Late day - 3/7/08

Today was quite a fun day. Lol.

Econs lecture in the morning. Went slightly late. Didn't learn much as usual. Lol.

Well econs lecture after that and I didn't even do my tutorial. Sian. I even got caught by the teacher but I learnt quite a fair bit from there. Anyway had a 3 hour break and did Business Law project. Anyway just to be honest, I don't really feel comfortable with the group. I'm like the only guy in the group so it's kind of awkward for me. Anyway did the project finish thankfully. And the presentation was quite ok.

Met the LMS group after that to discuss the LMS project and it's finally done too! Did IAC project after that. Anyway IAC is Individual and the Community and it's a new module that I'm thinking. The people in the group are Ian (This crazy high guy), Robin and Grace. It's really fun. We were like brain storming like mad over the project but couldn't think of anything! Had dinner at canteen 1. Yong Tau Foo. Did project there until the lights were switched off. Then we decided to go to the soccer court to do our project. Stayed till 10 plus! Late right! Yea and there was a ball there so you can imagine what happened. When Ian is high, he is seriously nuts!! But damn funny.

Wow and I met Serene at the bus stop. Their IAC group stayed till super late as well. Bussed back home with her again. Great catching up with her again. Met Wilfred on the bus and he didn't recognise me at first and he had to mess around. Lol. Reached home quite late today though. See you guys soon.

3/7/08

Err.. today's kind of sian? Nothing much happened. Don't even feel like blogging about classes. But stayed back to do project before going to Anfield for soccer but it rained so Jerome and I left early. Bad day.

1/7/08

Today's my mum's birthday! Happy birthday mum!! :D

Anyway, school was quite slack today. Had DSS in the morning then had a freaking 4 hour break where we did our projects. Ate at Alumni for once today. The food there is not bad. Quite nice. Projects were sort of fun. I can tell that 1 person in my class doesn't like me so I confronted him about it and everything's ok now. Apparently it's because I asked "When is project meeting?" too many times. LOL. Not like I could remember, if I could remember I won't ask.

Business Law tutorial after that was warcraft for me.. Sian. Left early to go to Anfield but I left Anfield at 6pm to get a cake for my mum. Got her some cake from sweet ring. Well, cut it after that and yea that's all for today! :)

Ok, after much research I have came to the conclusion that all this bad headaches I've been getting is

Migraine!

It's quite cool researching on it. They say that before one reaches the pain phase of migraine, one may see auras which to me is the bright lights! And they say that a few days before having migraine, you might get pain on your neck or something like that. Hope I don't get it again though. It's damn pain.

Ok, anyway school today. Had Business Management presentation.. Glad I'm done with it already. Hmm.. Lecture was unproductive as usual and it's really hard for me to concentrate. Anyway I've just installed Warcraft on my laptop so it's going to be even more distracting for me. Lunched with class. My class ain't that bad after all I feel. If I get to know them better they aren't as bad as I think they are. POA tutorial was quite cool for me. Learnt a fair bit from there thankfully. Went with Mr Andre for my test after that which I might fail.. Really told him my current situation about POA and I'm going to meet him next week for some discussion thing. Nice teacher I suppose. He was from Fairfield too!

Went down for soccer with Jerome after that. Played with the youngsters! It was great just playing soccer again. But I definitely won't be able to play my best cause of my leg injury. Hopefully it heals soon. Went to see the doctor after that regarding my migraine, leg injury and skin problem. LOL!!

Alright, I'm screwed for DSS tomorrow. Haven't done my work yet.. See ya!

No church again.. - 29/6/08

Yeap, didn't go church this week. Went for my family gathering cause my cousin came back from Australia for awhile. And yes, it was an excuse for me. I knew I should have gone church. Anyway, went to Bugis and great catching up with my cousins again. Hopefully the BBQ comes soon and we can all have fun and I can own them at Winning Eleven! Haha. Wah.. Can't wait. (:

Anyway, went to Jerome's house today to study. Ok I got the see bright light and get headache thing again and the headache was super super bad. The pain was killing. It was seriously very pain. In case you all didn't know, this happened to me last year a few times already so I had to go and dilate my eyes and the problem seized for awhile but it came back again today. As soon as the I saw the bright light which partially blocked my vision I knew the headache was coming and as soon as it came I went home and crashed. Literally. It was super pain, I just slept. I even ate a panadol the moment I saw the bright light to try to prevent the headache cause I knew it was coming but looks like it's no use. Guys, pray for me that it won't happen again ok? Thanks a million guys.

Well, someone smsed me at 11.30pm and I woke up cause I heard the vibration and guess what, I didn't manage to sleep till like 3.30am.. so I started brooding on my bed and watched soccer. The first half of the finals. As expected of the almighty Torres! Well..

See you guys soon!

Wahaha - 28/6/08

Well, my furniture came today. My room's looking quite nice I suppose. Shifted alot of stuff around really tiring. Haha. But it's all worth it. My room's really quite nice now. But it's pretty messy cause of my old computer table. I'm waiting for the new computer table to come which hopefully will come soon? Argh ok.. actually my room is in a mess. Anyway was supposed to join Caleb and his friend and Jerome for pool but I could only go quite late so I didn't go.

Jerome called and talked for abit. Yea, that's basically it for today.

28/06/08

Well, so today was my first IAC leson. IAC stands for Individual and the Community. It's actually quite interesting, from what I hear. The first part of the lesson was interesting but the second part was quite boring. Sadly, the maximum number of people in a group is 4 so we couldn't stick with the LMS group so we split up. Yea, now the members in the group that I am in are Robin, Ian and Grace. Nice people I think.

Lunched at SIM with Serene, Mei, DC, Lina and Michelle. Michelle is actually Serene's friend so we sort of just met. Lunch was fun, just slacking. The girls were talking about really gross stuff though. Haha.

Went for LMS after that. We didn't present today thankfully. We gotta present next week though. LMS is quite interesting I have to admit though it tends to be abit boring at times. Well, after LMS went back with Serene again. I think I've been going back together with her for a few Fridays already. Fun talking to her too about each other's life. Well, she was kind today and waited with me for my bus to come before walking home. Very nice of her.

Well after that went to central to get the 10m SCV cable so I can stretch it and change the position of my TV. Yea, then Jarrel came over to learn guitar from the me. Why can't people just go straight to Jerome when they want to learn man.. He's super good! Haha. Did I mention, I'm supposed to play for my cell leader's wedding so I really got to buck up on my skills. Lol. Packed up my room as well. Gotta get ready to shift everything out tomorrow. Hmm..

Going to sleep now!! Cheers! :D

So close.. and still so far.

Today I got back 2 more papers. For Macroeconomics I got 76/100 and for Business Law I got 76/100 too! Really thank God for it cause I studied super last minute. Anyway my class is a sick bunch. Some of them really act like they don't study but do super well. Haha. Anyway with such grades I'm like below average in my class and yea.. That's really pathetic. Gonna study hard from now on! No more slacking. Anyway I've stopped bringing my mouse to school so I can't play Dota. It's sort of a double edged sword since I can't play after school also which could be a good thing so I can go home straight away.

Well, today was quite a long day. From 9am till 4pm. Thankfully I survived especially with not doing every single tutorial homework.. Haha. Kind of a lazy bum right now. Yea now on to the best part of the day. Jerome.. So he came up in the evening.

UMM.. I'm better than him on soccer on the PS3!! Real life soccer, a whole different story. Yea, kind of talking to him about the past brings lot of great memories back. However, I won't get to experience such memories again. Talked about stuff which was quite worth talking about. (To me la I don't know if to him it's junk or what XOXO) Ahh.. you know that song you played on the computer really reminds me of the good old days.

Yea furniture's coming on Saturday. I guess that means no more overseas education. I'm kind of regretting not signing up for it though. It's really a good opportunity. So I go an E-mail from Alex (Not Alexander Benedict Yan) to comfirm if I'm going overseas or not. I really feel like saying yes though! I'm guessing most of you know him but if you haven't he's sort of the middle man. Argh!! So much stuff to clear out. I'll put pictures of my new room once it's ready!

Some people change...

Hahaha

That's the title of the post when I can't think of any name to put. Well, school was kind of slack today. DSS in the morning and I was supposed to go for Business Management lecture but I didn't and I went home. Thank goodness I went home though as I completed some long overdue homework. Watched alot of shows today. Err, firstly How to lose a guy in 10 days. It's a nice show. Then, The Forbidden Kindgom. Great show! It's really cool. Can't wait for the second one to come out. Although the girl part where he met her in the real world again was kind of predictable. Nice show. Third was What Happens in Vegas. Another nice show. Oh man.. I should have saved it for Saturday or something. Ok, I'm seriously into the romance comedy genre of movies now. It's really nice. Oh man.. what's going on!

Hmm.. I realise I only make time for God when I have spare time. For example I pray when I'm on the bus waiting for the journey to complete and when I don't have to go school, I may not pray at all. It's really bad of me to do that as in to not put God first in my life and I really want to change that but it's hard to. I really take God for granted. In a way it's like cause I know he'll always forgive me so I just sin and sin.. and say sorry after that. I should really repent.

Hairline Fracture.. Maybe?

Didn't go to school today. So today my shin was quite painful. So I didn't go to school and decided to check up on it with the doctor since it's been like 2 weeks. Hmm.. Went to the doctors and I was told to go for an X-Ray at Orchard. So I went to Orchard and did an X-Ray there. Still can't figure how those things work but they're really cool. Then went back to the doctors with the X-Ray. Nothing looked wrong from that X-Ray. Thankfully. But I can't exercise or anything for a week. The thing is, it might be some stress fracture thing which doesn't show on the X-Ray. Ahh!! I seriously hope it's not. Right now I'm hoping it's just some bruising that will go away soon but it really doesn't seem so. This means no soccer for 1 Week!! Oh man.. That's bad. It still hurts sometimes. Ahh.. guess how much I got for POA. 52/100! Expected it for POA already since I don't really understand anything. But yea thankfully I passed. Really by God's grace. Expected me to fail quite badly.

Pray for me please? Really feeling abit worried about it.. Haha. That's so unlike me to you right? I think you guys think I don't worry much? but every day there's just so much running through my mind.

OUCH!

Well, it's back to school for me today. Loads of stuff to clear up. Thank God lessons weren't taxing today. Had business management which was pretty slacky followed by POA lecture. Didn't even on my laptop during lecture! However, that doesn't mean I listened the entire way through. Haha. It's really hard for me to just fully pay attention during lecture. And I just have so much to catch up on!

Lunched with Alex, Leroy and some other guy. Ate at the Atrium. The stupid black pepper noodles made me perspire like CRAP man!! Never going to eat it again. Didn't go for LMS project.. Didn't really feel like it. But I stopped at Dover and I nearly went back to school since I crossed the road and waited for 74 but since it took quite awhile to come I just went straight home. Felt really bad. There's this person in my group called Serene. She called to look for the group but I went home first and said something cropped up at home. Then after that I smsed all the group people that I wasn't able to make it. Then she said that I sounded sad just now on the phone and told me to cheer up. Oh my goodness I felt super super bad man.. I'm never going to do such a thing today.

Oh man, God bless me with discipline please? I seriously need it! Went down to play soccer with Jerome and Eugene. It was very fun playing with them. And I found a depression near my shin area. I'm guessing it came from one of the previous soccer competitions where I got kicked real bad. As in you can see that there's a depression there if you look closely. OUCH! And it's really very painful. Pray for me yea?

Yea.. My walk with God hasn't exactly been good. I mean God is not the number 1 priority in my life and that's bad! I really have to get my priorities right! Well, my cell leader is getting married soon and so the cell group planned a performance and I'll most probably be playing the guitar. Gotta start practicing again. The last time I seriously practiced on the guitar was like last year..

Just watched 50 first dates! It's a really nice show. HAHA! I don't know why but I'm into the romance genre now. See ya!

Church-less Sunday

Hmm.. Didn't go church today or yesterday as it is known today. Wanted to go but there was this part of me that just stayed at home man.. The devil is one bugger bugging me. I'm going to go next week!! I promise myself that.

Finished DSS at last!! STILL GOT SO MUCH MORE TO DO! My discipline level is seriously very lousy for now. Hmm.. What shall I do.

So this post is 1 day late cause I turned in early yesterday to try to catch the match. I woke up on time for the match but I went to the toilet and decided to sleep. Last night's sleep was quite unpleasant. I woke up so many times. Shall post later about today.

The past

Quoted from Saturday, April 30th, 2005

"today nia, got math & his test.. i am so fucking screwed up la.. i dun even know how 2 do a single question for maths.. fail le.. for his sia.. wun fail loh.. but do damn freakin badly?? from now on, i gonna bring food to school so i can save up ASAP.. haiz.. see every1 buying food la.. so tempting.. haiz.. anw, tomorrow got tuition?? nv to his work?? wtf.. gonna get screwd insinde out.. why do i love u, dont even want to.. haiz.. everytime i see you, i go all fuzzy.. a funny sensation just appears.. haiz.. the more i see u, the more i love u.. wad to do?? haiz.."

WHAT ON EARTH WAS I THINKING BACK THEN!! HAHAHAHA

It has really occurred to me how much I have change since back then. Man last time I was like **** here **** there. Now I still do at times but.. Glad to see although my messing has been taken up a notch others areas of my life has improved. And please messing isn't really that bad! The last time when I really overdid it was quite awhile back already as far as I can remember.

Failed at yet another soccer competition!

All right so basically today woke up super early and my mum fetched me to Orchard for my check up. Ok, in case you all don't know the doctor I visited is a skin specialist. I've been going there for a few years now. XOXO Basically I went there when I started having pimples since they'll put you on anti-biotic and some special cream. Yea. But today's visit is special since there's a new problem. My neck now has a fair spot after intense scratching. It's kind of weird looking and it's like in a shape of a diamond. Well, turns out that there was a rash there and after my scratching it has to heal or something like that so it becomes like that. Hope it doesn't stay like that though. Bussed home after that.

Went for Winning Eleven competition. To be honest I was very confident I could win this thing cause I saw the people play and they were really not that good. But I lost in the semi-finals! To an under dog. Worst part was I could win him in the group stage! Haha. He had like 10 shots and 6 on target and I had 25 shots and 15 on target.. In the end the score was 3-2.... My possession was also higher than his at like 56%!! Unlucky. That guy won the entire thing in the end and the other finalist also went through the same thing as me, dominating the match but losing the game. Haha. Was feeling disappointed initially but well you've gotta move on after each fall. Anyway this fall isn't that bad so it isn't that hard a fall.

After that slacked at home. Went down at 8 plus to join Jerome, Caleb and Jerome's cousin Joel for soccer. Just played around initially. Jerome's other cousin was there too. You know, Samantha? Yeap. Anyway, Mervin and Henry came too so it was quite fun. Played 3 v 3 and although it might sound unfun to you, it was really quite fun for me. Jerome, your cousin seriously got skill................ just like YOU! XOXO

Anyway just showered and blogging now. Ahh.. Mountain Dew tastes so so so nice after a game of soccer! Church tomorrow! Hope I'll learn from the sermon. School's starting soon too man!! Damn it. Haven't even started on some work yet. LOL!

God bless!! :)

Kung Fu ALEX!!

Honoured right Alex? My title is named after you. Just joking ok.

Anyway today went to Orchard with Alden, Alex, Joel and Sheng Wei. Watched Kung Fu Panda!! GOOD SHOW! It's super super funny. The funniest I've watched since Blades of Glory. Oh yea, had lunch at that place. You know the one where got alot of food for you to choose from. I ate Long John Silvers. Oh and ALDEN SPILLED THE COKE/DRINK! and selfishly walked away without clearing it up.

All of them decided to go to Anfield so they came to my house first. Err.. Saw someone there. What's her name? Oh man, I can't remember. Err... Hold on ah I'm thinking................. OH YA! Sophia Lim. The first thing people see me when they haven't seen me since post 'O' Level collection era talk about my hair. To girls my reply would be it's shorter than yours and to guys I say.. I don't know what I say.

Anyway Anfield today was good. Found more faults in me in soccer. And I was irritated by the super small Korean boy. There's nothing I can do to him! and he keeps running around like some psycho. Cabbed home. Super tired.

Tomorrow's my Winning Eleven competition. Hopefully I can win it! Gotta wake up early too for doctor's appointment at Orchard too. HAIZZZ..

I can't see Alden loving nobody but Zara for all his life! ZARA FTW!!

Honeydew Milk Tea

Oh yea I know my posts are like 1 day late, Sorry? Haha. Anyway yesterday went to Queensway with Jerome to look around. I tried the honeydew milk tea. It's 100000000000000 times nicer that the one at school. The one at school is brown in colour while the one at Queensway is green. It's really quite nice. Jerome, I remember you said what I take your favourite drink? So I'm going to make a public apology here. SORRY SIR! Can't wait for the vapour to wear out! Wanna get new shoes. I think vapour doesn't really suit me as in the looks of it.

Anfield after that was ok I suppose? Can't really remember what happened.

Yesterday.

Err so I had this Winning Eleven competition in the morning. Won all the matches so I qualified for the next round. There's this like group system where 4 out of the 6 teams in the group qualify. Lol!! I won every single match. HAHAHA. It was at Games Lab there so it's really cool since we played on the big projector. The competition started at like 9am so I had to wake up super super early!! Haha!! Anyway I had a fun time just playing Winning Eleven. I'm quite sure alot of people underestimated me so it's really good just winning them.

Anyway after that I went to school to do project with Bahari and Matthew. Did quite alot for our Business Management project. It was raining super super heavily so it sucked just going to school. Didn't even feel like leaving the home! Just wanted to waste on the bed. Hmm.. Thank goodness my grandmother had the small umbrella for me to use.

After that went to play pool with Jerome. Want to guess the result? Thankfully Caleb went through the same thing yesterday. I think?? Read on his blog that he was owned or something like that. But pool with Jerome was fun. Was great just talking and playing pool at the same time just talking about life and yea, basically everything about life. Went to Botak Jones for dinner after that. The food that is the killer. Just that the fish and chips mayonnaise makes me feel like vomiting if I eat too much of it. Yea that's all?

My walk with God is extremely shaky man... Gotta work on it!

Jerome's rich!

Well, firstly Jerome and I went to school to collect the 'O' Level stuff and such. Really great being back there. Reminds me of the good old days. After that went to Great World City to catch the hulk. The show was quite nice. The ending really makes me look forward to the Avengers movie which comes out in 2011!! That's like in 3 years time.. The action in the hulk was quite good just that it isn't as cool as in Iron Man so don't expect it to blow your mind.

Oh yea, did I mention Jerome spent money like nothing today. He spent 30 bucks on arcade and was quite close to winning a DS Lite or a PSP. If I had the cash today, I would have played that much as well as it was really quite addictive. That game was seriously super addictive. You know the pressing game then if you win you get a PSP/DS. Lol. It's more fun than those racing games also man!

Lunch at pepper lunch then went down to play soccer. Played with the small boys and Henry. Err.. Haven't been doing my quiet time of late.. Sian..

Haha

Anyway yesterday went to Wisma to get my phone repaired AT LAST. After a month of procrastination I finally got it done. Gotta collect it back on Wednesday though. Gotta pay $220 for it too! Ahh damn! Not going to spoil my phone again! Basically thats all that happened yesterday.

Never going to another soccer competition till I can juggle more than XX times.

So the day started with soccer competition which we inevitably knocked out. We lost the first match and the second match so many own goals were scored. Argh.. Lost yesterday's and today's competition. Well, at least gained some experience. Well anyway, Demetrius should have been the permanent keeper though.

Anyway went home after that and went to shop for some furniture at the furniture mall. Well, I got a queen size bed at last! It came in like a whole set? So it came with a 4-door wardrobe, 2 night tables, 1 queen size bed and 1 dressing table. It's coming in about 2 weeks time. Can't wait!

Anyway after that my mum and I went for some buffet at some hotel. Met Andre there by coincidence . Glad to see he's doing well. Not spiritually well though. Lol.

Good performance, poor results!

Basically today had my first soccer competition which my church organised. I got lost in RED HILL! Can you believe it? Ok, not really lost. I was making my way to the Community Centre and like I took 10 minutes more than usual cause I totally forgot the way. Made it there in the end. As the title states. I feel that I played quite well today although I made 1 blunder which caused a goal.. Firstly let's talk about the team which I was in. The goal keeper was great and he stopped many shots well. There is this striker named Glen. He sounds like some pro but in actuality he isn't really that good and all he is good at is ramming which is an admirable quality don't get me wrong. (Manzzz I wish I could ram like that) He is seriously one cocky fellow. Before the competition started he was like going on about how he's going to ole people later and all those stuff but other than 1 goal which was quite HARD he is too solo. Worst of all is that he lacks the freaking skill to solo and keeps losing the ball. Then there's another striker. He's name is Shareef. (If that's how you spell it) He's in his school's team and in the Singapore U-15 squad. Skilled but again when people are skilled they tend to solo alot. Besides the minor soloing he scored quite a few crucial goals and he's really good. Ok, there were these 2 small Indian boys (And I say that with much respect) who were playing around and kicked the ball at my face. They didn't really play much though so I can't really talk about them. Oh yea, there was this defender also. Not really sure what he's name is but he defended really well. He's really short too but he defended really well. Oh yea, my team manager happened to be my ex-cell group leader, Elkan. He say I remind him of Hargreaves which I guess it's true like some of you say as well. Basically today I had no fixed position but I played more defensively. I played how I usually play I suppose. Like I'll defend then I'll join back up in attack then come back to defend. Thank God for my stamina too! Our team made it to the semi-finals before we got knocked out. Did I mention? Jo's team was there too. Shawn Wai and some of my other neighbours were there too. Cool eii! We were knocked out by them too. Sadly Shawn Wai played as a substitute for most of his matches so he couldn't really play much. We lost 2 freaking 0 but we held out well at first but I guess the team wasn't really good and it's really by God's grace that we made it to the semi-finals. But honestly, the people there weren't that good below what I expected but still had fun anyway. Oh yea, I'm injured now! Sorry Alden, the prophecy has come true. My shin is bruised quite badly as in I can feel the pain when I walk at first but now it's better. Pray for me that it'll heal by tomorrow?

Anyway, went home after that and Jerome followed me to Queensway to get my ball which some guy punctured during the chalet. Not really sure who was it but hey it could have been me! Thanks Jerome for following me today! XOXO

Going to go for some father's day dinner now!! See ya!!

What the world has become?

Today was quite a slacky day for me. Anyway went to Plaza Sing for project work. Ok, Mei finally showed us where and what Spotlight is. Apparently it's some DIY shop which sells some party stuff. Went to McDonalds to do the powerpoint slide. Man.. I'm hating McDonalds this few days. Tons of fast food over the past few days cause of chalet. Anyway I was surprised by DC's remarks of maybe NP wasn't his right choice which he made today. Talked to him about it and it's like at first we were darn sure Business Studies was the right choice but right now, not so sure.

Anyway went home and went downstairs to play soccer by myself shortly thereafter the small boys came and I couldn't practice anymore. Super sian. With regards to my blog title. I saw this primary 5 boy who pierced his ear. PRIMARY 5 man!! The piercing was as big as a straw size. You know those McDonald's straw? And so I asked him did your parents allow you to do that and he said yes. Shocker! What is this world becoming. I realised that as time passes on more and more young people learn about sex through friends and stuff. At my time I think I learnt it at Primary 5? But now it's whole new story. I can really see this world is becoming more and more messed up. It's like the end times are nearing sooner than I expected.

Hah. Anyway, I'll have my first soccer competition tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to gain some insight for the next competition which is on Sunday. And yes, hopefully I don't get injured tomorrow. Oh, Wai Mun (don't want to call him Uncle Wai Mun) came to borrow my Winning Eleven for games lab so I can't play!! Ahh!!

I really hope God instills in my heart passion for others. That's something I'm really lacking in. I also need to be more devoted in Christ, definitely. Here's a confession. I don't really like some people and yes I keep it inside me and I don't tell anybody about this. When I think about it sometimes I really feel pissed off at that person but the amazing thing is yesterday when I felt pissed about that person, I thought about God immediately and I felt really peaceful after that like I've accepted that person. Amazing what God can do.

This post is about yesterday

Really tired yesterday so didn't post. Yea, basically yesterday was soccer at Anfield. More people than I expected came which was great. Really played like crap yesterday but that's beside the point.

I've made so many choices in life that I ain't sure is correct. Like coming to NP for example. It's something that my mind wants but is it what my heart wants? I'm not really sure actually. Right now, I can't think of a future for myself. Maybe going overseas would have been a better option but I didn't send out the application form and it's too late cause I'm not 100% sure. Is NP really the right place for me? I mean I could have choses to go JC which could have been better.

Pictures of Chalet!

alden sleeping with joel. the next day joel said his ass hurts. LOL! kidding!!



Isn't that leroy on the same bed as qilin?? ooo..




guitar hero noobs la..



oh man you should have seen the picture of alden staring at myra's bikini picture but he deleted it.



good night leroy



heng guang



leroy, hueng guang and i



sophia... LU not *AHEM*



twist twist



fat lip



alden's bringing sexy back



twist



joel at his best! XOXO

That's how weak I am.

Just woke up from an afternoon nap. I was supposed to go for cell group meeting but I'm felt quite tired and abit sick cause of all the recent late nights and all the craziness for the past few days. Looks like I'm not going for cell group. I know if I had wanted to go I definitely would have gone. That's just how weak I am.. and I really feel disturbed about that. I'm definitely not that rooted into Christ just yet. It was just so easy for me to say NO to going for cell group. Hmm.. worst of all, I haven't been doing quiet time for the past few nights not to mention praying to God? I only prayed once during the chalet night. Argh.. my fire for God right now is just like a candle in a wind. (Remember that song?) The song is supposedly about how fragile life is and how the candle which represents our life can be blown off just like that. That's what my walk with God is right now. I feel it goes something like this. God and us hold a candle each and God would do anything to keep the candle with him alight but it's really all up to us to keep our candle lighted up. Come to think of it, I'm not that sick.

I'm not acting like my earlier resolution of making life count. If that were a date with someone I liked, I definitely would have jumped out of bed right away. Is this how weak my relationship with God is? If so which I sincerely believe so, then I really have much to do about it.

Anyway since I just woke up for the nap I could remember majority of the dream I was having. It was about ALEX. We were in Fairfield Secondary and sitting at the back stair case near my old Secondary 4 locker. We were sitting on the stair case which was going to the roof and guess what we were doing. We were playing Counter-Strike. (I'm not too sure if it's real life CS or computer CS but I think it was the real life one). LOL. We were camping up there and talking about life I think. The worst part is after that we went for a FCBC church service together which appears to be on a Wednesday which is today. So the dream is like about today. The service ended early and I had this exact same cell group meeting which I was supposed to have and my cell leader told me to go to Eunos MRT at 4.45pm since we ended early. I ended up playing soccer at Anfield I think instead of going for the cell group.. And I think the sermon was about relationships. I think one of the few points was "Is God the centre of the relationship?" and "Are you really letting God take control of that relationship?" I'm not too sure if the points I dreamt about was that but it really speaks to me about what I'm going through now.

Back to the present. Later there is this prayer meeting at 7.30pm. Should I go? or should I not? I know it should be the first one but we'll see yea.

Chalet!

Well, chalet wasn't as bad as expected though it could have been more fun. Well, basically the chalet was slack slack and more slack. The first day had an impromptu barbecue which was really quite impromptu because Sophia brought food and charcoal over. Anyway, I always feel sick during chalets and I have no idea why. Thankfully felt much better in the end. Well, ended up watching the Holland v Italy match at McDonald's. Holland won 3-0! Too bad Van Persie is really not as good as before all else it would be much nicer supporting Holland. Well, went back to the chalet to sleep after that. Slept on a sleeping bag and it's really quite comfortable.

The second day was basically waking up late and playing pool. Didn't lose a single match in pool today out of 5 or 6 I think. Something feels wrong with my eye like I'm cock eye or something. Anyway had lunch at Pasta Mania before that. The chalet seriously burnt a hole in my wallet. Spent quite alot there. Decided to come home early from chalet. The worst part is Alden, Leroy, Joel and Heng Guang left also! They're at my house right now sleeping waiting for the Spain v Russia match to start while I'm just slacking on my bed. Lol. Oh yea, before that went down to play soccer with them and Jerome and got Leroy filmed this for me and it's called Bend it like Lincoln. Lol! Enjoy.



*EDIT*
It's not really a curl more of a dipping kind of thing.

I'll post some chalet photos later on too!

Chalet...

Going off for chalet soon. Haven't even pack my stuff yet and it's already 2.35pm! Gotta leave in around an hour plus time. Don't really feel that enthusiastic about going for it though. Honestly I don't even feel like going at all now. Ahh heck. Gonna stay there for 2 days and 1 night only anyway. See ya!

Morning Reflections??

Really quite disappointed in myself. For the past two days I haven't been doing quiet time and the reason is pretty dumb. I will lie down on my bed to just close my eyes then I'll fall asleep. So in the end, I don't do quiet time. What more in the chalet, I most probably won't do it as well there. That's why I sort of don't feel like going although my knee is really hurt quite badly.

"Stopping excessive exercise suddenly can also create a change in mood. Feelings of depression and agitation can occur when withdrawal from the natural endorphins produced by exercise occurs." Anyway I saw this article and it's actually quite true.

Knock Knock, Who's There?

That's the title of today's sermon.

Ok, actually today I didn't feel like going to church today but in the end I went so thank God. I sort of had to drag myself out of the house.

Service was basically about being a "Surprise Ambassador" for Christ. There are basically 3 steps to becoming an ambassador of Christ.

1. By being there
2. By speaking to Jesus
3. By leading people

Worshiping God really feels quite foreign to me now. It's like I don't enjoy singing and dancing as much as before. I really have to step into church and have this preparedness to worship. But thankfully I still give my tithing though I haven't been giving for the past few months.

Anyway after church met Jerome at Tiong Baruh Plaza which has changed alot from last time to go to Commonwealth. By the time we reached which was at 6pm, no one was there. Most were at Anfield. Had dinner at Koufu and left shortly after that after Alden and the rest came. Didn't really want to go because of... (Go figure!)

Anyway I hurt my knee today. It's really pain. My knee hit against the wall and when I move it I can feel the pain.

Oh my gosh.. Prince Caspian died?

Well, today's been a pretty slacky day. Don't really have to worry this few days. Studies have been out of my mind of late which is good and bad. Played alot of stuff today but if you want to put it in a worse way, I wasted today.

Anyway in the evening went to watch Prince Caspian with Jerome. My gosh.. Tiong Baruh is so crowded now. Even the queue for the popcorn is so so long! Worst part is the guy gave me much lesser popcorn as in it's not filled to the brim and it has alot of excess space for more popcorn to be filled. But well, I didn't even finish it so I guess it's better that way so I don't waste food. The movie was very good and no Prince Caspian did not die. XOXO And I want to thank Jerome Chua for reminding me of her AGAIN. After watching I agree with what Alden said about the plot being better in the first movie but the action being better in the sequel. Alden if you seriously want to go to Narnia, find me. The movie was pretty long. Like around 2 hours plus. Oh and this 2 woman who sat in the same row as me laughed at me cause I totally lost my way trying to find the seat after going toilet halfway through. Too bad didn't get to play soccer downstairs today.

The show really has alot of hidden meanings which is kind of cool since I guess most Christians will be able to see them and be reminded that there is a God up there watching over us. Don't know why but I'm not say excited about going church tomorrow but neither am I dreading it. I seriously want to rekindle my fire for God so pray for me yea?

Anyway it's been a really long time since I went out with Jerome the last being a few months back? Hah. Ok anyway this is the longest time that I've ever liked a girl. Umm it's been approximately around 2 years plus. I know I know, nothing compared to Alex but yea. Haha.

I want to look back at my life and say I've been there for my friends and my family so I shall TRY to be a better person. Lol. I know I've not been really perfect with the messing, the daoing for no reason (SORRY ALDEN), the negative influence I produce and much much more. Yeap, it's not going to be easy to change but I'll try.

Anyway took this quiz.

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Swim Swim

Today was quite a long day.

Went to swim at Clementi Swimming Complex just now with Alden, Alex, Jerome and Leroy. Ok, not really swim but play? Haha. We talked more than we swam but it was fun. Lunch at some cheap Japanese restaurant. Ate quite alot. After that went home.

Cell group in the evening after that. Had games lab session first. Played Winning Eleven and CS there. Was fun. After that had cell group session. Wasn't really my cell group but a mix of people? Yea, couldn't really feel the presence of God in a way I suppose but I know that the more I go for church or even church activities, the more I'll be able to feel God. So yeap. Oh and I just started watching The O.C. again. Good show.

It's super late now like 2am so I'm going to sleep soon.

Good Day

I should start putting a title for each post to make it look cooler.

Morning was Business Law test which I'm happy to say was much easier than anticipated. Could really feel God blessing me as I was doing it. So yeah, all in all the test was pretty easy. Oh yea. For the past few days my dad's been fetching me to school and really caught up with him alot. I really hope that he changes for the better. Well for starters I pray for him almost every night.

Anyway after test went to meet the LMS group for some project thing. Had lunch before that at Canteen 1 with some of them. Got some photos of the meeting.

Ok.. I don't really know how to organise the photographs but I just realised my hair really looks THAT emo. I always thought it wasn't that emo. Anyway, thats Ding Chun, Lina, Mei and Serene. Ding Chun is like I don't know how to explain. Lina is like the backbone of the group. She really helps us alot. Mei is the girl who always asks me to wear her skirt for some skit thing and Serene is the female version of a Pai Kia! Haha. Anyway, we went with Serene to go get her contacts before she left for the US and bussed back together since she stays somewhere on my way home. Chatted quite abit and really got to know her more. She's a really nice person.

Anyway went to Anfield after that. New people came. It was quite fun today. I scored this free kick. Ok, not really free kick but you know when the match starts you can try to shoot the ball in. So I tried to shoot. Did the curling kind of shot and it went in. It was super nice to me. LOL. I can still remember what it was like. Azan thought I was going to ram so he ran and jumped in a path but after he jumped I shot the ball and Mok totally moved away from the ball. This time round I could see the curl myself which meant that it curled more than usual when I practice cause when I practice I can't see the curl but I know it curls. Ok I think the curl caused Mok to move away. And I think I realised my position already. I realised my dribbling has deproved from last time. However, my passing and shooting have improved quite alot from last time. (From my point of view, I know some may not think those areas have improved but I feel that) So for now I think centre midfield, attacking midfield and support striker would suit me. I can still play on the wings which is what I enjoy but I don't play effectively there anymore. Oh anyway, that match ended in less than 30 seconds I think. Cause after that Yong Soo almost immediately scored and we won. LOL. The worse part was that the opposing team was supposed to start but Yong Soo ask if we can start then they allowed. So I took that shot. HAHAHAHAHA!

Oops, haven't done quiet time yet but I'll do it for sure later! See you guys soon!

Hmm.. Yesterday was slack for me. Nothing much to blog about.

Today was basically the Anfield BBQ which was great though I only went for awhile. Soccer was fun as usual. Yea, I'm going to be on a hiatus for awhile I think. Don't think I can commit so much time to blogging anymore. (I know it doesn't take long but with that time I can do quiet time) So I guess I'll only blog after I do quiet time which I have not done today but will do as soon as I finish with this.

Argh, Business Law test tomorrow which is seriously the worst part of the week. It's abit like History & Social Studies where you have to remember loads of facts and there is this format for you to asnwer the questions. Studied around only 60% of what I'm supposed to and the test is tomorrow. God bless me. Hahaha.

Didn't post yesterday.

Basically yesterday was Macroeconomics test which was pretty easy I guess. It was easy but there were a lot of tricks and I think I fell for one of them. Lol. After the test went down and played with Jerome soccer downstairs then headed over to Anfield. Err.. Nothing much to post about that but went for dinner with Daniel and Yong Soo after that at Jumbo.

I've been reading daily bread everyday recently but I haven't really been praying for the past two days. Yea, hopefully I'll start again soon.

Well, woke up late again so no soccer for me today. But next week I'm definitely going to wake up early. Went church today. The message is entitled "Starting Points".

1. There is an eternal God who created us.
2. Jesus Christ is the Eternal God.
3. God has revealed His truth and grace to us.

Those are the three main points of today's service. Ok so basically today's service is about making reference points in our lives and you have to recognise this 3 points as truth. From this week on, I'm going to post about Church every week. That's if I go la, which I most probably would. Yea and I went to Church today! Thank God! I intend to continue going too. Not surprisingly, most people didn't recognise me instantly since now I have emo hair. (So they say) Was great being back there and the sermon really spoke to me.

Anyway, my dad's birthday today so had dinner at some fancy restaurant which is super nice to eat. So full..

I think I'm going to screw up tomorrow's macroeconomics test? Haha. It's like I'm not very prepared.

Hmm.. Let's see.

Screwed up POA test today. I even left early feeling that there was no hope. Haha. And screw up is seriously screw up. Basically, my studying last night was kind of pointless though it did help quite a fair bit. Not going to make the same mistake twice though.

Went home and Jerome came up. Watched Smallville before going down to play soccer. But it rained after playing for like one hour so we went back up.

Went to some Novotel Hotel thing for dinner. Ate alot since it was buffet style. Really very full now but the food was good. Long time since I went for International Buffet. Haha. Hmm...

Ok I realised that there are friends almost everywhere that would want to hurt you directly or indirectly. I'm quite sure that people sometimes do something knowing that another party would get hurt indirectly. They are seriously a bunch of hypocrites who act nice in front of you and really their actions are really out to hurt you? No I'm not a victim of that but I've just seen stuff like that happen alot recently. Argh, bugger hypocrites. Worst part is some of them are Christians. (No way am I implying that I'm perfect) Haha. It's like sometimes people don't do it with 100% intention to hurt the person but he does it and upon thinking realises that it will hurt another party but still does it with like with 10% intention?

Anyway, yesterday had LMS class. It was quite fun cause it was mostly discussion and less teaching. Pool yesterday with Guo Yao, my ex tutor. Ok, either he is super good or I've become super super noob. Argh seriously seriously noob.

Anyway, crammed for till quite late last night..

Hah. It's quite late now. Mugging for POA test tomorrow. Finally understand almost everything that I don't understand? Yeah, had fun today I suppose? Or should I call it yesterday since it's 12.30am now. I think I should be able to pass the test tomorrow. Well, pass is pretty bad too but well, it's what I deserve for the amount I studied.

Definitely going to edit this post tomorrow when I have more time to blog. See you! (:

Argh.. Just screwed up my POA quiz. 27.5 upon 50. I honestly don't know how to pass the test on Saturday..

Tiring day today.

Well, I guess time + God heals all wounds. But I don't think God will heal the wounds completely at times and may leave a scar there for us to remember. I remember in the past, God used to make a huge influence in my life. Do you guys know that downloading music is a sin? Most think it's not but it is.

Anyway, life's been not ok this past few days. I feel so lonely but of course I know that God is there for me. Hmm.. God really has a plan for everyone and no matter what happens we can't stop believing. I wonder if we'll be able to recognise each other in heaven.

Anyway studied abit today and went to Anfield for soccer. I played almost all the matches as I was in two teams which is good cause I really got to work out alot. I really have to start to focus in my life. I should make a goal for myself to follow.

School tomorrow. Haha. Going to study now!

Hmm... It's been a tough day for me. Every time I think back about what happened I can really feel tears swelling up in my eyes. B was only 34 years old by the way. B was really a kind kind soul. He was the kind of guy most girls would want to marry. I'm sure A must be very sad now. Those who are reading this please pray for A okay. Just address her as A in your prayers and I'm sure God will understand. Just bless her with peace in her heart and just pray that she'll be able to cope with what she is going through now. Thanks you all. (:

It's seriously so so hard to be a Christian but I'm really thankful for being one. I must say I've sinned once or twice today? Argh.. I'm going to try my best to stop sinning. Oh, with regards to my earlier post, about me wanting to be Superman. I really want to make a difference in this world. I wanna stop being who I've been. The Superman part will only be a dream but you get what I mean about making a difference in this world?

Anyway, didn't study much today and POA test is so so soon. Went out with my mum, grandmother and brother. Sent my brother for tuition. Ate at Bukit Timah Plaza. Went for some foot flexology thing. Was quite cool. I like soaked my leg in this tub and it turned black due to the toxic in my body or something like that? The tub had some machine inside it though. Haha.

Went for dinner at the Hawker Centre downstairs. Played soccer with Jerome, Eugene and Jerome downstairs. Was quite fun! That's all for today!(:

This is going to sound childish but for once I wish I could be Superman.

Anyway, changed blogger time settings so now all the previous posts times are quite messed up.

Going to blog later, after dinner.

Day to remember, Reconciliation

Whenever I make a resolution, I always fail to keep it. I'm going to make every breath in my life count from now on. I don't wanna take anyone/anything for granted anymore. I want to make full use of my life. I look at my spiritual state now. It's really in a mess. I don't even act like a Christian anymore. I should never have strayed. I guess I just feel very touched by God now. I don't even know why. It's like I can hear him speaking over my shoulder "I'm in control, don't worry." Changes I want:

1) I want to go back to church
2) I want to stop taking people for granted, especially my family and friends and God
3) I want to be able to make full use of my life each day
4) I want to stop hurting the feelings of others

Ok basically this happened today.

I learnt that the loved one of my friend died today. As in really loved one, they really love each other so so much. Let's call my friend A and A's loved one B. It's like A and B are really really a happy couple. But B met with a car accident and died. Thank God that B is a christian though. And their love isn't this kind of puppy love, it's really those kind of love between husband and wife. It's really very saddening for me to see this kind of thing happening. So I sort of got this call and got the news. I really didn't know how to respond at all. My mind was like is it true? At that point in time I really didn't know how to react at all. My mind was in a total blank.

I really don't know why God allowed this to happen. But it really softened my hardened heart till the point where I cried. I could really feel God touching my heart. I don't think I cried because B died but I do feel very sad for him. I could just feel my heart softening and softening.. To be honest, I've really hardened my heart quite alot ever since I've stopped going to church. Of course I didn't intentionally harden my heart but I guess not feeling the presence of God for so long really caused it. I'm not 100% certain but on after thought I really feel that that is God at work. In a way, it's like all of a sudden I saw things that I've already knew but never seen it that way. Suddenly the Sichuan earthquake, the Myanmar cyclone came to my mind. I knew many people died but it never really stood out to me like it was non of my concern. But at that moment I just felt like "Oh my gosh Lincoln, you're damn damn self-centered. So many people are dying and you've been here for the past don't know how many years wasting your life just letting yourself rot." Honestly as I'm typing this I'm really crying like mad. I'm really a failure. I really don't know why but right now, I really feel that it's the work of God softening my heart. It also never occurred to me how sad the people of the victims of the natural disasters were. You know it's like so damn obvious that they'll be sad and the worst part is it never really occurred to me as I was so distant from it. That's how hardened my heart was. To be honest, never once did I feel thankful that Singapore had no natural disasters. It was just sort of a norm to me. And sad to say yesterday I just said "Oh my F***ing God!" I said where no one was around so it's like no one knows and I felt ok about it yesterday. But today that feelings is really killing me. I honestly wish I could take that back. I've really started to lose control of my tongue and it's really starting to hurt God, my family and currently not yet but maybe soon my friends? Thats why yesterday I just quarreled with my mum and it only occurred to me as a big thing today. Almost all this thoughts came to me just TODAY so you can imagine how cold I've been on the inside.

I really feel very sad for A. I don't know B personally but I DO KNOW THAT HE SHOULD NOT HAVE CAME TO SUCH AN ENDING but it happened. I really want to dedicate this day as the day I come back to Christ. And really, if B hadn't had passed on I'm not sure whether the day where I rededicate my life to Christ would have come so I know not many people would read this, I want to thank B so so much.

Dear B, you might never read this. But I really want to thank you so much. I really wish you didn't have to pass away like that but it happened. I don't know you personally but I do know that you are a great person. I wish you all the best in heaven and you'll forever be in my heart. You know, if you had not passed on today, this might not have happened to me at all. I don't know how to put it but in a way, God used your death to bring me life. There's nothing I can do about your passing on but I will definitely not let you die for nothing. (I didn't know how to phrase the previous sentence in a better way so it may make me sound like a bad guy but I hope you get what I mean?) B, if not for you today wouldn't have happened in this way and I will definitely try my utmost best to grow strong in Christ. I know you would want A to be happy and move on and I hope that as A says A's final goodbye to you, you'll let her know how much you love her and I can assure you though at times it may not appear that A loves you, I can promise you that she loved you so so much. Enjoy your time in heaven, B. Cheers!

God, I really hope that I won't stray from you ever again. Sorry for all the sins I've commited. Love you.

I finally know You do everything for a reason.

Life, what a cruel thing

Hmm.. What is there to say. Life is seriously a very fragile thing. One moment it's there, the next day it's gone. Nothing happened directly towards me though. But I've witnessed yet another person losing their loved ones. Why does God keep doing this to people? Or is it even him doing all these at all. Look at all the disasters. Isn't God supposed to be in control? If he is then why is he doing all these? Doesn't really make much sense to me. Of course I still believe in God it's just that sometimes I really doubt his intentions. Sometimes I really wonder if God is really like the God I learn about in church or if there is even a God at all. At times it's really hard to believe in God. Why does God remove the loved ones of people? To make the victims stronger? To I don't know what? But at the cost of what, someone's life? Is it God that removes life or what. I'm not even certain of that. Sometimes I wonder why all this shit happens to people all around the world. Everytime like someone i know dies even if not related closely to me I always end up crying. I don't know why. I really hate the sense of death near me.

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Self-denial is really the most effective coping mechanism there is besides God.

Hmm.. Quite a productive day today.

Err, studied and had fun today. Spent quite a fair bit of time with my brother today. Did all that I was supposed to do for today's E-Learning day.

Soccer at Anfield. Ok I suppose.

Haiz.. Quarreled with my mum. I was like playing Winning Eleven and she came in why you didn't study. I always see you playing. She really doesn't see me studying at all and thats bad. Next time I'm gonna play in the day and study at night!

I just found something sick out. YUCKS!

I'm proud of myself. I've been posting consistently for quite awhile now. Like 2 months? Anyway, I started this blog since Secondary 2 and it's been an on and off thing. Like I'll post for a few months then stop, then continue again. Really looking back at some of the posts makes me feel embarrassed, some makes me laugh at myself in my mind and there are others that cause me to reflect on my life. I hope I can be consistent this time round?

Today didn't do much. Accompanied my mum and brother to go swimming thats all. Haha. Short post today!

What a Saturday.

Studied in the morning basically. Noon time was play time for me. Continued my Arsenal dream youth team. Fabianski, Da Costa, Anton Ferdinand, Marcelo, Micah Richards, Anderson, Fabregas, Walcott, Quaresma, Van Persie, Bendter and other youth players. It's really nice to see their stats grow. Did I mention the misunderstanding with Alexander Benedict Yan? Ok, actually the misunderstanding is very minor but it is a misunderstanding to me. It was about the soccer competition. I was like "I want a fixed keeper, can you imagine if they say scorer becomes keeper. No motivation to score." Then he was like thats the wrong thinking. I forgot to say during the competition only and that I don't mind that rule in a normal game at Anfield cause it's like I'm going to that competition to win. But anyway, glad it's ok now. That's like my first misunderstanding with him.

Went to the hospital today to visit my aunt. Apparently something went wrong with her womb. Ouch. She's ok now. Oh, it was Mt. Elizabeth Hospital. I used to stay there alot when I was young. Like even if I had fever, my mum would send me there. Went to Paragon for dinner.

Met Eugene and Joel downstairs on the way home. Played soccer downstairs. Yea, the police came thanks to the second floor lady. What a !@$@$$#$@@$@$!#@!,$%!$%#@%$^#%$,@#! She's really irritating. Blisters on my leg now though. Ouch!

Oh yea, I'm either gonna support Netherlands or Portugal for the Euro 2008.

Today was kind of fun. Met up with Ding Chun, Lina, Mei & Serene for the LMS project. The presentation was straight away after the discussion and it was like almost Lina prepared everything. Thanks Lina for helping us so much. The presentation was quite easy except for the acting part but thank God we managed to do it well. Class ended early.

Escorted Sir Jerome Chua to Queensway to get his new boots. The people in the shop were really in awe of him. They passed him a ball and asked him to show his skills and you should have seen it, he did some unknown trick which is really damn fast. So in the end he got the boots at half price for the great show. His new boots is really the most IN thing in the soccer world. Checked out the Nike website and immediately after Jerome got that pair the rest went out of stock. Heard Nike is making a "Jerome" edition of that boots. Cool right. Went to eat Subway after that. He tricked me that he was eating so in the end I ate alone.

Nothing much happened today. Channel 8 shows are becoming more sadistic first The Truth and now Rhythm of Life. At first Rhythm of Life was good until the sadistic part came along. Also this is the first time I've seen a kissing scene in a Channel 8 show. As in those kind of intense kissing.

Watched Spiderman 2 on AXN just now and Mary Jane is seriously a bitch. I can give you 3 reasons.

1. She dumped that astronaut guy to be with Peter Parker.
2. After Spiderman saved her, she hugged that astronaut guy even though she still loves Peter Parker leading the astronaut on.
3. And girls are bitches and since Mary Jane is a girl, she is a bitch.

Well, so much for I don't wanna Warcraft in lecture anymore. Just did it again today. Hopefully, the last time though. Didn't even listen during lecture at all. Haven't been doing tutorials too for this week. From what I see I'm sliding down the failure path and it feels sucky but the worst part is I ain't doing anything about it. Ain't doing shit sounds nicer.

Macroeconomics tutorial after that. The tutor is actually a nice person, just that during lecture it's really quite noisy. Well, let's see. Business Law tutorial after that. Got back the test results, 18/20. Thankfully I changed B,C,C,C,B into C,C,C,C,B. Oh yea, I'm ok with my class in the Mighty Four (so they call themselves that. I'm tempted to call them Mighty ****s but I'm not gonna say it) But seriously, the vulgarities run out from people's mouth like water.

Gave Fairfield Dota Thursday a miss. Went home. I played soccer alone again downstairs. This time there was a couple sitting at the steps but I didn't really bother about them and just did my own stuff.

People in this world really try to take each other down alot, I'm sure everyone is both a victim and a culprit of such actions.

Hah! Had DSS presentation today in school. Wasn't really prepared but did fine thankfully. Hmm.. lecture was again Dota. Honestly, I really want to stop this crap but I really have no discipline. Not really connected with my class yet and I don't think it would be an easy task. They're nice people though, don't get me wrong. It's just me. Gave POA lecture a miss cause honestly I wouldn't even listen and I had to wait 3 hours for the lecture to start.

Played soccer at Anfield and played really badly. Worst game of 2007-2008 for me. Or maybe second worst. But it seriously sucked. I couldn't even get past a single person. Haha. But that's beside the point. I'm not going to give the off-form excuse but I seriously sucked today. Argh.. but it's like crap la.

Sorry Alden for not making it today but I'm sure you all will have fun. Sorry. Should I stay up for the match? It's like 2:36am now. Feel like sleeping though. Go Chelsea! Hope you guys win!

Quite a tiring day for me today. Lincoln's typical Tuesday. Day started of with DSS Quiz. I 1v1 someone in Dota after the quiz and I had a hard time. I was losing but I died once while killing him at the sametime and once by accident when somebody pressed F10 on my laptop. After that POA test. 32.5/50. Sucks big time. After that Dotaed again while waiting for the quiz to end and this time I owned.

Anyway lunched with some of the class. I chose to go with them instead of Alex and Joel for a few reasons. I had to wait an hour which I didn't mind if I did and I get to Dota with my class people after that. Haha. So played Dota at OurSpace after that.

Business Law lecture was Dota time again. Oh man.. Anyway, didn't even listen at all during lecture. Argh.. Err.. Alex who was the top scorer ah?

Ok after that went to SP. Met quite a few people on the way there. Joanna, Conrad and Jerene. So in the end Jerome didn't get his boots and I got my Converse shoe and a new soccer ball. I used Nets to pay. Cool ei. I used it once before but I seriously don't like to Nets stuff.

Went home and went downstairs to play soccer by myself. I think I found what I always do wrong when I shoot!!

Don't really wanna blog about yesterday. I skipped church for fun. And my handphone screen cracked. And I played mahjong with my family too.

Today was basically soccer at Telok Blangah. It was quite fun. Wore my mecurial. I'm used to it already as in I won't feel weird wearing it. Played with a team I didn't know today. It was fun. Really learned alot by playing with them. The weather was quite hot though. Next time I go there I'm going to drink lots of water before that. Anyway after that went to McDonalds with the soccer people and I went home to study.

Finished DSS at last. There's some test on DSS tomorrow and I'm not really prepared. Not to mention the POA test. Ahh... Haven't really been doing my tutorial work. Sian... Looks like I'm gonna mug till quite late tonight.

My laptop battery runs out like water. 10% per 10 minutes? Lol. Draw backs of having a 15.4" screen.

I'm going to make it a point not to have feelings for the opposite sex. That does not mean I'll be gay! It justs means I'm going to be damn cool. Kidding! Portsmouth just won Cardiff! Woo!! Too bad Defoe was cup tied and couldn't play or it would have been a much better match.

Here in this Diary

Long and tiring day today.

Went with Jerome to Queensway. Alex was supposed to come but he had to go send his brother for some class I think. Anyway, Jerome went there to look at his future boots. You all better watch out people.. I went to Converse to find the shoe that I wanted and it's really astounding that one of that kind of shoe costs close to 70 dollars? Crazy right? I honestly rather buy from Bata the $19.90 shoe.

After that went straight to Funan to meet my mum to get my new laptop. Had lunch at Swensense before that. So in the end, I chose between the small and compact and average performance HP dv3000, the large and bulky 15.3" Sony FZ-37 which is quite cool, ASUS which is a brand from Taiwan so that was easy to kick out of my decisions. Eventually, got the Sony FZ-37 based on the reliability of the brand Sony. I know I know, my old Sony laptop was quite screwed up but that was just a design fault. I checked to make sure this model does not have the same hold down lag problem. I hope I checked properly or I'll be pissed! Oh ya, it costed $2999 which is $1000 cheaper than my previous one. I can't believe it man, my mum offered to buy me the $4699 one. I was seriously quite tempted by it actually but decided to settle for the $2999. I got a $149 earphone too! Argh! I regret man, should have gotten the cheaper one cause the difference in quality between the $89 one and the $149 one isn't that much. From my point of view, definitely not worth the $60 difference. But it's ok, I have learnt my mistake.

Went home and was supposed to play pool with Jerome. Went down with him to take some photos. He is a total Peter Parker wanna be. Don't worry I didn't cam whore. Anyway instead of playing pool we went downstairs to play soccer. Wearing my Mecurial Vapour is seriously a curse. I don't feel comfortable wearing it. Not the leg uncomfortable, more of an image uncomfortable. Haha.

Hopefully I'll go church tomorrow. The moment I read Alex blog about POA needing to study my heart sank. It's true and yet I don't wanna study!

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.

Today is a good day!

Well, had the comfort of waking up late since school started at only 1pm. Ok, had breakfast and went to Queensway Shopping Centre to get shoes with Leroy, Alex and Alden. Good company. Well, went there at 10.45am but the stores only opened at 11.30am. Waited by the three of them playing football manager. So, Alden got the black Tempo! Good choice, you won't regret it. It will be good while it lasts. It's gonna be the best shoe you ever got. Haha. Alex didn't get his shoe in th end. He should have gotten the black and green Total 90 today. (Is it called Total 90? I'm not sure about the name) He didn't even get the Puma. I got the red Mecurial Vapor. It was abit hard to choose between the orangey yellow or the hot red. Got the hot red in the end and I don't regret it. Can't wait to wear it. Lunched at Subway after that. Italian BMT ftw! (Ftw means for the win, something Leroy thought me just a few days back) And please I didn't say fuc* at Subway ok, I said freak! You guys heard wrongly. I only say that word when I see certain ACJC people or when I'm really pissed off.

Cabbed to school after that for Life Management Skills. Went the slightly late though. (At around 1.05pm?) Yea, anyway I really like my LMS group. There is DC, Mei, Lina and Serene. All are from Business Studies except for Serene who is from Tourism. Really had fun with them.

Decided to play soccer after that. Well, today is like a super coincidental day for Serene and I. Felt coincidental for me at least. Please don't get the wrong idea though! She already has a boyfriend and my heart is still with.... Jesus. XOXO It was like Serene and I went into the lift and she asked me where I was going. Then I said Dover and she was going there too. So we took the same bus. Then we were talking about lots of stuff like our Secondary School, which church we're from and stuff like that. Then we talked about where we stayed. So she stayed at Heritage View. She stopped at Singapore Polytechnic there. So I called Alex and asked where Leroy and him were and they said at JJs house. I asked where and Alex said Heritage View. Coincidental right. Her first choice for the school thing was ACJC Arts which was heavily influenced by her tutor. Its good to know that I'm not the only person living "my" kind of life. I was sort of forced to put ACJC science as my first choice. Thus this coincidental day thing. I might sound like I like her but please don't get me wrong. I'm sure you all won't though cause the readers here are my good friends and I'm sure you know me better. (:

Went to JJ's blessed house. His house has a PS3, XBox 360 and a Wii. Best part is his room has a freaking toilet!! Argh, I want one! Went down to Anfield first to practice. I definitely want to master the ****e* as soon as possible. I realised something about my soccer now though. Almost every move I make is sort of based on instinct already which I really don't know is good or bad. From my point of view, I played overall quite well today except for the later part where my dribbles sort of screwed up. I nearly sprained my leg twice today though. Ouch!

On a more serious note. Alex today, you were seriously more arrogant than usual. Go ask Jerome, I'm quite sure he'll agree with me on that. I'm saying all this as a friend ok and really really no offense we all have our flaws and I'm just telling you really as a friend. I may or may not be right but... thats what I feel. And I said exceptionally cause you said you were arrogant.

Ok, I'm really thankful for (Alphabetical order) Alden, Alex and Jerome. They're really really great friends.

I met Alden in Primary 4 and at that time I was like you like Shumei ah? Then he'll be like who is Shumei? Wasn't really close to him back then but after Secondary 2,3 and 4, look where we are.

Meeting Alex was a super weird story. If I'm not wrong, it was in Secondary 3 during the sports day. Jerome sort of introduced us to each other. But my first sentence to him was "Who do you like?" and he went like "Joy Yeo." That was the start of our friendship and I'm quite sure you don't regret saying Joy Yeo. I told you I liked *o***a L** also ok.

Jerome is seriously like the oldest friend I have. Close to the end of K2 which means when we were around 5 years old? At the end of this year we would have been friends form around 12 years already!

Really thank God for all this close friends I have. I really treasure you all! God bless you in your mission trip Alden!!

Well, nothing much happened yesterday just that my iPod crashed.

Hmm.. I'm not really connected with my class and I don't know if I will ever be. There is this 2 people who are saying vulgarities the entire day. Honestly, if I'm not wrong, 7 out of 10 sentences contain vulgarities. Almost everyone in my class says the F word and I can feel the negativity of it spreading to me. I pray that I will be able to control my tongue. So its like every 8 minutes I hear a vulgarity. Sometimes I say it to, sad to say.

Well, school was basically the same with the exception of Business Law test. Yeap.

Well, today was kind of normal. Had tutorials, lectures etc.

Went to Anfield for soccer after that.

I know my posts are kind of short recently but bear with it, I really have too much stuff to do.

Nothing much happened today just that I have finally gave my laptop back to Sony.

Alex told me to take this test and it's so damn true..

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Even the "In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now." is true in the sense that I've never really looked at marriage yet unlike Alex and Jerome.

Alright. Didn't go church this week and basically stayed at home and tried to catch up on my homework. My desktop crashed!! I'm like the dumbest idiot. I deleted the anti-virus to be able to play Half-Life 2 thinking that I would never catch virus but here i am wishing I didn't uninstall it! Refomatted my hard drive and the problem is solved. But I can't seem to be able to install MSN Messenger!

Man United won the title.

Ok, lots of stuff happened today.

Firstly sorry Jerome for being unable to make it for your project. Well, had to bring my brother, Trevor for tuition at Bukit Timah Plaza. Left home at 10.15am so we reached there at 10.30am. Walked around with my brother to Popular and other places there. Sent him to class and since I couldn't find a place to sit down to do my work, I went to practice pool on my own. It was quite fun especially since I played with a stranger. Ok, he was sitting on the couch waiting for his friend so I walked up and asked him, "Hey, wanna play?" Eventually he said yes. It was a fun match. I won the match but it was a close call. He had like two taiko shots one after the other and one more taiko shot after that. I wanted to bring up the "Taiko no count rule" but in the end didn't. I did alot of good shots non of them taiko. One trick shot as well. Haha. In the end he cleared all his balls and had the black ball left while I had still one more ball to go. He tried a trick shot but missed so I got a free ball. The black ball and my ball were at both ends but in the end I set up for the last shot quite well and won. I could tell that he didn't expect me to be that good and I know he still thinks he is better than me which could be possible. While playing pool, my mum gave me a call that my grandmother fell down. I didn't know how to respond but after my brother's tuition my mum would come to have lunch and bring us to the hospital. Met Brandon at the pool place as well. Brandon is my Red Cross senior and is older than me by a year. He totally couldn't recognise me at all until I said hi to him.

Anyway went for lunch and went to Alexandra hospital. Thank God that my grandmother is fine. I was really quite worried for her. Waited there for quite awhile and then went back to my grandmother's house while my mum and brother went to meet my cousin at Paragon.

After that went home. Ok, there was this super big prank that Tai Li pulled. He was like, do you know that Raymond's mom died yesterday to Timothy. And then Timothy told Kenneth. And then Kenneth told me. Well in the end Tai Li was bullshitting about..

Well, gave school a miss today. Already spread my cough to one person. And the coughing is really quite bad. My chests hurts when I cough too. Well, went to see the doctor in the morning.

Then Jerome came in the afternoon to do stuff.

Ok then in the evening, Katerine called and liked explained the situation on the DSS project which happens to be due next week. Thankfully she called and we met at Bukit Merah Library to do the project. Completed my task at last. Many thanks to Katerine. But it was awkward for me. I seriously hate being with the opposite sex one on one.

Well, I feel like I should have gone school. It's like I don't even know the reasons why I'm not going. Is it because I'm scared I spread my sickness to others? (The thought did come to my mind) or was it because I was just plain lazy. The mind is such a confusing thing.

Today I didn't play Dota in lecture! Purposely left my notebook uncharged so I won't be able to play it. I could have played but for just 20 minutes though which is as good as not playing. Macroeconomics lecture it was! Learned quite a fair bit. After that was on to Macroeconomics lecture. 4 hours of macroecons can be a bore. Really quite hard to concentrate.

Had lunch break with Fairsians today. Then Business Law lecture. Had to do some presentation and I was quite unprepared but thank God I managed to do okay in the end.

After that was basically just Dota Thursday with Fairsians. Owned quite alot though my team lost AGAIN. I always own but I always lose in the end.

Hmm.. Sick with bad sore throat/cough. It seriously hurts.

What a day it is. Was actually. Same routine, woke up at 7.20am showered and off to school! I've been thinking alot recently about those good old Fairfield days. It would be wake up at 5.50am, bathe, go down to Jerome's house at 6.20am and if he is asleep wake him up. His uncle then drives us to school and we enter the gate to school. Ahh.. Those were the days. And then I will meet Fairsians at the covered place and we will sit there and copy homework, piss Matthew off, look at Alden catching glimpses of ****, Alex acting like some "Dua Pai" cause he gotta collect the register. Kidding about that "Dua Pai" part. Joel gaying about. People studying. I have to admit single time I went to the locker, I went with the hopes of meeting her and 2 out of 10 times I really do meet her. Most of the time I will know when I'm going to meet her and I will plan what to do/say. Crafty eii!

Hmm.. Those days seems so far now. I'm not very close with my poly class yet though. There is like this Elite 4 thing where they are like the pro clique. To some of my classmates I am anti-social cause I keep disappearing during lectures etc. But I made some interesting friends there. Ok lecture was Dota time again. Sadly. Ok, for project I was like stuck with 4 girls. My gosh man.. It was seriously quite awkward for me. At first, I thought what would people think of me. Like was I some flirt or maybe some sissy. Lol. But in the end I was reminded that I don't have to really care what people think of me as long as I know myself. Sometimes its hard.

Well, soccer at Anfield was sian cause of the Sepak Takrau gang. They are really quite irritating but yet somewhere deep inside I kind of pity them cause its like a free court and all and we are really being quite an ass at times. Well... Gotta do Macroecons!! Save me!

Sometimes I really read to deep into things. I think the way I think is very complicated and in the end the way I think ends up hurting myself. No, I did not hurt myself today but I keep looking back at my life and realise I really read to deep into things.

What an emo day.

Day started off well. Had the usual DSS workshop which wasn't that much of a bore due to CS. I played 1 hour and listened 1 hour when the rest of the stuff was not important. I know how to prioritize ok. Well people are starting to say that my hair is emo which is totally not. Anyway after DSS was POA tutorial which was quite interesting. The teacher is quite cool. He allowed us to bring food in.

Well, had a 2 hour break. Went to OurSpace with half the class and played Dota and CS. Dota was good. Lightning reverent owns. I picked it at first then for the next round I randomed it.

Business Law lecture was crazy. Played Dota again and Alex's lion was totally owning the game. Don't ask me how. (:







Today is seriously an emo day for me. I asked people why are Jay Chou songs emo during class and on the way back I was listening to Jay Chou songs and everyone around me in the bus was like boy girl boy girl boy girl and I was sitting alone. Lol. Guess who I met too to top it off with more EMOness.

Sometimes your day goes so well and one bitch comes and screw it all up. Want to kao pei kao pei then you kao pei back you get kao peied. What the hell right? What goes around comes around man.

So much work to do. Anyway business management tutorial was not bad. But doing the tutorial work is really the killer. I have to buy sweets and water every morning to make sure I don't fall asleep during tutorials or lectures.

Argh lectures are getting more and more screwed. Not listening at all!! Polytechnic was not as slack as I thought after all. You can definitely feel the pressure.

List of stuff I have to do.
1) DSS Project
2) Business Law Project
3) Tutorials tutorials tutorials
4) Study!!

Hah! I went jogging today at around 7.45pm. It was quite cool. Jogged alot didn't count how long but at slightly faster than 2.4 pace for 15 minutes. Played soccer downstairs on my own for awhile. Can't shoot for nuts anymore!

Went to church today! Adult service with my family. Was great just going back to church. Going to go back for Youth Service next week. After church went to Bugis for lunch then came home and completed DSS. Thank God for my classmate! Without her, my DSS would be screwed. So I almost completed my DSS already.

You know how badly pride can screw your life up? My dad used to be a five figure earner until he felt the boss gave him no face. What the hell right?

Anyway, got into BA envoys which is going to be fun from what I feel. Really gotta start studying hard!

Spent today trying to do DSS. I wasted many hours just sitting there trying to figure out on how to go about using excel but I eventually gave up! And I wasted around 4 hours just sitting in front of the computer trying to figure out that dumb thing. Didn't even go out yesterday. Slacked. Man United won. Argh!

Hah! School started at 1pm today so it's a good thing. Managed to catch up on my sleep. Met my LMS group members. DC, Serene, Mei and I don't know the other girl's name. I'm going to find out though.

After school went to OurSpace to meet up with the DSS group. There's really alot for me to do now. Went to play soccer at Anfield and here I am now.

Things I must do
1) All my tutorial work which is like 4 or 5 modules?
2) DSS Project
3) DSS Assignment
4) Start on GTAIV

DSS is seriously the bitc*! It really pisses me off just doing that module all that dumb excel nonsense!

Ok there's alot for me to catch up on.

30/4/08-Wednesday

Can't remember much about that day just that after school, Leroy, Alex and I went to Anfield to play soccer and after that they came over to stay over. Played pool at Depot Road and was really off form. Really disappointed at myself. But form is something I can never control so it's like ARGH! After that went to Macdonald's for a late dinner as Botak Jones was close.

Alden met us and Alex had to go cause of his father. Played abit of Dota with them. Watched the Chelsea vs Liverpool match which Chelsea won!! Not that I support Chelsea or anything but too many people wanted Liverpool to win and I don't really like Liverpool. We took turns to sleep during the match. Then after each goal someone would shout and we would all wake up. Ended up sleeping at 5.15am? Late huh!

1/5/08-Thursday

Woke up at 8.30am so I only had 3 hours and 15 minutes of sleep. Went to Telok Blangah to play soccer and it felt good! It's been a long time since I've been there to play and it really reminds me of the Secondary School days. This time round the Anfield people came but hopefully next time it would be the "Telok Blangah Starting Eleven" Jerome, Wesley, Alex, Alden, Brian, Caleb, Kei Fer, Spencer, Mok, err I can't remember the rest but you get what I mean. Really felt good playing there again. Got sun burnt especially when my skin is super sensitive right now since I'm under some stupid medication!

After that more than 10 people came to my house to bathe. Crazy right? I totally didn't know they were coming or I would have made preparations for their arrival. Played mass Dota and Pro Evolution! Was very fun but my house was in a total mess. After that went to watch Iron Man at Lido. Not bad a show but had many faults too. Like how was the bad guy able to use that Iron Monger amour. I just feel that something is missing from the movie that is in the comics/cartoon.

I'm in school now and since I have like ten minutes to blog, I shall blog about yesterday. Wanted to update the blog yesterday but had a good talk with my mum about family matters.

Anyway, I can't stand it. Everytime I eat breakfast after I waking up I end up having a very bad stomachache. Sick right. It's been like this for super long already, probably since end of Secondary 2? It really bugs me sometimes. Anyway I'm like in this new class now with people I don't know at all. Met some new friends from other classes and they're really nice people.

Ok back to yesterday before I drift off. Tuesdays are my longests days and like yesterday ended up at 7pm? Yesterday went with Ruslan, Reginal and Rui Ting for lunch at KFC at Bukit Timah Plaza. Didn't know there was one there. Anyway I really got to understand how the minds of those "gangsters" think. Most of them need attention and non really give it to them. I really hope I can change the lifes of such people especially when they are my friends. Well after lunch, went back to OurSpace and played Dota. Owned like mad but lost the game cause the last part I died alot.

After 7pm, went to Tiong Baruh Plaza to go collect Grand Theft Auto IV. Only played it for like 10 minutes after that and so far it wasn't really that good. From my point of view at least.