Pasta, burgers, gelato, pizza and alot more.
Hah, I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my friends and that's bad. I'm sure they're feeling that way too and the worst part is that for me I am having fun here! Makes me feel bad at times. Thankfully, I'm going back to Singapore soon! Most probably departing on 7th Feb! The 1 week that has passed me by sure doesn't feel like a week! It feels like I have been here for a long long time!
See you guys again soon! I'll keep you guys in prayer! =]
FYI, it's getting pretty cold around here!
Thursday, January 08, 2009
To be continued
You know there are days where you just feel like giving up on stuff? Yea, today was one of them for me. Of course I ain't gonna give up but I'm sort of feeling so down right now. I have no idea why I'm feeling like this? Maybe it's cause I'm tired. Still using my friends laptop to blog.
There was physics and chemistry class today. It was pretty interesting except for some parts of physics. There's really so much I have to catch up on. I'll continue another time.
There was physics and chemistry class today. It was pretty interesting except for some parts of physics. There's really so much I have to catch up on. I'll continue another time.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Melbourne...
Ok, my laptop is spoilt so I can't do anything on it. Now I'm using my frends laptop. This really sucks.. The laptop is barely 1 year old. I think I'm going to get a new one soon. I should be getting a MacBook pretty soon, maybe on Friday or something from Bourke Street. Haha, you know it's like there's this girl.... Kidding!!
Anyway, the lessons here is very different from Singapore. Their english is like interacting and games. Sounds fun right? Trust me, it is. Made a few new friends today and one of them turns out to be a Liverpool fan so the first thing I did was said they suck. (Your fault, Alex)
My timetable is great, I'll talk more about it once I get my new laptop. Today was my first physics class too. It's basically just recap of what I studied in Secondary School so it's pretty easy and I took down notes too. Without my laptop there's so many things I can't do. I can't blog, I chat and I can't Skype..
1 more thing.. The shops really close to early if not I would have gotten my MacBook by now!! Seeya soon!
Anyway, the lessons here is very different from Singapore. Their english is like interacting and games. Sounds fun right? Trust me, it is. Made a few new friends today and one of them turns out to be a Liverpool fan so the first thing I did was said they suck. (Your fault, Alex)
My timetable is great, I'll talk more about it once I get my new laptop. Today was my first physics class too. It's basically just recap of what I studied in Secondary School so it's pretty easy and I took down notes too. Without my laptop there's so many things I can't do. I can't blog, I chat and I can't Skype..
1 more thing.. The shops really close to early if not I would have gotten my MacBook by now!! Seeya soon!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Sian..
I'm like using my friends laptop now cause my laptop sort of died on me. The backlight isn't lighting up!! I'm praying that it'll work tomorrow.
Anyway today was good in the sense that I got to spend most of the day alone cause usually I'll hangout with my dorm mates. Being alone sometimes really helps me as it justs gives me time to think about deeper stuff. I won't blog today cause I don't wanna hog my friends com so if my com works tomorrow I'll blog?
Anyway today was good in the sense that I got to spend most of the day alone cause usually I'll hangout with my dorm mates. Being alone sometimes really helps me as it justs gives me time to think about deeper stuff. I won't blog today cause I don't wanna hog my friends com so if my com works tomorrow I'll blog?
Monday, January 05, 2009
Eat me
Hey! Today was the first day of school for me. It was basically just orientation for us. From what I feel the school here is pretty fantastic! It honestly feels much less stressful than in Singapore. Didn't really get to meet anyone new yet though. Out of 10 I would rate today's experience 7.5 as compared to the average in Singapore of 3.5. I really thank God for this opportunity to go overseas and I will definitely be making full use of it and not waste it away. There was also this English diagnostic test today which they use to assess your standard of English and put you at the right level. It went pretty well I guess? Thanks God!
Today is also the first day I played soccer in Australia! It was street soccer though and it was 3v3 as there aren't that many people in our hostel yet. It's really fun playing here as you sweat very little and your shirt is much drier as compared to Singapore.
I'm really not the same person here as I am in Singapore. I don't talk so much and I am hardly sarcastic anymore and I hardly mess about. I don't know if I really act different but I sure do feel different. Don't really know why I feel this way but deep deep inside I feel really lonely and sometimes it just eats me up from the inside. No one said it was gonna be easy, no one said it was gonna be this hard. It's from a song. Oh! Soccer went pretty well I guess and I had fun playing? I always knew I loved my family alot, I just never knew that I loved them THAT much. I hate goodbyes.
Time is getting very limited for me especially when school starts, so I might not update as often but I will update it regularly and posts might not be so long? I've got so much to do in the day that I don't even have time to complete the book that Jerome gave me. I'm like 7/8 through and I intend to complete before I get back. Seriously, everyday I have to buy food, wash my stuff (I haven't even started ironing yet), pack my room, talk to family and friends. I really gotta plan my time wisely in time to come.
By the way, can you guys get SKYPE so I can talk to you?? My add is lincoln91@gmail.com so just add me if you download it okay?
Alright, going to turn in soon. Take care! =]
11:25pm
Today is also the first day I played soccer in Australia! It was street soccer though and it was 3v3 as there aren't that many people in our hostel yet. It's really fun playing here as you sweat very little and your shirt is much drier as compared to Singapore.
I'm really not the same person here as I am in Singapore. I don't talk so much and I am hardly sarcastic anymore and I hardly mess about. I don't know if I really act different but I sure do feel different. Don't really know why I feel this way but deep deep inside I feel really lonely and sometimes it just eats me up from the inside. No one said it was gonna be easy, no one said it was gonna be this hard. It's from a song. Oh! Soccer went pretty well I guess and I had fun playing? I always knew I loved my family alot, I just never knew that I loved them THAT much. I hate goodbyes.
Time is getting very limited for me especially when school starts, so I might not update as often but I will update it regularly and posts might not be so long? I've got so much to do in the day that I don't even have time to complete the book that Jerome gave me. I'm like 7/8 through and I intend to complete before I get back. Seriously, everyday I have to buy food, wash my stuff (I haven't even started ironing yet), pack my room, talk to family and friends. I really gotta plan my time wisely in time to come.
By the way, can you guys get SKYPE so I can talk to you?? My add is lincoln91@gmail.com so just add me if you download it okay?
Alright, going to turn in soon. Take care! =]
11:25pm
From the inside out
I'll upload some pictures of my room now
Basically it's something like that. It's just the right size for me. Yea, I just woke up and it's super cold to bathe in the morning.. These are times when I just miss Singapore so much.
I'll blog about yesterday right now. Yesterday was the day that my family left for Singapore. Went for McDonald's in the morning for breakfast before checking out of the hotel. Hopped on a cab and we headed for the airport but they dropped me off at my hostel. It's called Palmerston House. Saying goodbye was pretty emotional for me and I admit I cried, but not alot. I'm a very emotional person and my tear glands are very active! Anyway, it's really amazing how much you can miss what you thought was the most irritating person in your life. I am really worrying for him quite alot. Jerome and I had a conversation about how would my brother feel when I'm gone and I can see how sad he is. If you see this, just know that I want you to study hard and do well ok? Make new friends too!
When I reached the hostel, packed my stuff up and played the guitar. Went out to the city with Darren (He's this guy staying in the next room) for lunch and had Subway. Walked around for abit after that and headed back after that.
We went for jogging after that at a nearby park! It's quite nice to jog here. My shirt barely gets wet! The weather here is good as long as the sun isn't shining too brightly. Dinner @ Lygon Street after that was not bad. Had some seafood basket. The house would only provide food 1 week later for now we either have to eat out or cook (Which I'm not going to do).
I really have to keep my head turned to Jesus. I'm really missing my family badly right now and it's like everytime I think about them I feel slightly saddened by it. Alright, I gotta leave here at 7.45am or 8am so I gotta go now. Take care guys!
1 last fact to note that my housemates play Dota as well but I hope I won't join them anytime soon so I won't be distracted until I settle myself down.
7:30am
Basically it's something like that. It's just the right size for me. Yea, I just woke up and it's super cold to bathe in the morning.. These are times when I just miss Singapore so much.
I'll blog about yesterday right now. Yesterday was the day that my family left for Singapore. Went for McDonald's in the morning for breakfast before checking out of the hotel. Hopped on a cab and we headed for the airport but they dropped me off at my hostel. It's called Palmerston House. Saying goodbye was pretty emotional for me and I admit I cried, but not alot. I'm a very emotional person and my tear glands are very active! Anyway, it's really amazing how much you can miss what you thought was the most irritating person in your life. I am really worrying for him quite alot. Jerome and I had a conversation about how would my brother feel when I'm gone and I can see how sad he is. If you see this, just know that I want you to study hard and do well ok? Make new friends too!
When I reached the hostel, packed my stuff up and played the guitar. Went out to the city with Darren (He's this guy staying in the next room) for lunch and had Subway. Walked around for abit after that and headed back after that.
We went for jogging after that at a nearby park! It's quite nice to jog here. My shirt barely gets wet! The weather here is good as long as the sun isn't shining too brightly. Dinner @ Lygon Street after that was not bad. Had some seafood basket. The house would only provide food 1 week later for now we either have to eat out or cook (Which I'm not going to do).
I really have to keep my head turned to Jesus. I'm really missing my family badly right now and it's like everytime I think about them I feel slightly saddened by it. Alright, I gotta leave here at 7.45am or 8am so I gotta go now. Take care guys!
1 last fact to note that my housemates play Dota as well but I hope I won't join them anytime soon so I won't be distracted until I settle myself down.
7:30am
Sunday, January 04, 2009
The real thing starts now
I am at like my dorm now and it's like 11:50pm.. Gonna sleep now so I'll update tomorrow! It felt bad..
School starts tomorrow anyway..
11:50pm
School starts tomorrow anyway..
11:50pm
Saturday, January 03, 2009
When they're gone..
Yesterday was our last day of tour. We went to a strawberry farm, cherry farm, lavender farm, and some seaside place. The strawberry farm was quite fun as we got to pick our own strawberries from the field. It was fun to be able to experience such things. It rained pretty heavily though so we had to run to shelter. At the cherry farm, we only managed to buy some cherries. The lavender farm was pretty fun too. There was some hedge maze there and we had to walk around. Basically that's all that happened yesterday.
There was no tour today. Went to Queen Victoria Market in the morning. So much to buy from there. I got lots of macadamia nuts for my dorm just in case I want to eat. The food court there was pretty good there. The food court there is so different from Singapore's. Went to Adidas at the city after that and got a few stuff. Yea, went back to the hotel to pack my stuff up and shifted my luggage all this to my dorm.
Went for dinner yesterday and today at Lygon Street. It's seriously like Diagon Alley. You know the one from Harry Potter? It really has the Diagon Alley feel to it. The place serves really really good Italian food.
Anyway, my family is leaving tomorrow morning. I can really feel the lonliness catching up to me. It's seriously quite saddening for me. The magical thing is that whenever I turn to Jesus, everything just seem to go so far away and the moment I look back at what I'm facing I just seem to sink so fast.. As if leaving my friends wasn't hard enough now I have to leave my family. The cool thing is that we're like all connected through God which is so cool. It's like we have the same father and there's internet nowadays so it's pretty good.
This is gonna be a different year...
11:35pm
There was no tour today. Went to Queen Victoria Market in the morning. So much to buy from there. I got lots of macadamia nuts for my dorm just in case I want to eat. The food court there was pretty good there. The food court there is so different from Singapore's. Went to Adidas at the city after that and got a few stuff. Yea, went back to the hotel to pack my stuff up and shifted my luggage all this to my dorm.
Went for dinner yesterday and today at Lygon Street. It's seriously like Diagon Alley. You know the one from Harry Potter? It really has the Diagon Alley feel to it. The place serves really really good Italian food.
Anyway, my family is leaving tomorrow morning. I can really feel the lonliness catching up to me. It's seriously quite saddening for me. The magical thing is that whenever I turn to Jesus, everything just seem to go so far away and the moment I look back at what I'm facing I just seem to sink so fast.. As if leaving my friends wasn't hard enough now I have to leave my family. The cool thing is that we're like all connected through God which is so cool. It's like we have the same father and there's internet nowadays so it's pretty good.
This is gonna be a different year...
11:35pm
Friday, January 02, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Penguins..
Wow, today got to wake up at 10am cause I didn't join my family for the city tour. The sleep was damn good! I don't know why but I keep dreaming of Singapore. This time round I dreamt of Alden, Alex, Edmund and Jerome. Can't remember what it's about but I'm sure I saw them and maybe some others. My dreams this few days are seriously about Singapore. Burnt away my afternoon by playing FM. Guess who I'm managing, Chelsea!
Left for Phillip Island in the evening. Summer my ass! Do you wanna guess how cold is it here? The wind is so strong it can practically make me lose my footing. At least that was how it felt away from Melbourne. And what else is there to do at Phillip Island but look at penguins! In fact, the world's smallest species of penguins. Whatever... I remember going there when I was about 10 years old? There were hundreds of penguins coming from the sea but today there was less than 50... How disappointing. The bad part is no photography is allowed there so I did not manage to take any photos today but the penguins were so so cute and tiny. The weather was super cold..
I do not know why I am wearing a cross but I guess that loving Jesus is more than reason enough for it.
Happy new year guys! Study hard! =]
Please tag k? I would really like to hear from you guys!
1.26am
Left for Phillip Island in the evening. Summer my ass! Do you wanna guess how cold is it here? The wind is so strong it can practically make me lose my footing. At least that was how it felt away from Melbourne. And what else is there to do at Phillip Island but look at penguins! In fact, the world's smallest species of penguins. Whatever... I remember going there when I was about 10 years old? There were hundreds of penguins coming from the sea but today there was less than 50... How disappointing. The bad part is no photography is allowed there so I did not manage to take any photos today but the penguins were so so cute and tiny. The weather was super cold..
I do not know why I am wearing a cross but I guess that loving Jesus is more than reason enough for it.
Happy new year guys! Study hard! =]
Please tag k? I would really like to hear from you guys!
1.26am
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy new year
It's like 11:20pm here so happy new year to you guys back in Singapore in 3 hours 40 minutes time! I totally forgot that today is New Year's Eve until Alex told me. Sure doesn't feel like New Year's Eve to me. Honestly, it just feels like any other day. I am no longer feeling the magic of holidays.
Anyway,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
11:20pm
Anyway,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
11:20pm
Champagne Supernova
Went to some train called Puffing Billy today. It's basically just a steam train but you get to seat right on the edge of the window when it's moving. It was very cold as the wind would be blowing against you but I guess it was fun. Didn't take much photos today though.
I had quite alot of alcohol today cause we went to various wineries. I wouldn't say that wine isn't nice to drink it's just that I would rather drink juice then wine. We really got to taste so many different varieties. I guess my favorite one would be the Moscato (Thanks Kym for reminding me!) as it's slightly sweeter. We tasted sparkling wine too which was ok.
Really didn't do anything worth blogging after that.
Back in Singapore I was really a procrastinator. I don't know if I would be one now but I'm trying not to be one. Procrastination was something that I would do every single day. I would do my homework late, study for tests the day before and stuff like that. I really hope I can change that point about me cause if I procrastinate here my results would definitely be below par. Please pray for me with regards to that ok?
I'll try to keep my posts longer in the future but for now I gotta go. If I'm not wrong there will be a city tour tomorrow.
10:30pm
I had quite alot of alcohol today cause we went to various wineries. I wouldn't say that wine isn't nice to drink it's just that I would rather drink juice then wine. We really got to taste so many different varieties. I guess my favorite one would be the Moscato (Thanks Kym for reminding me!) as it's slightly sweeter. We tasted sparkling wine too which was ok.
Really didn't do anything worth blogging after that.
Back in Singapore I was really a procrastinator. I don't know if I would be one now but I'm trying not to be one. Procrastination was something that I would do every single day. I would do my homework late, study for tests the day before and stuff like that. I really hope I can change that point about me cause if I procrastinate here my results would definitely be below par. Please pray for me with regards to that ok?
I'll try to keep my posts longer in the future but for now I gotta go. If I'm not wrong there will be a city tour tomorrow.
10:30pm
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
The wind blows
This few days is super windy!! Today was free & easy which means I got to wake up later which was good considering I've been sleeping for less than 6 hours a day for the past few days.
Let's see what I did today.. Went to Hungry Jack's for breakfast. It's actually Burger King with another name. I see Whoppers on the menu. Anyway after breakfast, went to NAB (It's an Australian bank) to set up a bank account. The interest per annum 5% per year which is quite alot as compared to Singapore.
Really didn't do anything much today. We went to Queen Victoria Market which was closed at 4pm. I guess that the highlight of today was that I got an iPhone! They sell it contractless here! I got the white color model. The only bad part is that I've got to pay $120 to unlock it so I can use it in Singapore. I must remember to Gmask it in Singapore.
Gotta sleep already cause tomorrow there is some tour and I've got to wake up at 6am. See you soon =]
Let's see what I did today.. Went to Hungry Jack's for breakfast. It's actually Burger King with another name. I see Whoppers on the menu. Anyway after breakfast, went to NAB (It's an Australian bank) to set up a bank account. The interest per annum 5% per year which is quite alot as compared to Singapore.
Really didn't do anything much today. We went to Queen Victoria Market which was closed at 4pm. I guess that the highlight of today was that I got an iPhone! They sell it contractless here! I got the white color model. The only bad part is that I've got to pay $120 to unlock it so I can use it in Singapore. I must remember to Gmask it in Singapore.
Gotta sleep already cause tomorrow there is some tour and I've got to wake up at 6am. See you soon =]
Monday, December 29, 2008
Connections are more dangerous than lies
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Ok, actually this is like the 7.30pm sky! Bright?
The Caesar Salad was super nice!
This photo was taken in Vietnam! Wow, I really had alot of fun there. Of course that's another one of Jerome's talents, golfing.
This was the theme park I was talking about, you get the idea?
If I'm not wrong this is another picture of London Bridge
London Bridge
I remember studying this in Geography but I forgot what it's called already
This was taken at Great Ocean Road, I love that place!
Nice?
At around 7pm the sky looks something like this, maybe slightly darker
Well, uploaded some of the many photos that I have on hand. It really takes a long time to upload. Anyway, today was a tiring day. Tour was from 8am-9pm. We went to the Grampians National Park! I'll upload the photos of there at a later date. I enjoyed the trip because we were among nature the whole day. Kind of reminded me of Sabah minus the humidity. Can you imagine it? It's a really nice place and only photos can describe it.
On the coach today I dozed off and had this dream of Alex and Jerome. It was pretty random. I was in Singapore and we went to some hotel lobby to transfer money to Joanna then I was running after some bus while the 2 of them were on it. Random right? My dreams are really really random!
Life in Australia is becoming pretty normal for me. I think adapting to the pace of life here won't be much of a problem as it's not as fast paced as compared to Singapore. I'll blog again soon but I just want to ask for prayer requests? Can you please pray that I'll be able to fully commit my studies to God and that I'll be blessed with wisdom and most importantly DISCIPLINE throughout this period? Thanks alot! =] See you all soon!
Ok, actually this is like the 7.30pm sky! Bright?
The Caesar Salad was super nice!
This photo was taken in Vietnam! Wow, I really had alot of fun there. Of course that's another one of Jerome's talents, golfing.
This was the theme park I was talking about, you get the idea?
If I'm not wrong this is another picture of London Bridge
London Bridge
I remember studying this in Geography but I forgot what it's called already
This was taken at Great Ocean Road, I love that place!
Nice?
At around 7pm the sky looks something like this, maybe slightly darker
Well, uploaded some of the many photos that I have on hand. It really takes a long time to upload. Anyway, today was a tiring day. Tour was from 8am-9pm. We went to the Grampians National Park! I'll upload the photos of there at a later date. I enjoyed the trip because we were among nature the whole day. Kind of reminded me of Sabah minus the humidity. Can you imagine it? It's a really nice place and only photos can describe it.
On the coach today I dozed off and had this dream of Alex and Jerome. It was pretty random. I was in Singapore and we went to some hotel lobby to transfer money to Joanna then I was running after some bus while the 2 of them were on it. Random right? My dreams are really really random!
Life in Australia is becoming pretty normal for me. I think adapting to the pace of life here won't be much of a problem as it's not as fast paced as compared to Singapore. I'll blog again soon but I just want to ask for prayer requests? Can you please pray that I'll be able to fully commit my studies to God and that I'll be blessed with wisdom and most importantly DISCIPLINE throughout this period? Thanks alot! =] See you all soon!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Boston...
Damn.. I can't seem to upload photos cause the upload rate at night is so slow. Anyway, yesterday I went to the Great Ocean Road. I must say that I had alot of fun yesterday. The sights that I saw yesterday was super good. Jerome, you and your SLR will own the place upside down. Just look at his abundant talents. Soccer, guitar, piano now photography? What's next from you? Haha. I really hope I can upload the photos soon though. Anyway yesterday was a pretty long day. It lasted from like 8am-8pm. There's really nothing I feel like blogging about yesterday because pictures speak louder than a thousand words. Haha! Basically I went to the 12 Apostles, London Bridge and some other places.
Today we went to Soverign Hill. It's like some theme park. Not exactly those kind of theme park that you would imagine but it's based on the mining industry of Australia in the past. Honestly, there was nothnig much to do there but it was still fun cause some of the attractions were fun and there was this pretty girl too. The people there are really beautiful. Of course I don't go to the extent of lusting but I really find them beautiful. Of course the Singaporean girls are pretty too but in a different way. This trip has allowed me to be closer to my cousin too. She is doing her degree right now so I can really seek advice from her.
I went jogging today!! It's really nice jogging here cause it's not too hot and the wind keeps blowing against you. If I continue the way I am now without exercising I would definitely coming back a fatter person.
Yay! I'm almost halfway through Destined to Reign already. It's a really good book and you should go grab it at a bookstore. It's by Pastor Prince of New Creation. Thanks Jerome for introducing me the book. Alex, I'll read the book when they new year starts so I'll be following it accordingly.
When I was in FCBC I really believed in their teachings totally but after reading the book I realised that thought it may not be wrong it's not the best. Read the book and it'll change everything. Trust me, I've only read half and it has helped me so much already.
Had Vietnamese food in the city for dinner. The next time I come back to Singapore I'll try to get some really nice doughnuts for you guys. Alex don't drool!! (:
1 question I really want to find the answer to is 'Why am I wearing the cross?" Before I left, some friends gave me a cross to wear and I really treasure it alot, maybe for the wrong reasons. I am definitely not wearing it as a fashion accessory cause I'm not a fan of those kind of stuff. I really don't know why I am wearing it and I wanna find the answer out so I'm definitely going to find some time to reflect on it.
Oh and my new number is +6132383188! Save it if you want to k? Thanks! If possible I'll put up some photos tomorrow. Yay! Today I managed to talk to a few people! Christabel, Edmund, Jerome and Wen Zhao. 'It only 4 days since you left but it feels like so long already.' That's so true, it definitely feels like I've been here for a long long time today. Alright, see you soon. =]
11:30pm
Today we went to Soverign Hill. It's like some theme park. Not exactly those kind of theme park that you would imagine but it's based on the mining industry of Australia in the past. Honestly, there was nothnig much to do there but it was still fun cause some of the attractions were fun and there was this pretty girl too. The people there are really beautiful. Of course I don't go to the extent of lusting but I really find them beautiful. Of course the Singaporean girls are pretty too but in a different way. This trip has allowed me to be closer to my cousin too. She is doing her degree right now so I can really seek advice from her.
I went jogging today!! It's really nice jogging here cause it's not too hot and the wind keeps blowing against you. If I continue the way I am now without exercising I would definitely coming back a fatter person.
Yay! I'm almost halfway through Destined to Reign already. It's a really good book and you should go grab it at a bookstore. It's by Pastor Prince of New Creation. Thanks Jerome for introducing me the book. Alex, I'll read the book when they new year starts so I'll be following it accordingly.
When I was in FCBC I really believed in their teachings totally but after reading the book I realised that thought it may not be wrong it's not the best. Read the book and it'll change everything. Trust me, I've only read half and it has helped me so much already.
Had Vietnamese food in the city for dinner. The next time I come back to Singapore I'll try to get some really nice doughnuts for you guys. Alex don't drool!! (:
1 question I really want to find the answer to is 'Why am I wearing the cross?" Before I left, some friends gave me a cross to wear and I really treasure it alot, maybe for the wrong reasons. I am definitely not wearing it as a fashion accessory cause I'm not a fan of those kind of stuff. I really don't know why I am wearing it and I wanna find the answer out so I'm definitely going to find some time to reflect on it.
Oh and my new number is +6132383188! Save it if you want to k? Thanks! If possible I'll put up some photos tomorrow. Yay! Today I managed to talk to a few people! Christabel, Edmund, Jerome and Wen Zhao. 'It only 4 days since you left but it feels like so long already.' That's so true, it definitely feels like I've been here for a long long time today. Alright, see you soon. =]
11:30pm
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Have a nice day
Today was pretty fun. Took quite alot of photos so I'll blog about today another day when Optus finally activates my broadband. It's like 12.35am here and those that I wanna talk to aren't online!!
I'll blog some stuff about my walk next time to. Today's gonna just be surfing around the web since it's so late already.
I'll blog some stuff about my walk next time to. Today's gonna just be surfing around the web since it's so late already.
Friday, December 26, 2008
With You
You know what I should be doing? Instead of thinking about what's gonna happen in a few days time I should just make full use of today. I only have 7 minutes plus to blog now unless I pay another 2 bucks. I mean all I've been thinking about it what is going to happen when my family leaves Australia and how I'm going to survive alone. I barely know how to wash my own clothes so it really makes me wonder what life is going to be like in the near future. However, I should really be trying to spend and enjoy my time here with my family while we still have the time with each other.
I got my Australian number already so unless I'm in Singapore I won't be using my Singapore sim card so you can sms or call me at (I'll edit this next time once I remember the number). Oh wells, I really hope I get my internet soon too. I just got some wireless broadband router which sadly hasn't been activated yet or I'll be in my hotel room blogging instead of wondering if people are peering right behind my shoulder which my cousin just did..
Again, nothing much happened today. Went back to the city for some shopping and food. There will be tour tomorrow though, if I'm not wrong it will be some ocean walk which should be fun. Gotta wake up real early tomorrow. I only have like 1 min 50 seconds left!! I tihnk I'll just top it up, hold on.
Ok, I'm back. I really have nothing much to blog about today. I really wish I would be able to upload pictures. Hopefully the company activates my mobile broadband tomorrow. Anyway, life here in Australia seems pretty different. There's definitely alot more walking as compared to Singapore and instead of buses they mostly use trams. Lifestyle cost here is definitely more expensive too.
I'm definitely not feeling as sad as yesterday but neither am I feeling happy today. I'm seriously missing my friends alot. I would say I treasure my friends more than my extended family. Is this natural? I guess this is because I spend more time with my friends.
Some stuff I really want to do before my school term starts
1) Commit my studies to God
2) Prepare myself to devote more time to God
Ok, better I shall think of some new year resolutions to put before the year comes to an end.
1) Stop smoking.. (Kidding! Lol)
2) Study hard and achieve at least a score of 98% for my final result at the end of the year (It's really possible although it might sound impossible)
3) Really build up my relationship with God (I'm not saying that I'll be going church every week though it'll be good that I can go)
4) Chat/Video conference with my friends at least once a week
5) Build closer bonds with my family (This might be hard as I won't physically be with them)
6) Enjoy each moment possible with my friends when I'm back in Singapore
Right now I really believe that with God anything is possible. I remember Jerome's father telling me that whenever I have problems I should just commit it to God because that's the best solution. It's a totally different case on my end. Whenever I have a problem I think of ways to solve them and going to God is usually the 3rd or 4th thing I would tihnk of doing. I really have to change that and just learn to commit stuff to God.
Guys! I don't see you all online whenever I come online! The time difference here is like 3 hours earlier so I hope we can meet online soon.
10:18pm
I got my Australian number already so unless I'm in Singapore I won't be using my Singapore sim card so you can sms or call me at (I'll edit this next time once I remember the number). Oh wells, I really hope I get my internet soon too. I just got some wireless broadband router which sadly hasn't been activated yet or I'll be in my hotel room blogging instead of wondering if people are peering right behind my shoulder which my cousin just did..
Again, nothing much happened today. Went back to the city for some shopping and food. There will be tour tomorrow though, if I'm not wrong it will be some ocean walk which should be fun. Gotta wake up real early tomorrow. I only have like 1 min 50 seconds left!! I tihnk I'll just top it up, hold on.
Ok, I'm back. I really have nothing much to blog about today. I really wish I would be able to upload pictures. Hopefully the company activates my mobile broadband tomorrow. Anyway, life here in Australia seems pretty different. There's definitely alot more walking as compared to Singapore and instead of buses they mostly use trams. Lifestyle cost here is definitely more expensive too.
I'm definitely not feeling as sad as yesterday but neither am I feeling happy today. I'm seriously missing my friends alot. I would say I treasure my friends more than my extended family. Is this natural? I guess this is because I spend more time with my friends.
Some stuff I really want to do before my school term starts
1) Commit my studies to God
2) Prepare myself to devote more time to God
Ok, better I shall think of some new year resolutions to put before the year comes to an end.
1) Stop smoking.. (Kidding! Lol)
2) Study hard and achieve at least a score of 98% for my final result at the end of the year (It's really possible although it might sound impossible)
3) Really build up my relationship with God (I'm not saying that I'll be going church every week though it'll be good that I can go)
4) Chat/Video conference with my friends at least once a week
5) Build closer bonds with my family (This might be hard as I won't physically be with them)
6) Enjoy each moment possible with my friends when I'm back in Singapore
Right now I really believe that with God anything is possible. I remember Jerome's father telling me that whenever I have problems I should just commit it to God because that's the best solution. It's a totally different case on my end. Whenever I have a problem I think of ways to solve them and going to God is usually the 3rd or 4th thing I would tihnk of doing. I really have to change that and just learn to commit stuff to God.
Guys! I don't see you all online whenever I come online! The time difference here is like 3 hours earlier so I hope we can meet online soon.
10:18pm
Thursday, December 25, 2008
First day here
Alright, today is like my first day in Melbourne. I must say that it's much colder than I had expected. Today's temperature was about 17 degres celcius which was pretty shocking for me considering that it's summer right now. I'm at the hotel lobby right now as internet access in the room is charged at 55 cents per minute but at the lobby it's like $2 for 15 minutes. The plane ride was pretty boring.. I was expecting them to show Twilight but they didn't so I ended up watching The Dark Knight. It's a nice show but too bad I didn't watch it in the cinema!! (:
Touched down at about 10am Australian time and we checked into the hotel immediately before heading to check my hostel out. I won't say that my hostel is good but it's decent and I'll put pictures up when I can. It really sucks to not have your own internet man. That's something I really take for granted. Almost all the shops were closed today!! During Christmas in Singapore, all the stores are open whereas in Australia most are closed except for those in China Town so on our first day in Australia I had 2 chinese meals. Feeling pretty tired today after the plane ride and all. I'm going to sleep now. The time difference here is 3 hours faster than Singapore! I'll blog more tomorrow if I get the chace to use the computer.
Honestly I'm feeling pretty down but I'm really trying my best to hide it from my family. Just knowing that I won't be going back to Singapore anytime soon is pretty depressing. I seriously miss all my friends. I really feel quite emo to the point where I may just cry. (I said before, I cry easily) I really can't wait for the chance to be able to head back to Singapore! Once my family heads back to Singapore, life's going to get pretty lonely.
I've got a few messages for some people.
Firstly Alex! I got your message today but I wasn't able to see it. Apparently my phone has some problem now, even the touch screen isn't working. So can you tell me what the message was about the next time we talk? It was like they show Alex Yan sent you a message but in my inbox there is no message.
Now Jerome! I've starting reading the book already! Thanks for it. I can really feel that something in me deep inside is changing. I know that if I don't make the effort to get closer to God things aren't going to be easy so I'm trying. (:
To you! (You know who you are) We never meant for things to turn out this way I know but I believe that God didn't let this happen for nothing. I truly love you as a friend and just the thought that I've hurt you eats me up inside. I know you'll say don't feel bad but I really do feel bad. You don't deserve to feel like this. You deserve someone who will make you happy and who can give you what you want. Don't feel sad when you read this ok? I've got this feeling that we'll be friends for a long long time.
Alden! I heard that you had a hard time choosing the cross for me! Wow, I must say that I was pretty shocked to recieve such a gift but I'm really happy. I remember in the past I always wanted to get one but I never dared to ask my mum to get me one. I've got no idea why. Just by wearing the cross makes me feel different. It makes me remeber that there is someone REAL up there caring for me. Thanks for the gift! And of course the 2 of you who contributed as well. (I know who you are) =]
I'm really happy that my friends sent me off. I'm really blessed to have friends like you all and thanks for coming yesterday, you guys and gal really touched my heart. Thank goodness I prepared myself or I may have cried. Thanks for the gifts.
I remember saying that I'll blog something about myself once I'm in Australia? I'll do that soon ok? And please don't be afraid to tag my blog when you read it ok? I really wanna hear from you guys. I just spent 4 bucks on internet and looks like now I only have about 7 minutes left. I really love all of you guys and you guys are almost always on my mind. Yes, all of you. I'll try to blog soon so see you! (:
11:40pm
Touched down at about 10am Australian time and we checked into the hotel immediately before heading to check my hostel out. I won't say that my hostel is good but it's decent and I'll put pictures up when I can. It really sucks to not have your own internet man. That's something I really take for granted. Almost all the shops were closed today!! During Christmas in Singapore, all the stores are open whereas in Australia most are closed except for those in China Town so on our first day in Australia I had 2 chinese meals. Feeling pretty tired today after the plane ride and all. I'm going to sleep now. The time difference here is 3 hours faster than Singapore! I'll blog more tomorrow if I get the chace to use the computer.
Honestly I'm feeling pretty down but I'm really trying my best to hide it from my family. Just knowing that I won't be going back to Singapore anytime soon is pretty depressing. I seriously miss all my friends. I really feel quite emo to the point where I may just cry. (I said before, I cry easily) I really can't wait for the chance to be able to head back to Singapore! Once my family heads back to Singapore, life's going to get pretty lonely.
I've got a few messages for some people.
Firstly Alex! I got your message today but I wasn't able to see it. Apparently my phone has some problem now, even the touch screen isn't working. So can you tell me what the message was about the next time we talk? It was like they show Alex Yan sent you a message but in my inbox there is no message.
Now Jerome! I've starting reading the book already! Thanks for it. I can really feel that something in me deep inside is changing. I know that if I don't make the effort to get closer to God things aren't going to be easy so I'm trying. (:
To you! (You know who you are) We never meant for things to turn out this way I know but I believe that God didn't let this happen for nothing. I truly love you as a friend and just the thought that I've hurt you eats me up inside. I know you'll say don't feel bad but I really do feel bad. You don't deserve to feel like this. You deserve someone who will make you happy and who can give you what you want. Don't feel sad when you read this ok? I've got this feeling that we'll be friends for a long long time.
Alden! I heard that you had a hard time choosing the cross for me! Wow, I must say that I was pretty shocked to recieve such a gift but I'm really happy. I remember in the past I always wanted to get one but I never dared to ask my mum to get me one. I've got no idea why. Just by wearing the cross makes me feel different. It makes me remeber that there is someone REAL up there caring for me. Thanks for the gift! And of course the 2 of you who contributed as well. (I know who you are) =]
I'm really happy that my friends sent me off. I'm really blessed to have friends like you all and thanks for coming yesterday, you guys and gal really touched my heart. Thank goodness I prepared myself or I may have cried. Thanks for the gifts.
I remember saying that I'll blog something about myself once I'm in Australia? I'll do that soon ok? And please don't be afraid to tag my blog when you read it ok? I really wanna hear from you guys. I just spent 4 bucks on internet and looks like now I only have about 7 minutes left. I really love all of you guys and you guys are almost always on my mind. Yes, all of you. I'll try to blog soon so see you! (:
11:40pm
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Fly away
Alright, my flight leaves in about 5 hours 40 minutes. Today, was a great day. I sort of spent my day with Alex, Jerome and Wen Zhao which was very fun for me. I've got nothing much to blog about in the sense that I don't really feel like blogging right now.
Anyway, my family would be going to Australia for holiday with me too so it won't be that bad. It's the part when they leave when everything truly begins. I honestly don't feel like I'm going on holiday and tomorrow sure doesn't feel like Christmas to me, just feels like any other day. I may not be updating for a few days so see you soon!
Anyway, my family would be going to Australia for holiday with me too so it won't be that bad. It's the part when they leave when everything truly begins. I honestly don't feel like I'm going on holiday and tomorrow sure doesn't feel like Christmas to me, just feels like any other day. I may not be updating for a few days so see you soon!
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
It's really amazing how fast time can pass by. Wow, today would be like the last day in a long time that I'll be lying down on my bed. Feeling pretty emo already, I really can't imagine life without my family and friends. Couldn't time go by slower??
Anyway today was a pretty long day. Went to Plaza Sing in the afternoon with Alex, Caleb and Jerome. Spent most of the time at Spotlight getting Christmas presents. I'm definitely going to miss Alex and Jerome gaying around with each other and trying to outsmart each other all the time. This really sucks.. I can feel the emo crawling on to me. Anyway, went to Telok Blangah after that with the exception of Caleb who went back to school for CCA.
Another thing I'm going to miss is the soccer at Telok Blangah!! Really enjoyed soccer today and had alot of fun especially during the last match. After that, Alex and Deric came over to bathe then Alex and I headed to Queensway first. Finally got a jacket! Was supposed to meet like Deric, Jerome, Edmund, Leroy and Yong Soo at Plaza Sing for Twilight at 940pm but we all came late so in the end we just walked around pretty much aimlessly. The bus ride to Plaza Sing with Alex was damn funny. We stopped earlier because the traffic jam was so so bad. Had dinner at Pasta Mania after that. Went home after that.. I got some pictures and I'll try to put them up tomorrow.
1 thing I've learnt is that the grass is always greener on the other side. No matter which path you take you'll definitely be bound to look back and wonder if you've made the right choices in life.
Anyway today was a pretty long day. Went to Plaza Sing in the afternoon with Alex, Caleb and Jerome. Spent most of the time at Spotlight getting Christmas presents. I'm definitely going to miss Alex and Jerome gaying around with each other and trying to outsmart each other all the time. This really sucks.. I can feel the emo crawling on to me. Anyway, went to Telok Blangah after that with the exception of Caleb who went back to school for CCA.
Another thing I'm going to miss is the soccer at Telok Blangah!! Really enjoyed soccer today and had alot of fun especially during the last match. After that, Alex and Deric came over to bathe then Alex and I headed to Queensway first. Finally got a jacket! Was supposed to meet like Deric, Jerome, Edmund, Leroy and Yong Soo at Plaza Sing for Twilight at 940pm but we all came late so in the end we just walked around pretty much aimlessly. The bus ride to Plaza Sing with Alex was damn funny. We stopped earlier because the traffic jam was so so bad. Had dinner at Pasta Mania after that. Went home after that.. I got some pictures and I'll try to put them up tomorrow.
1 thing I've learnt is that the grass is always greener on the other side. No matter which path you take you'll definitely be bound to look back and wonder if you've made the right choices in life.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Part 2
Can you imagine someone just giving you 10 grand just like that? It's quite crazy right but I just saw it happening a few days ago. The guy couldn't even believe it! Well, today after we woke up and after Jerome and Alex were done messing we went to West Coast Plaza for lunch. Hard to imagine that a place like this was once known as Ginza Plaza! Ginza was so run down and ugly. They really revamped the place already. I used to cut my hair there! Anyway, we ate NYNY. This few days my appetite seems to be not as good as before. I have no idea why.
I've finally started packing my luggage!! Yay!! I hope I don't forget anything important. I'm definitely not done with the packing but at least I'm almost half way through. My mum finally learnt how to use MSN. Had to go to her office at night to help her fix the webcam and teach her how to use it. Dinner after that.
I don't know if I've blogged about this but 1 of the things I learnt is that your relationship with God isn't based on whether you go church or not but based on you. Your relationship with God is something based on YOU and GOD, nothing else. I'm really glad to be able to comprehend this. Some of you may know but I no longer go to church and in the past I really felt that because of that my walk went off track but now I know it's because of me and there are some things I have to change about myself in that area.
The next 1 year for me will be mostly about change. We all experience change everyday but what happens when that change is really a huge change. Haha, I'm hoping that who I am doesn't change cause of that. For one, I definitely have to change my sleeping habits.
I've finally started packing my luggage!! Yay!! I hope I don't forget anything important. I'm definitely not done with the packing but at least I'm almost half way through. My mum finally learnt how to use MSN. Had to go to her office at night to help her fix the webcam and teach her how to use it. Dinner after that.
I don't know if I've blogged about this but 1 of the things I learnt is that your relationship with God isn't based on whether you go church or not but based on you. Your relationship with God is something based on YOU and GOD, nothing else. I'm really glad to be able to comprehend this. Some of you may know but I no longer go to church and in the past I really felt that because of that my walk went off track but now I know it's because of me and there are some things I have to change about myself in that area.
The next 1 year for me will be mostly about change. We all experience change everyday but what happens when that change is really a huge change. Haha, I'm hoping that who I am doesn't change cause of that. For one, I definitely have to change my sleeping habits.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Part 1
Didn't update yesterday as I was staying over at Alden's place. Let's see, yesterday was a great day. In the morning I finally watched the sermon that Jerome lent me. It was basically about how we have the righteousness of God in us. Really great sermon, pastor Prince is seriously a really good preacher.
Alden and Alex came in the evening cause my mum wanted to buy the 2 of them plus JC dinner. It was some Japaneses buffet. After that we went over to Alden's place. Why did Arsenal draw with Liverpool!! Nooooo!! I seriously suck at bluff. I only lie when I have to and I always get caught whenever I lie.. All in all the stay over was a good experience for me since this was the first time that I stayed over at Alden's house. Hopefully they'll do this again soon when I'm back.
I'll continue what happened today later.
Alden and Alex came in the evening cause my mum wanted to buy the 2 of them plus JC dinner. It was some Japaneses buffet. After that we went over to Alden's place. Why did Arsenal draw with Liverpool!! Nooooo!! I seriously suck at bluff. I only lie when I have to and I always get caught whenever I lie.. All in all the stay over was a good experience for me since this was the first time that I stayed over at Alden's house. Hopefully they'll do this again soon when I'm back.
I'll continue what happened today later.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Never gonna be alone
The days just seem to go by faster and faster. The closer I come to leaving, the faster time passes by. Today was a fun day in the sense that I always able to spend time with my friends. Jerome came up in the late morning and we just talked and played Guitar Hero. It's a fun game and it'll be better if I had 2 guitars. Anyway, we met Alden and Alex at Queensway after that. Alden and JC were supposed to get their new boots but they didn't get it in the end. I bought some stuff and we headed down to Anfield today.
Surprisingly there were quite a number of people today. Enough to either play field soccer or at Telok Blangah. Anyway soccer was as usual, fun. We had dinner after that. We as in Alden, Alex, Caleb Wong, Deric and Jerome.
The bus ride back with Caleb and Jerome was pretty deep. Everything I say here is based on how I feel. I'm not that close to Caleb but everytime we meet there's some parts of our life that we'll be able to share with each other. Of course we don't share everything but we share and it's great to meet him again. All those that are close to him are really blessed to have him as a friend.
I have to say that being around friends feel so much different now as I know it's only a matter of time I'll be leaving. By leaving I'll be leaving so much behind which it's really quite disheartening. I really don't wanna lose contact with those I know here which is already quite a feat to do. To make matters worse is that in a way I've got to start a new life there. Ironically that's what I always thought I wanted, being able to start afresh. But I also know that I'm never gonna be alone as long as I have God. And yes, I'm going to watch the DVD tomorrow I hope!
Surprisingly there were quite a number of people today. Enough to either play field soccer or at Telok Blangah. Anyway soccer was as usual, fun. We had dinner after that. We as in Alden, Alex, Caleb Wong, Deric and Jerome.
The bus ride back with Caleb and Jerome was pretty deep. Everything I say here is based on how I feel. I'm not that close to Caleb but everytime we meet there's some parts of our life that we'll be able to share with each other. Of course we don't share everything but we share and it's great to meet him again. All those that are close to him are really blessed to have him as a friend.
I have to say that being around friends feel so much different now as I know it's only a matter of time I'll be leaving. By leaving I'll be leaving so much behind which it's really quite disheartening. I really don't wanna lose contact with those I know here which is already quite a feat to do. To make matters worse is that in a way I've got to start a new life there. Ironically that's what I always thought I wanted, being able to start afresh. But I also know that I'm never gonna be alone as long as I have God. And yes, I'm going to watch the DVD tomorrow I hope!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Bella Luna (I've got no idea what it means)
I'm not a big fan of surprises but what a pleasant surprise I had in the evening. Firstly, I would really like to thank Alex and everyone else who was involved in the planning of it. I'm really touched by you all and those who came. This goes out to those who came today, I'm really thankful that you took time out of your schedule to come today. It means a whole lot to me. So, Alden lured me to meet him at Commonwealth first before we headed to Kathib MRT. Alex then brought us to a park near there and it's a really nice play. Alot of recreational stuff to do there like prawn fishing, pool, paintball, various sports. The place is called Bottle Tree Park and if you have gone there you should try to go there with your friends one day. I'm pretty happy today. The friends who mean the most to me were all there. Of course all my other friends who came mean alot to me as well and I'm thankful for each and every one of you. (I really mean it) Alex, you told me that you tried to get 70+ people and you might feel disappointed that not all came but I just want to tell you that even if 3 people came I would be just as happy as I would be right now. I know you took alot of effort to plan this and I just want to say thank you! Basically most of the people there were just gaying about which is always a pleasure to watch. I've got some photos which I haven't gotten yet but I'll be posting them once I get it.
Honestly, I really want to migrate to some other country and leave Singapore. There are so many reasons why I wanna leave but just the very existence of my family and friends in Singapore really makes me want to change my mind. I'm leaving for Australia in like 4 days and I better damn well make full use of it or I know I'm going to regret it when I'm going to leave. Come to think of it, I haven't even packed my bag yet.. Better start soon! See ya! =]
Honestly, I really want to migrate to some other country and leave Singapore. There are so many reasons why I wanna leave but just the very existence of my family and friends in Singapore really makes me want to change my mind. I'm leaving for Australia in like 4 days and I better damn well make full use of it or I know I'm going to regret it when I'm going to leave. Come to think of it, I haven't even packed my bag yet.. Better start soon! See ya! =]
Thursday, December 18, 2008
The Remedy
Went out with my uncle, auntie and my brother and his friend today. We went for some Japanese buffet at Jurong Point. Couldn't eat much today though. You guys should seriously try it out. It's pretty affordable for the lunch and the spread there is good and the quality is good too. It's called Kuishin Bo. After that my uncle and auntie brought my brother and his friend to science centre and I headed home. The bus ride back was seriously long.
I had fun in the evening. Met with Alden and Alex at Bukit Batok to see some field for some soccer thing. Then we went to BK for dinner. The conversations I have with them is something that never happens for my other friends and they're really special people in my life. If my memory serves me right, the first sentence Alex said to me was I like Joy. Lame right.
Today I sort of officially left my cell group. I've been meaning to do that for such a long time already. I mean no point hanging there and nothing changes right? I'm sure that the reason why I'm still stuck here lies with me but there seems to be nothing I can do. Do you get that feeling? Ever since secondary 3, my spiritual life has been pretty stagnant. Nothing much has changed while my cell leader constantly puts in effort to try to communicate with me. He's been practically wasting his time on me. So what better way to make things better than leaving right? This might not seem right to you guys, but I definitely have other reasons for making such a decision. It may not be the right thing to do but I do not regret making such a choice. It's better that way since I don't leaving any loose ends this time round. Of course I know that the door is always open for me to go back. But I just want to start afresh in some Church where no one knows who I am.
This blog seriously needs some pictures..
1 more thing.. Sorry Alex for you know what!
I had fun in the evening. Met with Alden and Alex at Bukit Batok to see some field for some soccer thing. Then we went to BK for dinner. The conversations I have with them is something that never happens for my other friends and they're really special people in my life. If my memory serves me right, the first sentence Alex said to me was I like Joy. Lame right.
Today I sort of officially left my cell group. I've been meaning to do that for such a long time already. I mean no point hanging there and nothing changes right? I'm sure that the reason why I'm still stuck here lies with me but there seems to be nothing I can do. Do you get that feeling? Ever since secondary 3, my spiritual life has been pretty stagnant. Nothing much has changed while my cell leader constantly puts in effort to try to communicate with me. He's been practically wasting his time on me. So what better way to make things better than leaving right? This might not seem right to you guys, but I definitely have other reasons for making such a decision. It may not be the right thing to do but I do not regret making such a choice. It's better that way since I don't leaving any loose ends this time round. Of course I know that the door is always open for me to go back. But I just want to start afresh in some Church where no one knows who I am.
This blog seriously needs some pictures..
1 more thing.. Sorry Alex for you know what!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Believe?
Nothing much happened today either. Went to Clementi to collect my lenses in the afternoon. Was supposed to go to SP to play soccer after that but I didn't go cause I was scared that my strain my get worse especially since I'm leaving so soon.
Being raised up in Singapore can either be seen as a damn good thing or a damn bad thing. Personally, I feel it's a bad thing but not a damn bad thing. If you're raised in Singapore then the priority in your life would definitely be education unless you really refuse to care about it. I believe that education is important but I also feel that Singapore over emphasizes on education too much. I feel that it's a bad thing to do that but in actuality it may not be that bad a thing. It has a super low failure rate of degrading our society in the sense that most of the people who are in the society would be really uncivilized. That's not a bad thing but I just feel that too many sacrifices have been made. I mean if someone is really talented in music but is raised in Singapore, he/she will most probably be a degree holder and would get a job in the future playing music only as a part time thing or as a hobby. Whereas if he/she were raised in for example America they would most probably be a full time musician. Can you imagine Taylor Swift having to study like 5 hours a day worrying about how to pass her 'A' Levels? I'll bet she practices singing and guitar like for more than 5 hours a day. Would Messi be where he is today if he had to go through our curriculum? With our system you'll only be able to produce 1 Stephanie Sun out of so many people but look at other countries. I'm not saying education is not important but just that if you're really talented at something you should be able to focus on that talent whereas if you're not really talented then go ahead and study hard. In Singapore do you get such a choice? No.. You (the one reading this) could be really talented at something but you're most probably stuck in a school still trying to work your way for that certificate that you're studying for. Are you truly happy doing what you're doing? But as I said earlier the way Singapore does things is a sure way of making the country progress which is ok in the eyes of many but not that ok in my eyes. You can see this with your own eyes. In America there are so many people talented in singing like all those singers you see. In terms of soccer, Spain, England, Argentina, Portugal all has their own set of stars. In Singapore we got Stephanie Sun (Yay... do you even listen to her?) and in terms of sports we got Lionel Lewis. I won't count the table tennis gals cause they are from a foreign land. Get what I mean?
Being raised up in Singapore can either be seen as a damn good thing or a damn bad thing. Personally, I feel it's a bad thing but not a damn bad thing. If you're raised in Singapore then the priority in your life would definitely be education unless you really refuse to care about it. I believe that education is important but I also feel that Singapore over emphasizes on education too much. I feel that it's a bad thing to do that but in actuality it may not be that bad a thing. It has a super low failure rate of degrading our society in the sense that most of the people who are in the society would be really uncivilized. That's not a bad thing but I just feel that too many sacrifices have been made. I mean if someone is really talented in music but is raised in Singapore, he/she will most probably be a degree holder and would get a job in the future playing music only as a part time thing or as a hobby. Whereas if he/she were raised in for example America they would most probably be a full time musician. Can you imagine Taylor Swift having to study like 5 hours a day worrying about how to pass her 'A' Levels? I'll bet she practices singing and guitar like for more than 5 hours a day. Would Messi be where he is today if he had to go through our curriculum? With our system you'll only be able to produce 1 Stephanie Sun out of so many people but look at other countries. I'm not saying education is not important but just that if you're really talented at something you should be able to focus on that talent whereas if you're not really talented then go ahead and study hard. In Singapore do you get such a choice? No.. You (the one reading this) could be really talented at something but you're most probably stuck in a school still trying to work your way for that certificate that you're studying for. Are you truly happy doing what you're doing? But as I said earlier the way Singapore does things is a sure way of making the country progress which is ok in the eyes of many but not that ok in my eyes. You can see this with your own eyes. In America there are so many people talented in singing like all those singers you see. In terms of soccer, Spain, England, Argentina, Portugal all has their own set of stars. In Singapore we got Stephanie Sun (Yay... do you even listen to her?) and in terms of sports we got Lionel Lewis. I won't count the table tennis gals cause they are from a foreign land. Get what I mean?
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Happy Endings
Nothing much happened again today. Went for physio in the morning. Can you imagine having to spend like 40 minutes a day having to stretch. Really takes up alot of time. Went for soccer in the evening at Anfield but not many people came so it was quite slack. Shucks, cause of Azan now my ear is super pain. Talking after soccer was more fun than playing itself.
Anyway, I'm pretty surprised about the things I say with regards to Christ now. Although most of the time I don't mean it I still say it. Makes me think if deep in my heart I mean all those stuff I said. It's like I don't even know why I say such stuff but it just appears in my head.
... Why did you tell him that I'm leaving... Oh my goodness...
Anyway, I'm pretty surprised about the things I say with regards to Christ now. Although most of the time I don't mean it I still say it. Makes me think if deep in my heart I mean all those stuff I said. It's like I don't even know why I say such stuff but it just appears in my head.
... Why did you tell him that I'm leaving... Oh my goodness...
Monday, December 15, 2008
Breakin'
Nothing much to blog about today but today is like the first time in my life I had acupuncture. Surprisingly it wasn't as painful as I had expected. I'm not really a fan of that kind of thing but it seems to help so I might be doing it again next time.
Met Alden, Alex and Jerome in the evening to catch a movie. I really wanted to watch Twilight but we ended up watching The Day The Earth Stood Still. The show was pretty ok although I wasn't really expecting anything about the environment. Haha. These will be the days that I'll be reminiscing about in Australia. The bus ride back was classic.
Met Alden, Alex and Jerome in the evening to catch a movie. I really wanted to watch Twilight but we ended up watching The Day The Earth Stood Still. The show was pretty ok although I wasn't really expecting anything about the environment. Haha. These will be the days that I'll be reminiscing about in Australia. The bus ride back was classic.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Running out of days
I went church today, but you can say that I didn't listen at all. The whole while I was talking to my friends or listening to music which is kind of rude to the speaker. I was pretty distracted today.
You know on the cab ride there I had a decent conversation with the taxi driver. I could really relate to him about the affairs going on in my home and he really shared quite alot with me too although at first he lied about some stuff. When I asked if he was married he was like yes and I found out he had a child who is a 17 year old guy. Then he was talking about how his son wants to go overseas to study but he had not enough money to send. Then we were talking about God and he told me how he became a Christian. He started by saying sorry I lied to you. Then he went on to tell me that his son passed away and he still has a daughter. The shit that I go through in life is nothing compared to what he is going through and I keep complaining. Thank God that the man and his family turned to Christ but look what I'm doing, my life is going on great and all I do is keep turning away.
Anyway after that Kenneth, Timothy, Tai Li and I went to Orchard. I finally got my iPod gmasked so I don't have to use the silicon case and sleeve already. After that we went to Yamaha and I finally got my guitar strap and some strings. Got a capo from Paradiz Centre too. They totally revamped the place already so now 1 part of it looks nicer. After that we bought alot of crap from Cold Storage. It's been a really long time since I met them so it was great catching up with them. I've known the since primary 5 and we've really gone through alot together. Went to JC's house after that for awhile.
You know I dare say less than 5 people know who I really am. I shall save this part for when I'm in Australia if I remember about it in the future. Anyway, I hope Chelsea wins West Ham later so they'll be on top. I'm not a Chelsea fan by the way. See ya soon!
You know on the cab ride there I had a decent conversation with the taxi driver. I could really relate to him about the affairs going on in my home and he really shared quite alot with me too although at first he lied about some stuff. When I asked if he was married he was like yes and I found out he had a child who is a 17 year old guy. Then he was talking about how his son wants to go overseas to study but he had not enough money to send. Then we were talking about God and he told me how he became a Christian. He started by saying sorry I lied to you. Then he went on to tell me that his son passed away and he still has a daughter. The shit that I go through in life is nothing compared to what he is going through and I keep complaining. Thank God that the man and his family turned to Christ but look what I'm doing, my life is going on great and all I do is keep turning away.
Anyway after that Kenneth, Timothy, Tai Li and I went to Orchard. I finally got my iPod gmasked so I don't have to use the silicon case and sleeve already. After that we went to Yamaha and I finally got my guitar strap and some strings. Got a capo from Paradiz Centre too. They totally revamped the place already so now 1 part of it looks nicer. After that we bought alot of crap from Cold Storage. It's been a really long time since I met them so it was great catching up with them. I've known the since primary 5 and we've really gone through alot together. Went to JC's house after that for awhile.
You know I dare say less than 5 people know who I really am. I shall save this part for when I'm in Australia if I remember about it in the future. Anyway, I hope Chelsea wins West Ham later so they'll be on top. I'm not a Chelsea fan by the way. See ya soon!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
All in the mind
Ahh.. Soccer today was so crappy for me.. Don't feeling like blogging about it..
I'm leaving for Australia in 11 days time! That's super soon. It still doesn't feel real that I'm leaving. My family would be going there for holiday for 1 week plus so I'll still have them but what will life be like when I'm there alone? Will I feel scared? It's always nice to know you have a home but I'll be so many miles away from home so how would I feel. Almost everything I hold dear to me is in Singapore so the thought that I'll be away from all this is quite insane. I guess I'll just find out over there. But when I'm there I really have to make it a point to study as hard as I can or I'll be wasting my mum's money. I know it's not going to be easy but I'll try my best. You know what I wish? I wish that after some of my friends graduate from poly that they'll be able to go Australia to study too. It's pretty impossible though but I do hope it happens. So many questions, so few answers.
I'm leaving for Australia in 11 days time! That's super soon. It still doesn't feel real that I'm leaving. My family would be going there for holiday for 1 week plus so I'll still have them but what will life be like when I'm there alone? Will I feel scared? It's always nice to know you have a home but I'll be so many miles away from home so how would I feel. Almost everything I hold dear to me is in Singapore so the thought that I'll be away from all this is quite insane. I guess I'll just find out over there. But when I'm there I really have to make it a point to study as hard as I can or I'll be wasting my mum's money. I know it's not going to be easy but I'll try my best. You know what I wish? I wish that after some of my friends graduate from poly that they'll be able to go Australia to study too. It's pretty impossible though but I do hope it happens. So many questions, so few answers.
God is real
Today was a great day. Had to go for physio in the morning. I just hope my injury gets better.
Did nothing till evening then was supposed to go meet Alex they all at Newton MRT at like 5.30pm but they came late.. I'm always the one waiting for people to arrive cause I always try my best to arrive on time. Anyway, the event was great! I had alot of fun eventually. It was an EYE OPENER! Haha! All the people singing are so talented. Sometimes I wish God would bless me with such talents. Anyway the message by the man today didn't really speak much to me. It was basically just reinforcement of what I already know about God.
I know God is real but somehow I just choose to ignore that fact. It's so stupid but that's what I've been doing the entire while. I'm just denying the presence of God and living the kind of life that I want to live which is really foolish. Initially I felt bad about it but as time passed by I guess I just started getting used to it and it became a norm.
Anyway yesterday was quite good too. Met Jerome in the evening and we went for supper. Had a really good talk with each other till pretty late. He's been my friend for like 11 years already and he's like a brother to me. Thank God for you.
The idea of living in Australia on my own is pretty exciting and scary. I'll blog about how I feel about that tomorrow.
Did nothing till evening then was supposed to go meet Alex they all at Newton MRT at like 5.30pm but they came late.. I'm always the one waiting for people to arrive cause I always try my best to arrive on time. Anyway, the event was great! I had alot of fun eventually. It was an EYE OPENER! Haha! All the people singing are so talented. Sometimes I wish God would bless me with such talents. Anyway the message by the man today didn't really speak much to me. It was basically just reinforcement of what I already know about God.
I know God is real but somehow I just choose to ignore that fact. It's so stupid but that's what I've been doing the entire while. I'm just denying the presence of God and living the kind of life that I want to live which is really foolish. Initially I felt bad about it but as time passed by I guess I just started getting used to it and it became a norm.
Anyway yesterday was quite good too. Met Jerome in the evening and we went for supper. Had a really good talk with each other till pretty late. He's been my friend for like 11 years already and he's like a brother to me. Thank God for you.
The idea of living in Australia on my own is pretty exciting and scary. I'll blog about how I feel about that tomorrow.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
201
Today I was at home the entire day but I dare say that it's one day I'll never forget. Alex, thanks for helping me with everything! You're really a great friend, someone I know I can count on ALMOST all the time. Haha! Yea, so I like took 1 hour + to write it and I'll send it off tomorrow but first I gotta buy a stamp! Good night world.
And damn, feel free to check out the archives for loads of crap! (:
And damn, feel free to check out the archives for loads of crap! (:
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Where are you
Ok, I shall blog about yesterday. So I basically got my new nano yesterday. It looks super nice but too bad the capacity is really small. It was really tough contemplating which I should buy. So in the end I decided to get this.
This part is for Alden and Alex. Yes yes, it's orange ok.. but I don't like orange for the reasons you think I do! It's just a nice bright colour!!
Then in the evening Jerome and I went to play pool with his uncle and cousin. Before that we went to Botak Jones to eat. You can never get sick of the food there. I wonder if the food in Australia would be like that. I lost every single match I played in pool. My concentration sucked and I really just suck at that game. But it was fun. Both the uncle and cousin are pro but the cousin is insanely good. He is those competition players. But yesterday Jerome won him so what does that make Jerome?? Anyway, after that he came over and just talked and played dota with the rest.
For me songs always cause me to feel the way the song is. Like, if I listen to some sad emo chinese song I would start to feel abit down and if I listen to Christian songs which I haven't been listening too for a long long time I feel at peace like nothing can knock me down. My walk with God has been on a downward spiral since secondary 3 and it's never showed much signs of improving since. It's not that I don't want to go back to church but I really don't know why I always go. I keep telling myself I'll change but I don't. The thing is I know that God will always be there waiting but I keep feeling like he's not around..
This part is for Alden and Alex. Yes yes, it's orange ok.. but I don't like orange for the reasons you think I do! It's just a nice bright colour!!
Then in the evening Jerome and I went to play pool with his uncle and cousin. Before that we went to Botak Jones to eat. You can never get sick of the food there. I wonder if the food in Australia would be like that. I lost every single match I played in pool. My concentration sucked and I really just suck at that game. But it was fun. Both the uncle and cousin are pro but the cousin is insanely good. He is those competition players. But yesterday Jerome won him so what does that make Jerome?? Anyway, after that he came over and just talked and played dota with the rest.
For me songs always cause me to feel the way the song is. Like, if I listen to some sad emo chinese song I would start to feel abit down and if I listen to Christian songs which I haven't been listening too for a long long time I feel at peace like nothing can knock me down. My walk with God has been on a downward spiral since secondary 3 and it's never showed much signs of improving since. It's not that I don't want to go back to church but I really don't know why I always go. I keep telling myself I'll change but I don't. The thing is I know that God will always be there waiting but I keep feeling like he's not around..
Monday, December 08, 2008
Honesty..
I feel that I should make my blog as honest as I possibly can cause to me that's what makes blogging fun and interesting for you guys to read.
I dreamt of something super random yesterday. You know Amy from Fairfield?? Ya, I dreamt of her! It was really really random. If I remember correctly she told me that she dreamt that I died before. Haha. I really have no idea how I dream of such random stuff.
Anyway, I'm going to bring a camera whenever I go out to snap some pictures. Of course not SLR like Jerome that kind but some other lousier camera. Went out with my uncle, auntie and my grandma for lunch with my family. We went to some place near Outram? The food there is not bad and if I had my camera I definitely would have snapped some shots.
After that was soccer at Telok Blangah. I still remember during secondary 3 we would always go there. Those were the days.. Last time it was always the 4a and 4c people going there to play. Today was a great day for me thanks to Alden, Jerome and Wesley. Their service was super super good and thanks for such great service! Haha! Wow, I never enjoyed soccer so much for such a long time already. In terms of soccer this year has been very bad for me cause I've been hampered by this groin injury which is still there. Apparently the injury is linked to my abdominal muscles which is quite weird. Soccer was seriously seriously fun for me except for the part where Alex tried to kill me. =]
Went to Jerome's house after that to pass back to him his soccer ball. We really talked alot today and I must admit that we have really drifted alot from last time. Anyway, really great catching up with you! =]
That's all for today I guess.
I dreamt of something super random yesterday. You know Amy from Fairfield?? Ya, I dreamt of her! It was really really random. If I remember correctly she told me that she dreamt that I died before. Haha. I really have no idea how I dream of such random stuff.
Anyway, I'm going to bring a camera whenever I go out to snap some pictures. Of course not SLR like Jerome that kind but some other lousier camera. Went out with my uncle, auntie and my grandma for lunch with my family. We went to some place near Outram? The food there is not bad and if I had my camera I definitely would have snapped some shots.
After that was soccer at Telok Blangah. I still remember during secondary 3 we would always go there. Those were the days.. Last time it was always the 4a and 4c people going there to play. Today was a great day for me thanks to Alden, Jerome and Wesley. Their service was super super good and thanks for such great service! Haha! Wow, I never enjoyed soccer so much for such a long time already. In terms of soccer this year has been very bad for me cause I've been hampered by this groin injury which is still there. Apparently the injury is linked to my abdominal muscles which is quite weird. Soccer was seriously seriously fun for me except for the part where Alex tried to kill me. =]
Went to Jerome's house after that to pass back to him his soccer ball. We really talked alot today and I must admit that we have really drifted alot from last time. Anyway, really great catching up with you! =]
That's all for today I guess.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Orange Sky
Today was another meaningful day. In the late morning went out with my mum and Trevor. Went to Tiong Baruh Plaza to get some stationary for Australia and some books as well. Had lunch at Sakae Sushi. I also got a new wallet today. I think we accidentally met one of my aunties there. The lesser time I get to spend with someone the more enjoyable it is for me which is quite a sad thing. This means that while I still have time with someone I tend not to appreciate them to their fullest which kind of sucks. Anyway I've decided to get a new iPod already. The question is whether to get the classic or the nano. Haha, the tough choices we have to make in life..
Anyway brought my brother down in the evening for him to skate his scooter. It was a fun and revealing experience for me. It was like every time he nearly feel I could literally feel my heart skip a beat and feeling so worried for that moment. Never knew I felt that way about my brother. It was really really a great time of bonding for us cause we hardly spend time with each other on normal days. We played soccer with some of the neighbors too. I think he wants to play as a DM cause he is like I am an offensive defender. Haha!
Jerome.. I'm not emo, I was just kidding and you're the rock star!
Anyway brought my brother down in the evening for him to skate his scooter. It was a fun and revealing experience for me. It was like every time he nearly feel I could literally feel my heart skip a beat and feeling so worried for that moment. Never knew I felt that way about my brother. It was really really a great time of bonding for us cause we hardly spend time with each other on normal days. We played soccer with some of the neighbors too. I think he wants to play as a DM cause he is like I am an offensive defender. Haha!
Jerome.. I'm not emo, I was just kidding and you're the rock star!
...
Went for some massage thing for my leg in the afternoon with my mum. It was super painful the way the man massaged but it was good.
Wow, today was loads of fun. We played soccer at the ACS field which was good to play on and the rain was good too. It's not the normal kind of heavy downpour but more of the short shower that kind so it was very cooling. Soccer was fun but the offside stuff were super funny. I really shouldn't have played but I really just can't help myself. After that we went for dinner and I ate alot. We all ate alot actually. Most of us had second servings. Let's see.. Daniel, Alden, Alex, Yong Soo, Kenneth, Bing Hui, Heng Guang, Greggory, Deric, Mok, Cousin and some church guy? Is that all?
Haha, so tired right now..
Wow, today was loads of fun. We played soccer at the ACS field which was good to play on and the rain was good too. It's not the normal kind of heavy downpour but more of the short shower that kind so it was very cooling. Soccer was fun but the offside stuff were super funny. I really shouldn't have played but I really just can't help myself. After that we went for dinner and I ate alot. We all ate alot actually. Most of us had second servings. Let's see.. Daniel, Alden, Alex, Yong Soo, Kenneth, Bing Hui, Heng Guang, Greggory, Deric, Mok, Cousin and some church guy? Is that all?
Haha, so tired right now..
Friday, December 05, 2008
17 things you don't know about me
1) Alden backstabbed me in sec 2 over a girl.. WTH right?
2) I trust people too easily
3) I cry damn easily if you know how to make me cry
4) I'm not into bgr or that kind of thing already and is seriously considering celibacy as an option in life (not messing)
5) I have some doubts about God right now but I still am trying to believe and go back to Him
6) All I wanna hear in a song is the acoustic guitar and a good voice, the others are extras
7) God has given me signs that I'll be alone in life
8) I just got my credit card yesterday..
9) I'm leaving Singapore to study overseas real soon
10) I got super short hair right now
11) I choose fifa over winning eleven ever since playing fifa 09
12) I like beef, chicken then fish
13) I play the guitar but I suck at it
14) I regret going poly and should have listened to those who told me to go JC from the start
15) I can't stand arrogant people but I still accept them and act like they're ok
16) I am super super super flawed in so so so many ways (quite duh actually)
17) I hate starhub..
2) I trust people too easily
3) I cry damn easily if you know how to make me cry
4) I'm not into bgr or that kind of thing already and is seriously considering celibacy as an option in life (not messing)
5) I have some doubts about God right now but I still am trying to believe and go back to Him
6) All I wanna hear in a song is the acoustic guitar and a good voice, the others are extras
7) God has given me signs that I'll be alone in life
8) I just got my credit card yesterday..
9) I'm leaving Singapore to study overseas real soon
10) I got super short hair right now
11) I choose fifa over winning eleven ever since playing fifa 09
12) I like beef, chicken then fish
13) I play the guitar but I suck at it
14) I regret going poly and should have listened to those who told me to go JC from the start
15) I can't stand arrogant people but I still accept them and act like they're ok
16) I am super super super flawed in so so so many ways (quite duh actually)
17) I hate starhub..
Thursday, December 04, 2008
11 points about today
Ok, I'm just gonna blog about today in point form. Feeling pretty tired right now.
1) Met Alden and Joel to study at NP
2) We went Dailyscoops with Alex after that
3) Soccer till like 9+
4) Alden is a jackass for spearing me at THAT area
5) Daniel gave me a shirt as a goodbye present
6) Alex is those kind of people who don't wish you on your birthday
7) My Garena can finally work after tweaking some of the settings
8) Cleared up quite alot of misunderstandings with someone
9) Alden sucks! Totally kidding
10) I need to make another appointment to check my groin injury out and another therapy appointment as well
11) All I need is God (This list is not ranked in order of importance)
1) Met Alden and Joel to study at NP
2) We went Dailyscoops with Alex after that
3) Soccer till like 9+
4) Alden is a jackass for spearing me at THAT area
5) Daniel gave me a shirt as a goodbye present
6) Alex is those kind of people who don't wish you on your birthday
7) My Garena can finally work after tweaking some of the settings
8) Cleared up quite alot of misunderstandings with someone
9) Alden sucks! Totally kidding
10) I need to make another appointment to check my groin injury out and another therapy appointment as well
11) All I need is God (This list is not ranked in order of importance)
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Monday, December 01, 2008
How to save my life
1) Try to get myself back to church
2) Get my parents to get a divorce (I know it sounds super immature of me but everyone will be better off which includes my mum, brother, i and all extended relatives whom can't stand that prick)
3) Get my groin to heal so that I can play soccer properly again
4) Get my attitude prepared for studies
2) Get my parents to get a divorce (I know it sounds super immature of me but everyone will be better off which includes my mum, brother, i and all extended relatives whom can't stand that prick)
3) Get my groin to heal so that I can play soccer properly again
4) Get my attitude prepared for studies
Don't stay together for the kids
I hate my father! And it's not because he laid some curfew, scolded me or what I just hate the way he drags everyone around down with him. I kept convincing myself awhile back that I've stopped hating him but now I know it's not something that I'll be able to just let go in a long time. Who knows, I may never even be able to let it go. Whenever I think about all he has done it really makes my blood boil. Sometimes which is most of the time, I just wish that he would disappear. I know I definitely would be sad but at the same time it would just be for the better for the entire family.
Anyway, my grandma sort of went missing today. It was like 11am then my mum, brother and I were supposed to meet the extended family for some gathering but my auntie called to say my grandma was not at home. So my family and I went over and tried to look for her. Like after an hour plus of searching we finally found her at some stall at Tiong Baruh Market waiting for one of my other uncles to fetch her back after he closes his stall. This uncle owns some stall there. I did something bad to one of my aunties today. Went I went to her house she liked asked me why is your hair so long. So I saw that her eyes were red and immediately said why is your eyes so red. I figured that she was crying because my grandma was missing. She's really one funny joker. She's the kind of person who always lives life with regrets and I'm quite sure she knows that she hasn't been treating my grandma well even though she might not admit it. Wasn't I just an ass to do that. I sort of did that on impulse because everytime I meet her the first thing she ask is my hair. Is my hair the only conversation starter?
After that we went to Bugis for lunch and went back home. My mum hasn't been feeling well recently and if you know her, please pray for her? Thanks.
Anyway, my grandma sort of went missing today. It was like 11am then my mum, brother and I were supposed to meet the extended family for some gathering but my auntie called to say my grandma was not at home. So my family and I went over and tried to look for her. Like after an hour plus of searching we finally found her at some stall at Tiong Baruh Market waiting for one of my other uncles to fetch her back after he closes his stall. This uncle owns some stall there. I did something bad to one of my aunties today. Went I went to her house she liked asked me why is your hair so long. So I saw that her eyes were red and immediately said why is your eyes so red. I figured that she was crying because my grandma was missing. She's really one funny joker. She's the kind of person who always lives life with regrets and I'm quite sure she knows that she hasn't been treating my grandma well even though she might not admit it. Wasn't I just an ass to do that. I sort of did that on impulse because everytime I meet her the first thing she ask is my hair. Is my hair the only conversation starter?
After that we went to Bugis for lunch and went back home. My mum hasn't been feeling well recently and if you know her, please pray for her? Thanks.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
I hate this song
You know there are those days where you just feel utterly depressed and just feel like rotting away at home? Today was one of those days for me. I don't know why I'm feeling like this? Maybe cause of the stupid guilt I feel for hurting someone, or maybe it's due to the fact that I'm leaving Singapore in less than a month? It just doesn't seem real to me that I'm leaving so soon. Yea, I guess that the fact hasn't sunk into my head.
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there,
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in their hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own,
And everyone wants to know the night alone,
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there,
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares,
Someone to love with my life in their hands,
There's gotta be somebody for me like that,
Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own,
And everyone wants to know the night alone,
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere,
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Vulnerable
So my right eye is like swollen cause of some mosquito crap. Last night I got alot of mosquito bites while sleeping. Next time it rains, I must remember to close the windows.
So today, I met Alden and Grace at Dailyscoops. How do I describe it.........
So today, I met Alden and Grace at Dailyscoops. How do I describe it.........
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Forever
Well, yesterday was fun. Wen Zhao stayed over. He's been my friend since P5 so we always meet up during each holidays. I had lots of fun. Wen Zhao is like this friend who is from one entire different part of my life. It's really really cool to have this kind of friend. He is like this friend where I can tell him everything so easily. Hey, Alden, Alex and Jerome you are really great friends too! =]
He is the only friend whom I really enjoy playing computer games with. All my close friends are like non-gamers which sometimes really isn't too good. So we played Red Alert 3 (Red Alert 2 made us close in P6), Tekken, Guitar Hero. The fun part was Warcraft. We Dotaed with like my brother and his friends. So it was 2v4 and we owned them all. Really felt bad owning small kids in Dota. Seriously, it really feels bad to kill them. But it was real funny though. I think you can imagine? We went to Botak Jones for dinner and it was really great catching up with him.
With regards to my earlier post, I really love my brother and sorry for the profanities!
He is the only friend whom I really enjoy playing computer games with. All my close friends are like non-gamers which sometimes really isn't too good. So we played Red Alert 3 (Red Alert 2 made us close in P6), Tekken, Guitar Hero. The fun part was Warcraft. We Dotaed with like my brother and his friends. So it was 2v4 and we owned them all. Really felt bad owning small kids in Dota. Seriously, it really feels bad to kill them. But it was real funny though. I think you can imagine? We went to Botak Jones for dinner and it was really great catching up with him.
With regards to my earlier post, I really love my brother and sorry for the profanities!
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I hate to say this but I've got one fucking unreasonable brother. His is just fucking unreasonable. Seriously, fucking unreasonable. If you should just observe him in his natural habitat for one day, you'll notice him calling my maid 'bitch', 'fucker', 'fucking bitch' and all other sorts of profanities. It's not a one time thing and it's more of a more than 20 times per day kind of thing. He keeps saying he has no friends and I wonder why? He talks on the phone to his friend and I just can't help but observe his stupid pettiness and he gets jealous so easily and if he is not happy he just scolds fuck like nothing. He's only 11 years old and he's like that. He should just learn this simple fact of life 'Don't do to others what you don't want others to do'. Sadly, I don't think he will be getting it in the near future. He can just go around judging everyone the whole day for things they never do and just get pissed over nothing. You can just ask my aunties and uncles. His mood swings are crazy, worse than a girl and really it's impossible to tell him about his wrong doings simply because he won't accept it and he will give you that typical black face and act like he's not in the wrong and that the fact that you told him off means you're in the wrong. He is seriously spoilt to the core. I'm just so disappointed/irritated with him. Today, he was playing some game with his friend then he started scolding his friend son of a bitch and stuff like that cause of some minor problem. All I did was told him you shouldn't do that and explain to him why shouldn't he in a non screaming manner and he justs refuses to reply you. He should just get rid of his stupid pride. Like father like son, he always says my character is as asshole like as my father (which I am but in a tiny way, I admit) but he really can't see himself for who he is. His self-awareness is really like crap. Ok, I may have been the one who introduced him the 'f' word but look at him now. I seriously can't imagine him growing out of this phase. Right now I can imagine him being like this for his whole life. The good times with him are great but it always seems so short. You can never cross him and get out of it feeling at ease. You just tell him one fault of him and it's immediately your fault. I have a part to blame in who he is today but so has my mom's constantly spoiling of him and my father's negligence in his life. I guess my part to blame lies in the fact that I introduced him the 'f' word and that my behavior in my younger days were pretty unreasonable at times but I am sure I was never like him. There's no way for me to help him to learn and I guess it's up to my parents to straighten him out.
Ok, don't mind the profanities but I'm just pretty irritated.
Ok, don't mind the profanities but I'm just pretty irritated.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
With You
I wished God blessed me to be good at something I want to be. In other words I wish I would be blessed with a talent? I won't say what it is here but I told someone about it.
The past few days have been great. Yesterday went with Alden to Daily Scoops. It was good, haven't been there for so long already. The ice cream there is so so nice. After that went to Cold Storage to get beef jerky. Another great snack to munch on. After that he came over then we went to Jerome's place to more of talk instead of 'jam'. Anyway it was great catching up with Alden.
Today was soccer downstairs with Jerome and his family with Alden and Sheng Wei. After that it was supposed to be a movie but one of Jerome's cousins lost his EZ-Link so we didn't watch. I still had fun. Jerome and family left early so we went to Coffee Bean to hang out. I think I always say this but it's really great talking to all of them. I had fever just now, but now it's better I think.
The past few days have been great. Yesterday went with Alden to Daily Scoops. It was good, haven't been there for so long already. The ice cream there is so so nice. After that went to Cold Storage to get beef jerky. Another great snack to munch on. After that he came over then we went to Jerome's place to more of talk instead of 'jam'. Anyway it was great catching up with Alden.
Today was soccer downstairs with Jerome and his family with Alden and Sheng Wei. After that it was supposed to be a movie but one of Jerome's cousins lost his EZ-Link so we didn't watch. I still had fun. Jerome and family left early so we went to Coffee Bean to hang out. I think I always say this but it's really great talking to all of them. I had fever just now, but now it's better I think.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Fever..
Oh dear.. I'm like having a fever right now. Still deciding if I should go out for the movie later. It's like 38.3 degrees..
I'm gonna blog about the past few days later.
I'm gonna blog about the past few days later.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Broken
Ok, basically I really want to grow closer to my brother. I mean he's one person I've never really been close to and when I see him sometimes I just can't believe that he's my brother. Really if there's one thing I would redo in my life it would be my relationship with him. Let's just say I wasn't the best brother to him and neither was he to me. Too bad I'm like 17 and he's like 11 this year so it's sort of hard to grow closer already. Sometimes I try to talk to him but most of the time he just pushes me away. Quite sad actually..
Anyway Alex came at night. Had fun talking and just slacking. He came to take stuff and return me stuff too. Great hanging out with him. Let's see we talked about girls, Heroes, the past, life, soccer, abit of God, and the list can go on and on. Have fun in Perth!!
Anyway Alex came at night. Had fun talking and just slacking. He came to take stuff and return me stuff too. Great hanging out with him. Let's see we talked about girls, Heroes, the past, life, soccer, abit of God, and the list can go on and on. Have fun in Perth!!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
That Song
When I meet the 'one', I'm gonna write a song if I can? Sounds cheesy.. Oh well, Heroes is starting to get REALLY interesting. Seriously very interesting already. For the sake of those who haven't watched it yet I won't spoil. Can't wait for the next episode.
So today I didn't go church but I watched last weeks service online so I guess it's not as bad? The service last week was really good. I should have gone. My brother's really selfish. Urgh! Nothing much happened today? I'm like using one hand to type cause I'm icing my head..
So today I didn't go church but I watched last weeks service online so I guess it's not as bad? The service last week was really good. I should have gone. My brother's really selfish. Urgh! Nothing much happened today? I'm like using one hand to type cause I'm icing my head..
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Love Story
My new favorite song for now Love Story. It's really really nice.
Today, was my cell leader's or ex cell leader's wedding which sadly I didn't go cause I had to send my brother for tuition. Lame excuse right?? So I like sent my brother for tuition and fell asleep there while waiting for him there. Read some Christian papers which I printed about healing and faith. God will heal me, I know.
My brother got a 360 today cause his results were not bad! He's becoming smart and I'm happy for him. Yesterday, played guitar with Jerome. Oh my goodness, he's super good now.
Today, was my cell leader's or ex cell leader's wedding which sadly I didn't go cause I had to send my brother for tuition. Lame excuse right?? So I like sent my brother for tuition and fell asleep there while waiting for him there. Read some Christian papers which I printed about healing and faith. God will heal me, I know.
My brother got a 360 today cause his results were not bad! He's becoming smart and I'm happy for him. Yesterday, played guitar with Jerome. Oh my goodness, he's super good now.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Goose Eggs
Ouch.. Yesterday I slipped and hit the back of my head against the floor. It's like super painful now and there is one big 'baluku' there now. That's the only highlight of yesterday..
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Boring...
"Messi has claimed that either Xavi or Sergio Kun Aguero should take the award from the 30-man shortlist, while Ronaldo has plumped for himself as the most deserving nominee." What the heck right? Who do you think will win it?
Anyway, today was pretty boring. I don't know why but I keep getting headaches these days. So I napped. I think the most prominent thing that happened to me today was nothing.. Can't exactly remember.
Also, I don't think I will be opening my blog yet.. Don't feel like anymore. Like typing to the public seriously sucks.
Anyway, today was pretty boring. I don't know why but I keep getting headaches these days. So I napped. I think the most prominent thing that happened to me today was nothing.. Can't exactly remember.
Also, I don't think I will be opening my blog yet.. Don't feel like anymore. Like typing to the public seriously sucks.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Hello world!
Ok, so I finally unlocked my blog. There are a few reasons why I unlocked it.
1) I'm leaving for Australia on the 24th December and I wanna keep you guys updated on my life there.
2) Ok, actually there is no 2?? I'm just following my instincts.
So basically this blog has been open since like 2005 or something like that?? Haha! Amazing how long I kept it closed right. Initally it wasn't locked though. Err so yea, enjoy your time here. =]
1) I'm leaving for Australia on the 24th December and I wanna keep you guys updated on my life there.
2) Ok, actually there is no 2?? I'm just following my instincts.
So basically this blog has been open since like 2005 or something like that?? Haha! Amazing how long I kept it closed right. Initally it wasn't locked though. Err so yea, enjoy your time here. =]
LOL
I've got something I wanna say. I've got this friend, let's just call this friend LOL. Wow, I'm really touched by LOL. LOL gave me an Arsenal jersey for my birthday which is great and I really like it alot. The thing is LOL won't even get a jersey for LOL because LOL finds it expensive. LOL was willing to get one for me! I'm so so thankful for LOL. Words can't describe how I feel. You may or may not read this LOL but really thanks alot. You've showed me what unselfishness is and I really thank God for you. LOL, I guess sometimes I really take you for granted for what a great friend you are and I really love you, as a friend of course! =] Thanks alot for your companionship and I can't thank God enough for you.
Today was a fun day and I know it's going to make it alot harder when I leave for Australia. Met Alden, Alex and Leroy at Dover MRT and we went to some Japanese place at Jurong Point to it. The food there was fantastic! Japanese buffet and not the Sakae kind. It's real Japanese food with great quality. Window shopped after that at Jurong Point. I saw this sleek Hi-Fi Set and I really feel like getting it man!! Back to the food, Sashimi and all the Japanese food you can think of. It's like paradise for ALEX! Went to Alden's house after that to chill. It was great. We played the guitar, piano and with a guinea pig. I never imagined myself playing soccer today but oh well, life has it's surprises so we went to Anfield for soccer and here I am now blogging.
Seeya!
Today was a fun day and I know it's going to make it alot harder when I leave for Australia. Met Alden, Alex and Leroy at Dover MRT and we went to some Japanese place at Jurong Point to it. The food there was fantastic! Japanese buffet and not the Sakae kind. It's real Japanese food with great quality. Window shopped after that at Jurong Point. I saw this sleek Hi-Fi Set and I really feel like getting it man!! Back to the food, Sashimi and all the Japanese food you can think of. It's like paradise for ALEX! Went to Alden's house after that to chill. It was great. We played the guitar, piano and with a guinea pig. I never imagined myself playing soccer today but oh well, life has it's surprises so we went to Anfield for soccer and here I am now blogging.
Seeya!
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Just another day
Sometimes I just wish I don't know when my birthday is so I'll be surprised or something. To be honest, on all birthdays I don't expect all my contacts on my phone to be like Happy Birthday! I don't expect my good friends to send me birthday wishes but I know they will and thank God that all my close friends wished me. It means alot to me. Thanks guys!
See, my birthdays has always been like this especially if it's on a weekend. From morning to evening do my stuff and at night go for dinner at some posh place. No exception this year. I wish my birthdays were like my friends and family coming over to my place and we order pizza and just hang out.
I'll be honest again. I've collected $850 in red packet money and really thank God for that but sometimes I really wish that my family just gave me presents. Like even if it's just a soccer ball, a pair of sneakers, shirts? Or anything at all I would appreciate it so much more but all year all I get is cash cash and more cash!
To end of the day I had a big quarrel with my mum. What a way to end the day.
See, my birthdays has always been like this especially if it's on a weekend. From morning to evening do my stuff and at night go for dinner at some posh place. No exception this year. I wish my birthdays were like my friends and family coming over to my place and we order pizza and just hang out.
I'll be honest again. I've collected $850 in red packet money and really thank God for that but sometimes I really wish that my family just gave me presents. Like even if it's just a soccer ball, a pair of sneakers, shirts? Or anything at all I would appreciate it so much more but all year all I get is cash cash and more cash!
To end of the day I had a big quarrel with my mum. What a way to end the day.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
She is Love
You know what made my night? Arsenal winning Man U 2-1!! Wow, I was expecting Arsenal to lose but well. Not like I support them though.
Soccer at the field just now. My soccer really sucks especially my first touch on the field. It's like what the heck?? Man!! I bought my luggage today.
I really can't wait to leave. It's going to be a new chapter in my life for me to write!
Soccer at the field just now. My soccer really sucks especially my first touch on the field. It's like what the heck?? Man!! I bought my luggage today.
I really can't wait to leave. It's going to be a new chapter in my life for me to write!
Realize
I just realized how much my mind has changed over the past few months. I mean big exposure to the media has sort of changed my mind that pre-marital sex is okay which obviously is not. The media has made me think that a relationship is supposed to be based on trust and other things but there must be sex inside. I didn't even realize that's how I thought until today. In truth, for a relationship to truly succeed, it must be based and built on God. With God as a foundation on a relationship it can withstand anything. Of course I know what the right standards are now and they are of course God's standards.
All this makes me wonder of how many relationships that I have with others are truly based on God? 0!! Never really noticed that before. I'm not saying a relationship without God wouldn't be fruitful, it just won't be that fulfilling or lasting.
About my earlier post about why doesn't God heal me. I've come to realize that it just means that it's not his will. The healing may or may never come and I'm prepared for it. I read this somewhere, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you can tell the mountain to move from here to there. This is said in the bible right? But we don't see mountains flying around moving here and there do we? This is simply because it's not God's will. So now I know that my faith isn't the thing blocking out the healing. It's almost impossible not to have even a bit of faith in all you do. To many people including myself faith is believing that something will happen. But to me faith also means hoping for the best in a situation which to many is not faith but to me it is. As I was saying, it's impossible to not have faith so the only thing blocking out the healing is God's own will which is not a bad thing but a good thing in the big picture.
Made of Honor is real nice!! Damn, I've just got this thing for romantic comedies! Today's post is full of honesty, for a change. Seeya! =]
AND THANKS GOD FOR HEALING MY WRIST!! =]=]=] XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXO
All this makes me wonder of how many relationships that I have with others are truly based on God? 0!! Never really noticed that before. I'm not saying a relationship without God wouldn't be fruitful, it just won't be that fulfilling or lasting.
About my earlier post about why doesn't God heal me. I've come to realize that it just means that it's not his will. The healing may or may never come and I'm prepared for it. I read this somewhere, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you can tell the mountain to move from here to there. This is said in the bible right? But we don't see mountains flying around moving here and there do we? This is simply because it's not God's will. So now I know that my faith isn't the thing blocking out the healing. It's almost impossible not to have even a bit of faith in all you do. To many people including myself faith is believing that something will happen. But to me faith also means hoping for the best in a situation which to many is not faith but to me it is. As I was saying, it's impossible to not have faith so the only thing blocking out the healing is God's own will which is not a bad thing but a good thing in the big picture.
Made of Honor is real nice!! Damn, I've just got this thing for romantic comedies! Today's post is full of honesty, for a change. Seeya! =]
AND THANKS GOD FOR HEALING MY WRIST!! =]=]=] XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXO
Friday, November 07, 2008
Healer??
You know I've got so many injuries/conditions that are really affecting me. If I'm not wrong there are at least 4 major problems I want healing for. I've been praying for sometime now but nothing seems to be happening. I know God is real but nothing seems to be happening and all this seems to be affecting my faith that there is a God up there. I know there is a God but my belief in it seems to be dwindling.
On a lighter note, life seems much more carefree now.
On a lighter note, life seems much more carefree now.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
So Much Time
Figured that it's time for me to update. Wow, sometimes you think you've accepted a fact and when it comes closer to you, you just realize like what the?? And it suddenly feels so real.
Reason of absence this past few weeks is partially because of laziness but partially also because I was busy on almost every night so blogging became less of a priority.
Today, I'm officially no longer a NP student. Wow, I mean I submitted my form and everything today and surrendered my card. Bye Ngee Ann. Who knows, maybe one day I'll crash your lecture. I must say, Business and Engineering are worlds apart. The people there are totally different, totally opposite and I'm thankful for that experience. I mean, I always knew that there were such people but I didn't imagine them to be so close. I feel so free now because I know I don't have to drag myself to school the next day, figure out which class to cut or go and buy MCs.
Well, the past few days have been more meaningful then the past 2 weeks added up. I remember playing soccer on Saturday, patching up with my mum, helping someone financially, enjoying classes for once. I like engineering modules but I just hate classes in general.
You know it hurts whenever I smile because it's so hard to smile.
Because my lips have been so dry recently cause of some dumb medicine. So when I smile it really hurts quite badly. HAHA! Now, I've got so much time to do the stuff that really matters to me.
I'll update more frequently.
Reason of absence this past few weeks is partially because of laziness but partially also because I was busy on almost every night so blogging became less of a priority.
Today, I'm officially no longer a NP student. Wow, I mean I submitted my form and everything today and surrendered my card. Bye Ngee Ann. Who knows, maybe one day I'll crash your lecture. I must say, Business and Engineering are worlds apart. The people there are totally different, totally opposite and I'm thankful for that experience. I mean, I always knew that there were such people but I didn't imagine them to be so close. I feel so free now because I know I don't have to drag myself to school the next day, figure out which class to cut or go and buy MCs.
Well, the past few days have been more meaningful then the past 2 weeks added up. I remember playing soccer on Saturday, patching up with my mum, helping someone financially, enjoying classes for once. I like engineering modules but I just hate classes in general.
You know it hurts whenever I smile because it's so hard to smile.
Because my lips have been so dry recently cause of some dumb medicine. So when I smile it really hurts quite badly. HAHA! Now, I've got so much time to do the stuff that really matters to me.
I'll update more frequently.
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